New beginnings!

Hi Lucy

Can see how positive u r and the determination is strong in ur posts , it really grub rollercoaster of a ride this journey but were with u all the way

Keep strong

Castle2

Hi Lucy

Feels weird on here without your usual daily post of positivity and hope!

Hope all is well with you 🙂

Still smiling and bet free 🙂

glad you are still bet free!i feel it this time we gonna beat it.no more betting in our life lucy!

mike

Hi Lucy

Good to see you're still lurking, still smiling and still bet free!

Thank you for your post - I do feel blessed that I managed to get an interview but feel a bit disappointed in myself that I didn't make the best of it! Still, it's done now.

Hope you have a great day! x

Hi Lucy, I am glad u r still smiling and bet free 🙂 U r doing really well.

Keep going and stay strong 🙂

Lucy.

"still smilng and bet free"

Five words that say well a books worth!!!!

Well done you keep on smiling and well me I will be like the Cheshire Cat!!too

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Today

I have remained bet free

I have no urges

I have smiled

I have laughed

I am feeling good!

Am feeling very calm at present apart from not sleeping , getting only a couple of hours, not thinking about gambling but just cannot stay asleep.

Am really starting to see how my life is changing,

so many positives even when the urges come i 'believe' i won't let them win and because of this my life is moving onto the next stage.

The ex has finally found his dream house lol and feel that it is one huge piece of the jigsaw that will finally be put into place 🙂

My son is coming on leaps and bounds in his new life away from home and he seems really happy.

Work is becoming less stressful now i am not thinking about how much i lost the night before and hence i've become more productive in my vocation to support young people, it really is a rewarding job though tough at times when you can give it your all!

For me , life will always be so different from those hazy gambling days and i have so much to look forward too now i have made changes.

I continue to realise there will be tough days but starting to understand my triggers, if not all, but know it will help me to continue keeping the devil at bay.

For the first time in alot of years i can say i am finding some peace, not always but sometimes.

Looking forward to some new adventures in the not to distant future and long may they continue to come!

Hope all are staying bet free, i know I am !

Lucy x

Hi,

So pleased to hear things are going well, and you are starting to really feel the benefits of giving gambling the heave ho.

Thank you for your kind words on my diary last week, sometimes it takes one to know one.

Please always feel free to off load to me also, if those teenagers start to grind you down . Had two of my own , and they have turned out ok. Mind you there is ok and ok I suppose. Still both allergic to washing up or hoovering lol

Keep going my love, hope the sleep thing works it self out quickly.

Take care

Dusty xx

Ahh thanks Lucy.. you have a habit of making me smile!

Just reading your last post on your diary makes me realise how incredibly far you have come in a short space of time! It's almost as if your whole life has turned around for the better! It's just great to see how happy and contented you feel at the moment!

It's a credit to all the hard work that you have put into your recovery and for that you should be very proud! Long may it continue!!

xx

Lucy.

Lucy has sailed onto the calm waters on the gamble free millpond, Drop your anchor stay a long while lets enjoy that calm and a few sun sets over the horizan only to relish it rising the next day a pleasure made sweet by us saying those magic words just for today NO BET.

Well done you keep making those choices

duncs stepping forward never back.

63 days bet free 🙂

Sitting here really feeling chilled, don't know where this is coming from as in a state on Saturday but i say , Bring it on!

Really tough day at work , lots of incidents to deal with and some extreme poor behaviour but again took it in my stride and did not let it get to me.

Even in a meeting this afternoon i had a grin on my face , i was getting some very odd looks across the table lol

I like this feeling, not sure if so chilled as so tired still from not sleeping but did get about 4 hours last night, the most in a couple of weeks.

Today i have started to feel really proud of myself for not giving in on saturday , god it was really hard and has took me a few days to come to terms with it but still remaining strong!

Looked at my bank today and nearly fell over when i saw the balance, can't remember it looking like that for years, it isn't a huge amount but it felt so nice to think it's there after the bills are paid and that it will not be wasted.

Today i am remaining bet free again

Hope all are keeping strong

Lucy

Here's hoping i am still as chilled after the Hammers game tonight !

9 Weeks Lucy!!! Woooooo hoooooooo! Awesome! Well done you!

Seriously, you are pretty amazing.. even when you have challenging days, you come out smiling.. gives us all hope!

I have a little story for you... one of my friends works in a betting shop and he has just started working down the road from me. Anyway, he asked me to pop in and see him... none of my friends know about my 'problem' and I wasn't sure how I was going to feel walking in there but I did it anyway.. kind of risky, but felt comfortable. I went in, had a coffee with him, sat and chatted for a while and then walked out. Didn't even think about gambling or get any urges or anything. He said 'why don't you have a go on the machines? I said 'no way, I've seen what they do to people'!!

It felt so different and I felt so INdifferent!

Maybe we've both turned a corner!!

xx

ps I'll be cheering on the hammers for you!

Hiya Lucy

What a heart warming post to hear u say ur so proud of urself has made my day fighting those urges just gives u so much strength and the next time u will feel even stronger , ur beating this disease Lucy u av the upperhand now and can't tell u how please I am for u

Take care ps I will give a cheer for west ham play some good football

Castle2

You're right Lucy.. in hindsight it was a pretty dangerous thing to do! Although I've never really gambled in betting shops.. funny thing is, the thought of handing over cold, hard cash turns my stomach.. although depositing thousands in an online betting account was never a problem!!

Funny how the mind works!!! xx