Well sailed through today. No thoughts of gambling. Got bord for around 10 mins earlier in the day but was instantly aware of what I needed to do. Worked on some pain in the @ss projects I had not finished. Boredom soon left as I got into miles of .. well boring php code. Im really learning lots from reading through diarys here the past few days. Somthing new always comes up and strikes home.
Reasons I am quitting gambling :
1: I need to or I will 100% end up on skid row and I mean homless on the street with nothing.
2: Im actually bored & tired of the gamble even the chase. Never ever have I felt this in my life
3 : Im so d**n tired of number crunching in my head when I loose or even win. Remember if those you love dont know you have to be cunning (and a LIAR) to cover the fact that suddenly £xxxxx is hanging around in a bank account.
4 : I have a job that im lucky to have it can pay big somtimes. And I have 3 of the most incredible children and a wife who I adore.
I just dont want to loose that. Onwards.
Cheers for the post on my diary blocked. Strangely enough I trawled through your diary too today it’s always good (or bad depends on which way you look at it!!) to see a diary that’s not been on for a bit.
Firstly I admire that you have come back, I too have thought about opening another gamcare account but your right it would only add to the deceit and lies, if you can’t be true full here it wouldn’t be a positive sign. Also a good sign is that you came back before things got too bad.
I see from your diary that you have a partner and kids, a post on my diary from another user really hit home:
“You’re lucky to have a Mrs and a kid. I wish I did. That’s the one thing I wish the most what you have”
Hope you have a good weekend man from a sweltering e.yorkshire!!
Hi. Blocked
Thanks for your post on my diary. It's great that you've come back here. I hope your spell away has helped you in some way to be determined to change things. I'm new here but I know it's not about how many times you fall, it's about getting back up and trying again.
All the best to you in your recovery
Lili
I enjoyed reading your list of reasons to quit gambling. You have some great motivators there.
You sound strong and determined, and this makes me feel happy for you.
Take care,
f x
Was a good day yesterday no gamble. Today will be the same. Had some money arrive in my account and have spent what needed to spent on the right things.
Its only a few days since I quit again I just wish it could be as easy as this all the time ?
Happy decent day today so far 🙂 Onwards.
Blocked
Just popping in m8 to say hope you got over today ok as it can be a hard time.All the best Jeff.
Didnt gamble yesterday and today wont. Got to visit the accountant tomorrow am worried about that as my bank statments etc a real mess with all those transactions. Stressed over this. Feel very angry with myself today for the absolute mess I have caused the last 18 months with all this. Cant somtimes belive what an idiot I have been!!!
Dont want to face the reality somtimes of the long term financial mess up this has all caused. I do know though trying to gamble my way out of it is not the answer.
Hi Blocked,
Thx for your post...
Been reading through your entire diary...quite a rollercoaster. I myself have been the same but I guess it just has to be that way. Learning can only come from pain and loss. Sad but true I think...for my part i have hurt and lost enough. Sounds like you have to...remember:You are on top today when you dont gamble. It can ALWAYS get worse...be strong m8!
Cheers M
Well got through whole of today without placing a bet. Didnt think much about it. Went to a forum I am a part of (related to gambling) was looking through some of the posts and some images of peoples online wins. Made me sad to think of all the hours I have wasted at such places. I know its probably not wise, like maybe the horse race fanatic who is in a quit but still reads the form. Some habbits though ...
Got the accountant meeting tomorrow and Im just going to have to face it head on. Im worried over it though. Work output not great today and have been an a pain in b**t for the kids with my bad mood. Feel guilty about that. Anyway at least im through day 4 now.
Blocked,i'm really pleased you've comeback on here,and it goes without saying i wish you every success in beating this horrible addiction,like me and countless others, you know exactly what type of person you become when in full blown action,and that person bears little resemblance to the real you!!!.Best thoughts to you.
Seano.
Hi Blocked
Thanks for post. Good man. You can count on my continued support mate. We have all got to conquer this. All the best to you.
Hi blocked, well done on day 4 and more importantly on your new resolve to stop. I hope things go OK at the accountants and that you can start to shed some of the stresses now you are stopped all gambling! I can remember reading your diary before and it is full of ups and downs but I think you have a lot of creative energy (from the way you write) and this would find a new channel if you can spend an extended time away from gambling and wean your body off the tension highs of secret bets.
Hope you don't mind me putting my 2p worth in.
The other thing I thought reading your last post is that when I see gambling advertising in future I am going to remember all the pain, heartbreak and misery i have read about on this site and remember what FUNDS this advertising.
4D
Thanks for all the replys )
Just about to go to the accountants, last night was a horror the shower blew and water everywhere - lights fused - water had to be turned off. Managed to get it fixed today but cost £££ really dont need this right now ach!!!!pijdsfsidof290u3rhkklasa
Im hoping that today goes OK. Feel sick with worry. Day 5. Wont gamble. Blocked.
Hope the visit to the accountant goes ok Blocked,stay strong mate.
Seano.
Thanks Seano and others for replys of support. Its always really helpfull!!
Day 6 no bets. Wont gamble today. Didnt get very far with account meeting yesterday. Have to call again later this week. Want again to put as much distance between myself and my gambling. But I have said that before. I dont want to be one those people who continually fail to quit. This time I have to do it. No real thoughts of wanting to gamble so thats good. Just feel low at the moment about it all. What a mess. Ok need to work 🙁
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