New beginnings!

cheers for answering and sorry if i upset you i deeply am sorry

Good Morning World

This CG has not gambled

This CG has had no urges (unlike last weekend)

This CG is contented

This CG is going to win this time

Did not do much yesterday as hungover from the night before, a little concerned this is becoming a habit and think it needs to stop before it becomes out of control! I have not drunk this much in years as having been married to an alcoholic it put me off . So for now drink is going to be off limits , hard when you are back out socialising and your mates like to really hit it hard but feel i must do this as also scared if i was in the wrong environment then my guard would come down and i could end up gambling, that is something i never want to do again!

Today i'm going to my Mum's with my son for dinner, a long drive so will be out most of the day and not have time to think of gambling.

So today i still feel strong, peaceful and happy.

Still smiling , but oh god my jaw does ache lol

I like this feeling, it's been too long feeling sick to the stomach, not wanting to be here, not finding a way out but hey i'm really turning my life around now and am happy with all i'm achieving.

Still have regrets but also know i cannot change whats happened but can continue on my bet free journey and who knows what delights the journey will bring.

So much want to be a happy , contented and peaceful person.

It is heading in the right direction for now

Keep Strong and remain bet free all

Lucy x

morning lucy. Great post! You do have a handle on things and regards the drinking i have the view that if you drink for enjoyment then enjoy if you drink as a form of escapism then you may have to take a different approach, but for me you are enjoying so keep enjoying well maybe not the hangover lol! ! You are making the right choices for today lucy and that means tomorrow will be the better for it. And to end what a difference a week makes! Oh and doughnuts do work lol. Have a great day. Duncs compulsive gambler no bet today.

Hey Lucy,

It always warms me when your posts are positive. It sounds like you have a nice sunday planned too. I have been finding myself falling back in love with weekends recently especially sundays after a very long period of disliking them immensely.

I hope this positive Lucy is here to stay!!

Flagg

hi lucy,

your posts are always positive and give us hope.i m feeling sick in my stomach due to gambling.its been 28 days fighting the disease.i hope i ll stay free for the rest of my life, i hope that for everyone in this forum.the summer is coming and we have to enjoy it no matter the debts we have or the losses we had.we have to stand on our feet.

take care lucy,have a great sunday

mike

Good afternoon Lucy!

Hope you are having a great day with your mum and son.. you deserve it!

You sure are turning your life around.. there's absolutely no need to return to those days of feeling sick to your stomach... there is a way out and you have found it!

Keep smiling even if your jaw aches lol!

xxx

Hi Lucy, I hope u r having a gr8 day 🙂

You are doing gr8, I think getting thro last sat has made u stronger! U really showed ur determination by not giving in. Well done 🙂

stay stong and keep going 🙂 xx

hi lucy,

thanks for your post on my diary.tmrw is a new day, new bet free day.the more days we add, the better for us.only time will heal the wounds.

take care

mike

Good Morning

I have just sat a wrote a very long letter to some members of my family.

This letter had to be written as they have supported me.

The reason i had to write this was to try an explain why i had got myself in such a mess and to ask for their forgiveness.

My childhood was not great and i then went on to prove to them what i could achieve despite this, they were really proud of what i had made of my life and all thought i was great, what a huge disappointment they got when back early on in my recovery i told them i had messed up!

The relationships have been strained since to say the least and i have been feeling totally ashamed of what i've done.

The letter was my time to close that chapter, apologise and explain why i had to make the changes i have in my life.

It was my time to put it to bed and find some peace, it has done that and it feels as if another piece of the jigsaw has been put in place.

It hurts that the relaionship will never be the same but have accepted i cannot change that now and not let it make me complacent.

I'm feeling happy i have been able to do this even if a little sad it had to happen at all.

So for today i will not bet, i will prove to them but mostly to myself that i will never become that person again.

Today i will smile

Today i will laugh

Today i will feel some peace

Who knows what tomorrow may bring but for today it feels good

Take Care and stay bet free all

Lucy x

I hope your letter has the desired effect and that your family understand and forgive anything they might perceive as being your fault. Have a good bank holiday. Stay strong and stay bet-free. Life without betting is so much better. Betting took over my life and it damaged my health, my finances and my relationships with friends and family. I am now six-months clean and I feel much better, healthier, and financially more stable. Long may this continue!

Thanks for the post lucy.

Hope all goes well for you today with your letters. So far the past week has been an eye opener for life has past me by. but no more time to start living again.So for today i will not bet.

stay strong

Once these letters go out ready to be opened, you will feel a massive sense of relief.

Relief in the way that something that you have held in your mind and body for so long has finally been released.

I know as I did a similar thing a couple of years ago. It was not easy to do but I was amazed at the support that I got from my family. I did not receive any support financially, nor did I expect to, as the mess that I had put myself in was MINE and no-one else's. I remain determined to completely sort those debts once and for all this Christmas and I know that I will make my family proud of me for doing so.

And you can do the same.

NT

Hey Lucy,

I always find the end of your posts most uplifting (Actually that sounds like I prefer them to end which isn't right lol)

What I mean is they end on a positive note. You said who knows what tomorrow will bring? This is so true but for today you will not gamble and you will win just for today.

You keep Smiling

You keep Laughing

You remain Strong

You are a source of strength and optimism for both yourself and others!

Flagg

Hi Lucy

Great post just shows how far u av come it just shows how we think differently when we don't gamble our mind is so much clearer allowing us to make the right decisions

I hope west ham make the decision to turn up for their home game today lol u would av been better goin back to cardiff again !

Enjoy

Castle2

Hi Lucy,

Thanks for your post and support. Read some of your last posts and I think sending a letter is such a good idea in so many ways. I'm going to do the same, and make sure I get everything I need to say in there before I send it to the family. I love reading your posts, Keep them up! All the best, stay strong,

Jes