New beginnings!

Hi Lucy, just been reading through your diary, you are doing so well! There will be times when temptation floats in front of us but we only get stronger when we resist. Keep up the good work x

Hi Lucy, thanks for ur continued support 🙂

I think the letters r a gr8 idea, u r doing gr8. I always look 4ward 2 reading ur posts. Your positive attitude is gr8!

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Good afternoon Lucy!

Are you a Happy Hammer?!?

Lucy, I think you have done the right thing writing those letters. I know that I feel a massive amount of guilt for what I have done to my family and whilst they have forgiven me, I don't think I will ever regain that level of trust. I guess it's just one of the things we have to deal with as a consequence of our gambling.

BUT you are right, you cannot let these things bring you down, because the path you are taking now is absolutely the right one and you are doing a great job of it!

Keep smiling Lucy.. you are making a wonderful future for yourself.. and in time your family will see that too xxx

Hi Lucy

Hope ur ok well u should be after such a good result hope ur off to Wembley I hope that counts as an away match ! Lol to be fair u trounced Cardiff

Take care

Castle2

Hi Lucy

Hope ur ok well u should be after such a good result hope ur off to Wembley I hope that counts as an away match ! Lol to be fair u trounced Cardiff

Take care

Castle2

Morning all,

Been a difficult couple of days and lots and lots of urges due to another unexpected curve ball thrown my way!

Guess what?

I have fought them will all my might and the little devils are starting to subside 🙂

Feel really strong today and am smiling the biggest smile ever due to not giving in again!

I just know that i'm going to keep this up, ex now gone and all is calming in the Lucy camp!

Onwards and upwards, this is my life now and boy am i going to enjoy it, even if the little devils raise their head i am going to tell them to f*** off! ( excuse the language but it's what i will say)

Keep Strong all

Will post on others tonight

Take Care

Smiling Lucy x

Hi Lucy

Brilliant positive post that's what I love to see the most when reading its as though the words are jumping right off the page , given me a great start to my day

thank u

Castle2

hi lucy,

councelling went well yesterday, she gives me very wise instructions, simple things that i couldnt think cause i m cg.

dont give up against the urges.the urges come and go but you wont gamble anymore in your life.this is a fact!no more gambling in our life.dont let the devils win you.you have the forum, you have us, if we are united nothing will stop us.we have a common goal not to play again and we ll not play again.the money are staying in the bank and you can see your bank account only rising!

take care lucy

mike

Hey Lucy,

Isn't it brilliant that you can post and say yes I've had a difficult couple of days but I didn't give in and I emerged from the battle victorious!! It was brilliant to read your diary this morning! You fought them off and now they are subsiding 🙂 awesome!!

I'm trying to find that mid level of parity at the moment as I dont want those huge urges to fight off but I also don't want it to be plain sailing I'd be terrified of complacency! I wish the same for you as it seems there have been a few tough days lately and it would b nice for you to find that level ground! It feels brilliant winning a fight but it would be tiring having a massive fight everyday!

Great to read the last line that Lucy Is smiling! Long may that continue 🙂

Flagg

HI Lucy,

Thank you for your post on my diary from my heart it means a lot.

Sorry to hear youve had a bad few days but really pleased to see that they have passed, as you know i battled with the demons yesterday its been my toughest day so far but i feel a sense of achievement that i didnt take my default option and gamble.

Im sure there will be more to come but i hope i will get stronger to fight as i move through my journey of recovery.

Keep fighting the good fight, and more importantly keep smiling.

Blondie day 16.. and filled with hope x

Thanks lucy glad 2 hear your smiling and 10 weeks 2mara well done!

Hey, hey, hey!! A massive well done to you for resisting those b*****rd urges!!

10 Weeks... sooooooo proud of you! You are doing brilliantly!!!

Keep going and keep smiling xxxx

Good Morning

10 Weeks today Woop Woop!

Wow, can't really believe it's been 10 whole weeks without resorting to throwing my money away!

10 weeks ago life seemed unbearable, did'nt want to be here, did'nt want to face up to it, did'nt think i could do anything to change, did'nt think i could ever stop for this long!

Thinking about last christmas when by 12 husband was drunk as a s***k and fallen asleep, ate christmas dinner on my own then sat there from about 3 till the early hours of boxing day and blew around 5k!

Don't know why christmas is popping into my head because i continued up until 10 weeks ago but think it was possibly my lowest point, not the money because had done more than that in a night but the whole life at that time.

Now

I have not gambled even though really wanted too at times

I am now on my own, no husband, no son at home, no dogs (went with husband)

I am happy and scared at the same time

I feel , actually to be honest i don't really know what i feel, is it calm?, is it content?, is it happy?

Yes i really think i'am happy, i keep smiling even when the devils appear, i am more relaxed and yes i do feel more at ease with just being me!

So for today i am PROUD of what i have done in 10 weeks, i will continue to be PROUD and i will continue to fight this for all i'am worth because today i know i am worth it!

This journey will continue in the same vain as the last 10 weeks but hopefully with less devils appearing, i do not know what the future holds but i do know it is a lot brighter now i am not gambling!

Hope all have a great bet free day

Keep Strong all

Smiling Lucy 🙂

xxx

just pop in to check how you doing and see you doing fantastic job and absolutely should be proud... quite often have got same strange feelings you talking about, like i m not quite sure what i feel and how to name... it s so... unreal, yeah unreal - like hold and hang somewhere between.... one guy said - life will push you here and there, all around the places, if you allow to it and whenever you feel you don t know what you feel and where to go, just remind yourself what is important, remind yourself your aim and go there despite the obstacles - i'm not sure it is something what will help you Lucy, but it helps me... 🙂 all the best. K.

Lucy.

The first 10 weeks of the rest of your life!!!

Well done you, today you inspire me your post leaps off that page,that mile wide smile beaming. Lucy you have like myself come soo far in a short space of recovery, you have a fantastic relationship with you son now and you through your letters you wrote you have great humility.To end you have your LUCY back!!! keep the one that smiles and keep laughing at the demons and just for today say NO BET,the world your world will be better for it.

Those gambling goggles are binned!!!!

duncs stepping forward never back.