My diary, my new life, my fightback

Posted by: Paulscottb

Hi HC. Haven’t been on here for a while. Great to see that you’re still doing well. Fantastic progress. I m 72 days today. 72 days which have made a massive difference to my life. Don’t feel any temptation and like you can look at me last two bank statements without shame and regret. 

Well played sir. 

Thanks mate good to see you still strong.

its a great feeling looking through a normal bank statement 2 months in a row.

bloody proud of myself

just noticed my credit score has just gone up to its highest in a year 

Day 78 begins, pay day tomoz and now for the first time in 3 months I’m settled and know what’s coming out.

im ready to hand my finances over next week to a trusted person, another step towards self preservation.

big moment for me

Good call buddy and another reason to be v proud of yourself :))

All the best 🙂

Day 79;, pay day my 3rd on this quest, I do get regrets that I watch all my money coming out my wages and I’m left with very little for what I earn.

however it’s my bed and one day it will change, my debt is coming down, for 79 days I’ve not added to it, I’ve not been online to gamble and I haven’t stepped in a bookies since that gut busting £40 bet, thank god that horse finished second or I fear I’d still be gambling.

today I will not gamble and I’m now 21 days from my first milestone of 100 days.

have a great gamble free day

Day 80.

the days are flying by, read a few new bits on here lately, by god we have all been silly, it’s amazing how alike and how some have never learned from past mistakes me included.

well no more will I gamble 

Day 81, 

no gambling, still gf

Day 82 begins.

Had a battle with my head yesterday, classic me , a deal went wrong and I paid way too much for something and I also bought some clothes that didn't fit and lost the receipt and my mind started to fret , guess what thoughts came into my head, yep " go on win it back " .

I came so close to saying " fk this just try it " .have to be honest and tell you all that, thankfully I didn't do it .The day ended well with me getting paid £330 on a deal.into the bank it went.Close call yesterday

Well done for not giving in to temptation.

Remember it’s a long term thing and yes, you could’ve made money back, but if that had triggered you, that money would’ve soon been gone.

82 days. Awesome. Stay strong.

Have a re-read of your own diary as another reminder as to why you’re here. You’re doing exceptionally well.

Posted by: bdog

Well done for not giving in to temptation.

Remember it’s a long term thing and yes, you could’ve made money back, but if that had triggered you, that money would’ve soon been gone.

82 days. Awesome. Stay strong.

Have a re-read of your own diary as another reminder as to why you’re here. You’re doing exceptionally well.

Thanks for the support, yep as ever a constant reminder that this is for life to people.

the little voice is always there.

Day 83 , not much planned today , keeping away from sports.

The day finishes.little things creeping back into my head.today for the first time since I stopped gambling I checked the racing results, I knew because of adverts it was Derby day, I also googled new betting sites.

I will always be 100% honest. I've no idea why I look at those sites as I know I cant gamble.its been a massive part of my life I guess its habit.

I need to stop being complacent. Get back to keeping off the internet, plan better. My guard is slipping.

I didn't gamble.i wont.i cant

Day 84, lots planned the next 3 days

Just popped by to thank you for posting on my diary. I appreciate your advice, 

I do believe we need to make changes to our lifestyle when we stop gambling but how we do that is different for everyone. 

Take good care of yourself and enjoy the week ahead. 

Thanks HC for dropping by. I do appreciate the encouragement. You are doing great- you are stronger than those malicious voices that try and take you down the wrong path. Well done so far.