New beginnings!

Good Morning

Another week , another dollar to be earned but most important, the start to another week bet free 😉

Life is pretty ok for me just now, no thoughts of a gamble , well always on my mind but not in the same way it used to be, there are no real urges just maybe glancing thoughts and then i remember the bad times so they getting batted aside like i'm the best batswomen in the universe!

( Was taught to play by Graham Gooch when i was a youngster!)

Came home from work this morning as feeling under the weather, headache, sore stomach and generally feeling urghhh but came on here and read a few posts and how my mood lifted , this place even if i'm not up to posting can make me feel so good again in such a quick space of time.

Yes, we are still struggling, fighting the demons and trying our hardest to make our lives better but we stick together, trying to support and help each otherr along the way and that has been such a boost for me personally on this mad mad journey!

So today, apart from feeling rough life is good, wish i had more money but then who doesn't, wish i had not f***** up like i did but hey ho it is really starting to look up now.

Ex finally, finally accepted that's it, he is too move further away as he knows he can't be too near me, son is doing just great and off to the cup game tomorrow night with him, work , well work is work, the young people are amazing it's just some of the staff i need to sort lol lol

Social life is ok but still drinking too heavy when i go out, the ex had the front to say i was drinking more than him !!!!!! no way jose!

So Lucy is finding a happy medium, one where i know i have to take it slowly, there really is no rush to get the fairytale and i know i need to be happy with me before that can happen.

The main thing for me is i'm bet free and starting to see my life now without gambling being part of it!

Keep Strong all

Smiling Lucy xxxxxxx

Good to see you are alot happier now,the drinking to much will sort itself the main thing is ur bet free 😉 keep up good work!

Stay strong happy hangover 😉 xx

Hey Lucy,

Sorry your not feeling to well, hope your on the mend soon.

Great to see things are levelling out for you lucy, I hope you take imense prode and strength from what you are achieving. You have been through so much and yet you still came back fighting and are getting stronger by the day .

Im sure the drinking will take care of itself, Your young, your single, You go out and drink a bit... I used to drink my whole months worth of units in one night when i was single lol.... It didnt worry me..

Take care

Blondie xxx

Thanks for your lovely message on my diary.

Sorry to hear that you are feeling under the weather but just remember that this is just short term thing.

Gambling heavily WILL lead to long-term stress.

Like you say, money isn't everything. Good health, family and having morals and values is.

Take it easy and you will soon be on the mend.

NT

hi lucy thanks for your by reading your last post i sense that we are about the same carriage on this rollercoaster ride at the present time, i have to say when i spoke to you in chat a while back i didnt think either of us would be looking back after doing such a great job so far, dont get me wrong i know still long way to go but we getting stronger each and every day

carl

Yo,

Thank you for your post .

So true in what you say , what's the rush ?

Finding a balance , going at a pace that reduces the pressures we put upon ourselves defo help me thinks .

Glad that the ex is getting it and moving further away , cause in the long run that can only help.

Staff sack ummmmmm, no not really lol

You as they say on here Hun , keep on keeping on . Cause it obviously working , hope you feel a bot better tomorrow , and this bug does not linger . Must be half term soon ?

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi Lucy, sometimes I wish I had no fingers, it may stop me typing the first thing which comes into my head, especially at 3 in the morning. Still never mind, it's done now. Sorry to hear you had a headache, hope you're feeling better now. Hope you enjoy the cup game, my team are doing appalling at the moment, points wise but they'll come good, I just hope I'm still alive to witness it. Not nice to hear about the troubles you've been through with your ex this past year but it sounds like to me that all that stress will end soon and you'll have a whole new happy life to look forward to. Take care Lucy

Steve

Hi Lucy. Thx for Ur words of support and wisdom. life is hell of a ride sometimes and afraid that for us CG is more often than not.... All the best and take care

You seem a lot happier lucy which is great to see we just have to be patient which 4 cgs is v v hard but you are getting there a day at a time thank God.

Hope ur cold is clearing up and u enjoy the match tonite haha.

Thanks 4 all ur support mate

take care

Hey Boston my old mate!

Love seeing how positive you are starting to be again and that you are now taking things in your stride! You will get there mate.. you just need to practice that thing called patience… I know it’s not really been part of your vocabulary in your life, but I reckon it should now be your mantra!!

Hope you are feeling better today and that you batted the bug away as hard as you bat those urges! Did Graham Gooch really teach you to bat? Someone once chucked a cricket ball to me.. I dropped my hands.. no way was I catching that thing! Even the noise it made as it was coming towards me scared the life out of me!!! God, I sound like a right woos don’t I?! Lol

I’ve decided that I’m going to stop worrying about the expense of the next couple of weeks and just flipping enjoy myself! At least I’m not gambling it and the debts may take a little longer to get paid, but hey ho, I’m not gonna put my life on hold anymore!

Hope you have a great day mate and the weather doesn’t dampen your spirits too much!

Stay strong!

Lmm xxxx

Lucy.

Glad to see you have taken up the battle to beat this addiction with a great resolve, I know you may have lost the odd battle, but you WILL win the war!!!!

Well done my friend, keep making the right choice.

just for today.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Lucy,

I have just caught up with your diary and it made me happy to read your post from Monday. I hope things continue to pick up for you and I hope your team won the other night.

Tomso.

Hi Lucy

Thanks for ur posts really appreciated , I know we av always said we're in similar positions but think both having to relapse one after the other is goin a bit far lol , the one thing I do know though is we're both fighters and we're not goin to give in this time we did not win the fight but it will prepare us to win the battle

The real positive is we understand why we gamble know what the triggers are we just av to deal with them which is always the hardest

Together goin forward supporting each other we will go on to live better lives and find that .happiness we're both lookin for

Pleased u av shifted the few pounds lol was never in doubt really was it

Thanks again and take care

Castle2

Good Morning World

The sun is shining again and so is Lucy 😉

Been a mixed week , poorly at the beginning, struggled to go footie on tuesday as feeling ill and wished i had'nt , what a load of rubbish that was!

So you might think , ohhhh this week is not good , will the demons come to the fore knowing a little vunerable? Did they hell , no , no, no !

Like i said last week, it is always on my mind but not urges, not sure i can explain it properly tbh, i think about it, think of games i liked to play but now i also remember where i was and how i felt and that's enough right now for me to stay bet FREE!

At work later in the week a very sad case with a young person who had been born a herion addict and how with no fault of his own how much it will affect him throughout his life, it made me look at how we put nothing into our bodies when gambling but how much it effects on mental well being and the impact it will have on us all our lives.

It makes me sad thinking that i will have to fight this each and every day but also that i need to live alongside it without it overtaking my life again.

For this to happen i know i need to continuely make changes to my life style and that's something i do find difficult, i can no longer live like i did, ohhhh wait a minute, was i living? No, i really don't think i was, i was just here , not living just going from day to day in the haze that was gambling.

So today having been told off by a friend lol lol and made to sit up and face that i can no longer live like i did cause the monies gone i know i am strong, i am living again, i am feeling emotions i did not know i had, some good and some bad but i'm alive!

Today i have got up without the feelings of guilt and dread , without having to check the bank to see if there is anything left and although i cannot go and buy what i want and i cannot look too far ahead in the future i can smile just cause i am choosing a better life for me 🙂

Not sure if any of that makes sense lol , i am going to try to not let circumstances upset me i am going to rise above it , hold my head up and walk tall , so today is good, today will be gamble free and tomorrow i will be that bit stronger than i am today and the smile will be that little bit wider 😉

Keep Strong all and have a great bet free weekend!

Lucy xxxxx

G'mornin Lucy,

Yes, you're making perfect sense and PROGRESS! What a fantastic post to start off my day with ( because it's afterall always about me lol -- a bit of addict humor there ) -- full of acceptance ( of the things I cannot change ) and positivity and can do attitude ( the courage to change the things I can ) Fantastic Lucy!!! - joanxxx