I was just thinking it's funny how once you have moved away from gambling your brain works in the same way to encourage you to do things but without gambling i seem to persuade myself to do the right thing rather than withdraw another 500 quid and waste it in a slot machine. Is like a can see things a bit more clearly now
Saffie, it's very encouraging for me reading through your comments, your doing so well.
I didn't lose anywhere near what you lost but I still feel the same as you, I have previously gone a year gamble free and I felt great and it was so rewarding telling my wife and parents that I hadn't gambled for a whole year, but for some reason I relapsed and further on relapsed again this past week.
Trust me when I say going back to gambling is a definite no, because yes there is the chance you will win but as CG we won't be happy with that one win and we will eventually lose and chase our losses and make our circumstances worse.
Please keep up what your doing, I'm on day one gamble free and really want to cap it this time.
Saffie - from reading your posts I totally relate to your mindset. The inner conversations and debates. Stay strong. You may not feel like it but you are actually inspirational in your honesty. Chasing losses never ends well as compulsive gamblers we don't have the stop function. Keep going and enjoy seeing a bank statement with no deposits. I strive to be where you are in 37 days. X
So day 39. Having a day out today with my husband whixh will be lovely, and a nice meal out tonight.
Thanks meef and Annie it's good to hear I'm not the only one that has these thoughts. Most of my thinking seems to be how i reduce my debt now and that's when gambling enters my thoughts. I know what will happen though, I will get in more debt.
It's so difficult to keep telling yourself not to do it but with day 40 approaching I am feeling strong. Hope you are both feeling strong on your journeys too x
Day 40! Had a great day yesterday, was in London. I did walk past a casino I used to go to in Leicester Square and it did seriously cross my mind to go in but I resisted and the thought was soon gone but it did make me realise I am by no means out of the danger zone. I have to keep busy as there is one day this week I have no plans so don't want to fall in to the temptation but am also motivated by day 50 so hopefully that's enough to keep me away.
Hope you're all having a great Sunday
Great stuff Saffie. You are doing great. x
Thanks Annie. Day 41 and still hanging on in there. As my mind has started to clear from the addiction it becomes more and more apparent how much of a problem my debt is but i can also see there's no point in getting in more debt on the chance of repaying some.
Worked some overtime this weekend which will help next month to pay a bit more off. Just trying to keep focussed but getting anxious about money.
Day 42. Still having nagging thoughts but the fog is lifting and my thoughts are clearer that I must not gamble. I will do this.
Day 43 still going strong!
Hi saffie,
Glad to hear the fog is lifting. Tell those nagging thoughts to take a hike, show them you're in control now.
You're doing so well - you can do it!!!!
All good wishes x
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