My story of recovery

Hi Jappy,

Have just read your diary it's inspiring stuff and you are doing wonderfully! I've noticed a few times you asking about credit and cheaper credit. I have a credit score of poor (493) and was able to get a loan from 118 last January. £1000 cost me £1198 over 12 months and was a simple process. I found this far cheaper than the payday loans I had and credit cards.

I will have to purchase the Allan Carr book as have saw a few people mentioning it. Day 9 for me can't wait to be at the same satgw as you, one day at a time eh!

All the best

Dave

First of all congrats on reaching 90days.

Great mindset in that post. You are not your thoughts Jappy and in the past that is where we have gone wrong. We all have choices that we can make and even though we are compulsive gamblers, if we give the addiction the attention it deserves then we keep it locked up and not choose to be a victim of gambling.

In regards to your previous post are you going away with your friends? If so I’m guessing they do not know about your addiction?

Thanks Dave reading others stories help me we’re all in it! It’s all about today! Keep posting

DrDave wrote:

Hi Jappy,

Have just read your diary it's inspiring stuff and you are doing wonderfully! I've noticed a few times you asking about credit and cheaper credit. I have a credit score of poor (493) and was able to get a loan from 118 last January. £1000 cost me £1198 over 12 months and was a simple process. I found this far cheaper than the payday loans I had and credit cards.

I will have to purchase the Allan Carr book as have saw a few people mentioning it. Day 9 for me can't wait to be at the same satgw as you, one day at a time eh!

All the best

Dave

Onwardsandupwards wrote:

First of all congrats on reaching 90days.

Great mindset in that post. You are not your thoughts Jappy and in the past that is where we have gone wrong. We all have choices that we can make and even though we are compulsive gamblers, if we give the addiction the attention it deserves then we keep it locked up and not choose to be a victim of gambling.

In regards to your previous post are you going away with your friends? If so I’m guessing they do not know about your addiction?

Hi onandup i am going with friends and they sort of know so hopefully will be ok but it doesn’t stop mind playing up in the meantime! Hope you’re going on ok and thanks for the post together we can beat it today!!

Today away with work and it is very cold! Waiting for public transport- I would have been straight in the warmth of the bookies to keep warm!! Today hands are cold but I will get a coffee shortly- keep safe and gf today

Congratulations on the 100 days gf!

Sarah

Thanks Sarah it is a great milestone for me and as good news I have been allowed a cr card 0% Hal transfer for a period so saving cash! My mind about life is changing daily, I am beginning to start to enjoy my house, thinking decorating, bought a new mattress so might sleep better! Debts still there but slowly getting int rates down and debt coming down slowly. 100 days isn’t long but the t seems a lifetime! Here’s to day 101! Thank Sarah and keep you’re good work x

Congratulations on the 100 days gf!

Sarah

Hi Jappy

I’ve just read your diary from start to finish and wow, what an inspiration you are! Your strength and determination is what I hope I can find within myself. You have done amazingly, long may it continue.x

Thanks SS you’re re support gives me the strength and you can do this and beat the compulsion one day at a timeZ! It’s the only way as today is what we have!

SecretSpinner wrote:

Hi Jappy

I’ve just read your diary from start to finish and wow, what an inspiration you are! Your strength and determination is what I hope I can find within myself. You have done amazingly, long may it continue.x

Hi today has been a really difficult day, full of frustration and my mind has beentelling me I need to gamble! Familiar feelings not great but a good reminder that it’s all still there should I let it take over. I have been busy and not been logging on to the forum - time to refocus x

Been reading many stories tonight and it has brought it home again the devistation this addition has on the gambler, their partners, kids, family and the power it has when even with all this s**t and destruction we still find it hard to stop our otherwise sensible minds from thinking doing it again is a good idea! To all out there tomorrow is another day and tomorrow is another day gf!

Today was another strange day, I woke up with gambling thoughts, I put this down to my new cr card 0% for 2 years! I stayed home and sat and did my admin this morning- did my balance transfers and don’t have the other cards so all good! I also did expenses claim at work so all good! After this the thoughts passed as no ammunition! Felt good, went to gym and watch England !! Onwards and upwards a saving of £100 pm will relieve some pressures! Stay safe one day at a time as doesn’t matter about the past tomorrow is what counts!

Sunday! No golf did a bit of work and was at a loose end - went out and started thinking gambling as this would have been an afternoon in bookies!! Today I parked up close to an old haunt and made a decision to walk in by and had a look round shops! But I was definitely thinking - I am not enjoying this and previously this would have been bookies! No damage but I need to get in to the daily plans to avoid the quiet periods as at moment my mind is definitely looking at gambling in a positive way! I think an hour reading Allan Carr’s book should help! All take care

I am feeling some strange “lack of motivation/ can’t be arsed” feelings which are danger signs - ready to go to gym last two days didn’t bother watch tv - footy and golf! Betting thoughts starting - didn’t really feel I wanted a bet but still a thought, and constant adverts! Tomorrow Tuesday I need a plan of action including exercise- maybe morning run! Stay gf

Today a better day, up early and off to work, went to gym in morning and did a 5k before work! V busy and good meetings across the day, lots to be on with over next few days! Little gambling thoughts! Other than the weekend thoughts re eating at a casino restaurant on Friday evening (with wine and beer!) I need a plan