New beginnings!

Hey buddy!

Thank you as ever for your kind words, your support and your friendship.. it means a lot!

I hope you are having a relaxing, chilled out time up there and hope the weather is holding up for you... tipping it down here in London, so you ain't missing anything!!

Will be around to cheer you on to your massive milestone too... soooo very, very proud of you smiling Lucy!

Enjoy your week mate,

LMM xxxxxx

Hi ya,

Thought about you this morning. 2weeks of wonderful weather , you decide to go walk about in the wilderness and the rain descends. Hope you packed you winter walking gear. Gone off the idea of coming with you , can not think why. Lol

I hope this weather does not dampen your spirits and still manage to get the peace and tranquility you were looking for.

Dusty xxxxx

A cold day on the fells today

Whenever I am here I seem to be able to think clearer , today I realised I never want to feel like I did a few months ago again .

Some really tough decisions made and at times not been sure if they were right but today it just seemed to fall into place and yes I now know the decision about ex was the right one , I feel calm about it and I think it needed me to get away to see my failed marriage for what is was and finally say I can never go back cause all the rest would follow including the gambling but most important of all I could never be happy .

Today I did not gamble

Today I see it clearer

Today I'm peaceful if a little knackered

Today I know my friends are sooo important to me

Today I smiled

Today I know without a shadow of doubt life is getting better

I know now that I am entitled to want the fairytale , if I don't ever find it then that's ok cause I made the best decisions for me

Keep strong

Lucy xxxxxxxx

Hi Lucy, thank u 4 ur support on my diary. It means alot 🙂

What a gr8 post, I am glad that things are becoming clearer 4 u it takes true strength 2 make the rite choices for u.

I hope u r enjoying ur break, u deserve it 🙂

Each time I read ur posts they make me smile, u r sooo postive and ur detemination shines thru.

U r sooo supportive of others and u give me hope. So thank u again 4 ur continued support 🙂

U r an inspiration Lucy.

Stay strong and keep going xx

Hi Lucy

What a nice surprise post wasn't expecting to hear from u for a while I thought I had a bit of time to plot my revenge lol so I guess is gonna av to be a nice admirable post for u today

Firstly totally get what ur doin at the moment and can relate to everything ur saying and def what I need to do , just take a step back from it all and reflect on the past present and future

Ur life is now what u want it to be there's no goin back to the old Lucy u av mentioned , regarding fairytales we're pretty much in the same place I think we both know what we want in life which is a fresh start and where that leads us who knows if we both go on to find love in our life which we loving av much to give but if that's not to be we will certainly live a better life than the one before

Obviously u av much better opportunities than me with my few ounces overweight ! Lol but I am kind always letting old people get past me first !

Seriously though keep smiling and caring as u r on here and I am sure u will get the fairytale ending u dream for

Oh one final thought if u get stranded on the fells just go left keep straight for bout a mile turn right then look behind u there in the distance will be a castle which happens to be mine hence the name , the log fire will be on so it's nice and warm with a hot roast in the oven just approach the door the keys under the mat but read the note on the door , everyones welcome except Lucy has she was very cheeky on the owners diary and he wants is own back

As much has is pains me to say I couldn't do that to u after all the support u av given me and it's not my castle anyway and there's not one there anyway just in case u get lost and wanted directions lol

Av a great time u deserve it

Castle2 , told u I'm still not with it at the moment goin mad one thinks !

Hey Lucy,

Nothing too profound from me tonight! This is just a simple Lucy appreciation message! I just read my diary back from day 1 and I realised you have been there supporting me pretty much from then! Sometimes long measured words of advice, other times just a simple well done and keep going! I attribute my success so far to a few people and you are right up there at the top of my list of wonderful people on this site!

Thank you so much Lucy I hope you are having a fantastic weekend it really is thoroughly deserved!

Flagg

lucy.

Well someone is on the up and not just that mountain,I took a leaf out of lucy's book and got drunk last night lol. Cant remember the last time I did and my wife by my side who got equally tipsy LOl. Enjoy your week lucy and keep inspiring and being inspired you really have had a good dose of the gamble free life and I know that you will continue to make the right choice daily.

A massive well done keep beleiving!!!!

Duncs stepping forward never back

Hi Lucy, thank u 4 ur kind words on my diary 🙂

I hope u r enjoing ur break, u really deserve it!

I hope u are still smiling 🙂

Stay strong and keep going xx

Sounds from your last post sounds like your having a great holiday and doing a lot of thinking.

The bet free life has so many rewards 4 us all a day at a time.

Keep smiling you deserve it lucy

Hiya Lucy

Thanks for the quick return gonna be nice today and just say thank u for the support esp over the last week , u will be pleased to know I'm back in the zone and ready to battle the world again

Enjoy the rest of ur break and I hope ur soul searching goes well , be thinkin bout u on them fells please don't get lost would feel real bad if u did

Cud never forgive myself as who else would I av to torment

Take care

Castle2

Hi Girl!

Sounds like this little break is clearing the cobwebs and making you think clearer and be more decisive about your future. And you are sounding more and more at peace with yourself which is blinking fab!

Perhaps I need to go and walk the fells too!

Hope the weather is holding up for you. Enjoy the rest of your break buddy!

LMM xxxx

Hi Lucy,

You sound like your re-charging the soul in the fells, soak it up and take it in you deserve it.

I just wanted to share something of my experience about something i could really relate to on you sunday post.

I came out of a failed marraige 5 years ago now and at the time i didnt know if i had made the right decision, you never do when the other person still loves you, but i know now as sure as i have air in my lungs it was the right thing to do.

I to wanted the fairy tale, i wanted the soul mate, "the one" I wanted what my mum and dad had for nearly 50 years, someone who would complete my life (Corny i know but true ), for about 3 years i gave up looking, i was out with friends enjoying single life had a few disastrous dates etc and wasnt really stressing to much about it.

2.5 years ago fate decided to intervene and i ended up going half way across the world on some random holiday that i shouldnt of been going on at the very last minuete and i met "Him", its a longish story riddled with lots of strange random things that happened for us to be together, but together we are and insperable apart from the 250 miles that seperate us, houses being sold etc so we can be together on a permanant basis but since the weekend we returned we have never spent a weekend apart, and i know in the core of my being that he is the one. So a longwinded answer i know lol but im getting to my point, You do deserve the fairytale and dont ever settle for anything less, life is to short and you are to precious .

Go for it lucy, grab it with both hands, breath it in, feed the soul and recharge ready for the next phase of your life.

Blondie day 44 xx

Good morning world

Wow do I feel positive today !

Had a day off yesterday as have been wandering the fells for two days straight on the tops and was bloody knackered (need to stop smoking, but can only tackle one addiction at a time )

Emotionally I felt completely drained by Monday night and started getting all confused but think just so tired and then yesterday a calm descended , no thoughts at all of a bet but guards still up and I really feel I can continue on my journey a little bit calmer and a whole lot happier.

This week I have looked ahead and even started to think about what I could do in the future , this is prob the first time I have managed to think that far ahead as have been staying in the here and now most of the time trying to deal with the immediate but now can see there really is a future and I'm going to grab it with both hands for all I'm worth just because I can because I remain bet free !

I know with time I will be really happy and content , I might even find my fairytale and from now I'm going to try my hardest to make it happen, the first part is to remain bet free !

So with a sore achilles , aching hips but a massive smile I will sign off today as weather should clear later and I will make my way back on the fells to explore my mind once more

Keep strong all

Wandering Lucy xxxxxxx

hi lucy,

i m so glad things are going better for you also.we started seen the bright side of life!every day away from our demons is a challenging day full of happiness.ok to be honest, sometimes we think about the past and what we could have done but...what is done is done.god is giving us the present of life.we are alive!after all this mess in our life, we are alive!we breath!

mike

59 days bet free

Hi Lucy, sounds like you're in a happy place at the mo'. both mentally and physically. So pleased for you. Glad I raised a smile this morning, although heaven knows why? Everything I write is serious! 🙂 take care, Steve.