My diary, my new life, my fightback

The day finishes.little things creeping back into my head.today for the first time since I stopped gambling I checked the racing results, I knew because of adverts it was Derby day, I also googled new betting sites.

I will always be 100% honest. I've no idea why I look at those sites as I know I cant gamble.its been a massive part of my life I guess its habit.

I need to stop being complacent. Get back to keeping off the internet, plan better. My guard is slipping.

I didn't gamble.i wont.i cant

Day 84, lots planned the next 3 days

Just popped by to thank you for posting on my diary. I appreciate your advice, 

I do believe we need to make changes to our lifestyle when we stop gambling but how we do that is different for everyone. 

Take good care of yourself and enjoy the week ahead. 

Thanks HC for dropping by. I do appreciate the encouragement. You are doing great- you are stronger than those malicious voices that try and take you down the wrong path. Well done so far. 

Posted by: Stephen Sensible

Just popped by to thank you for posting on my diary. I appreciate your advice, 

I do believe we need to make changes to our lifestyle when we stop gambling but how we do that is different for everyone. 

Take good care of yourself and enjoy the week ahead. 

Thanks pal, we all do things different but ultimately we want a GF lifestyle, it’s bloody hard.

change I agree is a must, also determition.

Day 85, today I have an interview for promotion, not sure I’m up to it, I like stability especially now but in life you have to go for certain things.

im cool if I don’t get it, I have a job I love anyway.

no chance of gambling today 

Hi

Fear of change was one of of my emotional triggers.

In time the more effort I put in to my life the more confident I became.

The consequences of our healthy actions and our healthy words is pride in our self.

Sadly often people see in us more potential than we are able to see in our self.

The more healthy things I do with my life the less vulnerable I become.

Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA

Dave of Beckenham

Thanks Dave.

day 86, no dramas, very busy at work so not a chance of gambling .

things are steady 

Day 87 comes and goes, still waiting to hear about the job.

Fingers crossed ? 

Day 88

Read a diary with folk who have gambled again.timely reminders that it can come out the blue and wreck you .

I never want to gamble ever again

Day 88 done.had thoughts about gambling today set off by thinking about bills.no idea why but I wont lie, I was very close today to wandering into a betting shop.

Thankfully I didn't as that would kill me.Just need to settle down tonight. 

This wont get me .its trying though 

Hi

By admitting you are emotionally vulnerable is a sign of strength.

Thank you for your honesty

Dave L

Hi holycrosser,

Well done; it sounds like you've had a tough day today but you have kept on track and have achieved another GF day. 

If you do need any further support this evening the netline and helpline are both available until midnight.

Wishing you all the very best,

Forum Admin

Posted by: gadaveuk

Hi

By admitting you are emotionally vulnerable is a sign of strength.

Thank you for your honesty

Dave L

Thanks Dave and admin for your support, today I was fine.

At times we are on the very edge of losing it, its the addiction, the anxiety of debt etc, it’s the only trigger for me , I’m ok, I’ve gone past it.

This will always be a battle, never forget that.