My recovery

Day 53:

Still clean. Very focussed and finding it surprisingly easy. Too much to lose if I mess up. I’ll keep chalking off the days.

Liam

Day 100!

If you asked me 4 months ago if I could ever not gamble for 100 days I’d of just laughed. But I’ve done it, and found it suprisingly easier than I imagined.

I have a 5 month old daughter which has made it easier for me. I can confidently say I will never gamble again. Many people will of said that and relapsed, but I won’t. I’m in the best place I’ve ever been in my life probably.

I’m building trust back up, and saving money. The feeling is unreal.

As of today I’ve only had 1 counselling session, unless I use holidays at work I can’t make them. I’ve kind of abandoned gamcare the last 6 weeks or so and the forums/chat. I wanted to enjoy Christmas and family time without worrying about logging on at 8pm every night for an hour. I’m going to start going on again now though it’s a new year and help those who have helped me.

Here’s to a happy, healthy, gamble free 2019.

Liam.

brilliant well done mate youve been through a lot and look like you are nicely coming out of the other side. but keep your focus. i can tell you from experience that the gambling monkey may be off your back but hes still in the room. i did 128 days felt great, amazing, patting myself on the back and then out of the blue on day 129 i managed to find an obscure sh*tty casino in malta or somewhere that wasnt covered by gamstop and spent £350 in a couple of hours. i was massively annoyed with myself , the disappoinment i had relapsed hurt me more than the money and i still couldnt tell you why i did it. the following day was day 1 again and today is day 101 so im back in the game , should be day 330 though. keep strong watch out for the monkey and never forget how sweeter your life is without gambling,

Day 150

One day at a time, keep ticking them off.

All is well,

Liam

Day 158:

Still not gambled, and I won’t. But anxiety has destroyed me the last 8 days. Trying to stay positive in a tough time.

Liam

Lnimd wrote:

Day 158:

Still not gambled, and I won’t. But anxiety has destroyed me the last 8 days. Trying to stay positive in a tough time.

Liam

Hope the anxiety gets better Liam.
Keep making positive progress your baby will be so proud of you in the coming years. Having her Daddy there for her and making cherished memories.

Keep smiling.
Bella xx

Day 175:

Thanks for your kind words Bella, hope you’re well.

Almost 6 months clean. Still no intentions of gambling. Had a tough 4 weeks battling anxiety but I’m slowly getting out of the dark period. Building up a network and helping fellow gamblers through social media.

One day at a time.

Liam

6 MONTHS GF

Day 182:

Hi there,

6 months ago today was my last gamble and my rock bottom. 6 months later I’m pleased with myself but not letting my guard slip. Now is not the time to be complacent.

Next month I’ve been invited to a meeting to help out at the new gambling clinic in Leeds. Helping others is something I’m passionate about, especially as I’m in a good place.

Keep going everyone,

Liam