DAY 237/238
Thanks Castle for your post. Yes the football in back. Done my food shopping and been down the skip today, not watching the Blackpool game. I'll have to wait until Monday to watch the mighty Palace, so will sit back, chill and hopefully we'll not be any further adrift at the bottom before the end of the day.
I've not seen Argo yet but hopefully I will tonight.
Not had any urges feel really solid again and am pleased to have the folks back. They are proud of how well I am doing, I won't mention the one slip I had which would only do more damage if they knew and it didn't cost me a lot.
Sadly brought a pack of f**s last night after going five days without them, this is a addiction I will have to give a bit more thought towards arresting.
240/241
Well I am very deflated at work today, to see my beloved Palace lose 1-4 after taking the lead was too much. I now am adamant we are completely out of our depth and this season is going to be a very, very long one. Arsenal up next, god we are screwed!
All is calm on the western front and have no desire to gamble.
Wilsy
Fella I watched the game and have to say those were two world class goals!!
Just in the wrong net !!
I think it will be a long hard season but one were you will find some wins and alot of enjoyment along the way.
re the old demon smoking, for me the toughest addiction I have faced, I do still reminess about that morning smoke!! then bump myself down to reality when I see the price!! I smoked a good twenty a day, not to mention how many my staff helped themselves to each day !!
My advice get help, I had the gum very useful, now today I chew alot of wriggleys lol!!
Those electric ones( our shiny friend has I believe favoured them) may be a way to go and they dont look bad either and you can use them were you like!!!
Keep up the good work fella.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Wilsy,
Just a fly by to check you are O.K. and all is well. Sorry to see your team struggling and even more sorry to see the departure of your manager although being a fan you may disagree. A lot of new faces through the door a bit like Sunderland but I hope things will turn once the new man is in.
What is happening with Barry Bannan? Is he injured or just not up to the job?
Anyway, I hope all is well and your recent slip is behind you.
Tomso.
DAY 243/244
Hi Duncan and Tomso. Thanks for your posts, let's have a chat about the football tonight as it is very much on my find. After seeing the Holloway press conference the other night I must say 'Wow' what an honest, dignified man, he can leave with his head very high. I have been gutted the last two days as I loved the guy but..... he is very clever and he has done this with our best intentions at mind. I have no doubt he loves our club, and I really reckon this will be the springboard to getting some passion back and giving it a dammed good go!
Can't go tomorrow but the wedding I am going to isn't until 2.45 so can near enough watch the whole game.
I don't know where Bannan is Tomso, like the look of him but with so many players to choose from I just wonder if he was left out the other night, or if he has sad something/bad attitude, I don't know, maybe not fit.
Been smoking more regularly the last two days, guess I am not ready to give up yet.
No gambling urges since my two hour binge. Feeling normal again and busy at work.
Cheers guys will post you back soon but going to bed now. COYP!!
Day 247 out of 248 (one 2 hour blip)
All is good on this front, spending less and less time on this site at the moment but that's more likely because gambling couldn't be further away from my thoughts, which is a good thing.
Not liking these darker evenings, I jump into bed with my extra blanket the moment I get in.
Skint, payday Thursday and have my car MOT on the 9/11 so a tight month in store.
Day 248/249
Got Football Manager 2014 lol, goodbye world!
Day 253/255
Got to last Thursday and gambled again sadly, sounds as if a few of us have had troubles recently, so out of 255 days I have gambled twice, I still take comfort I have done exceptionally well, just need to get my focus back.
I am going to start counting again from zero so last Friday was day 1, today is day 5.
Money is tight now this month so will try not to chase and will cut my losses. Getting back on track is important as I feel I can keep this relapse to myself without upsetting the folks but if I continue to take chances, then I won't be able to cover my tracks. I don't want to struggle or lie I just want to get back to normal and not gamble again.
Hi Andy
Done the right thing coming straight back on and dealing with it and sometimes that's all we can do, were only human and there has to be a level of acceptance that the possibility is there that we can all gamble at any one moment in time at the end of the day we are all compulsive gamblers and it will always be in our nature it really all is bout what we do next
Support always here for u castle2
Hey Wilsy
Sorry to hear about your recent slip but you are doing the right thing and trying to stay focussed and committed in not chasing your losses. That we all know, ultimately, does not work and usually only leaves people like us even more financially worse off.
I know it's hard starting from day one again after such a small blip but already, I am fast approaching week 12 since my two hour blip. It will soon pass by for you too as long as you get right back on track, which sounds like what you are wanting to do.
Take care and keep doing what you have been doing for most of the time.
Feb.
Yo,
Just sending you my support. Please please do not undervalue how far you have come .
It's a long way forward from the days of relapsing almost weekly or when mum and dad went away .
Keep going mate , even when money's tight and this damed addiction tries to temp us with unkept promises .
Take care Hun
Shiny xxxxx
Well done WIlsy you have done so well I have watched your progress over the last 9 months keep it up. You deserve your success you have tried so hard.
Andy
Fela thanks the post on my thread, it does seem that addiction put inself in the spotlight for too many of us last week.
Keep making the right choice fella, gambling as we both know will never provide the answer.
Regards facebook fella no account for me, if you want to contact away from the forum I am more than happy to exchange email details and go from there, to do so you have to email gamcare through the contact us section and request an exchange, I have already done so with many members of the forum, it has helped me greatly and some things of a more personal nature for some have been made easier for some.
If you want to exchange let me know and I will to contact gamcare.
As I say fella keep making the right choice.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Wilsy,
I fully sympathise with your situation at the moment. I have been there and no what it is like to relapse after a long spell and then it becomes so easy to relapse again. I wasn't able to forgive myself for my relapse and have had a truly awful year in terms of my recovery. Don't let it happen to you. Accept it and move on. I am privileged to be taking the same journey with you. I need to do it this time around.
Tomso.
Wilsy,
Just checking all is O.K. with you. I hope you are not going through a hard time and will send a post soon.
You should not forget the progress you have made this year.
I really hope all is fine.
Tomso.
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