NEW DAWN , NEW DAY , FEELING GOOD !

Fantastic post Alan, may screen shot this as a permanent reminder if ever feeling wobbly, Thank you for being a consistent source of good advice and inspiration S:)

it's been one of those day's :((

Our little foster boy went to play football yesterday at a special needs/ disabilities group he attends , he went in for a tackle and came off worse in the form of a double break in his left arm , Ouuuuch ! . ( and the irony of it being a disabled group wasn't lost on me either ) :))

We had to wait last night for him to go down to surgery where they needed to decide if he needed pins inserted to fix it , fortunately they managed to set it without and this morning he came home sporting his full arm cast where he's being spoilt rotten :((

I offered to high five him with my left arm this morning but he declined and settled for a hug instead , thankfully he's quite keen to go back to school to show his mates his war wound's despite us offering him the opportunity to stay home for a while .

Were now scratching our head's thinking of something " Cool " to draw on his cast and so far all my non appropriate suggestons have been firmly rejected , LoL :)) .

Sorry nothing gambling related but just about the life I now choose to live :))

Have a great day everyone :)) x

Hope the little one recovers quickly Alan.

Yes, good news about the FOBT's, they have ruined too many lives, about time someone took a stance on these 'illegle' machines.

ATB

Shaun

Also, forgot to mention, great work you are doing Alan in giving encouraging advice on other people's diarys

Well done, excellent job.

Shaun

I did use the word apparently lol and yes the wife wouldn’t be pleased if I said she was making a meal of it :-/.

I did see a good debate about it a few years back where a well known comedian said that there’s no way it’s as painful as being kicked down there for a man . His reason being usually a few months after childbirth a woman will brood for another baby where as a man once kicked down there will never wish for another one hence it being the worst pain known to man .

Also good to see you still paying back some love.

Have a good one boss x

Thankyou for posting on my diary Alan. No doubt I will get the blues now and than, it's all part of life. However if I follow the advice of you and other GamCare friends than I can handle it with ease.

The past is gone, if I can learn from it or make amends to those I disrespected, than all well and good, but other than that it must be laid to rest. However the addiction quite likes reminding me of my failings.

I suspect my compulsion to gamble is just a gang of very misguided neurons who don't see the full picture. Now that i'm ignoring them they probably go round my brain smashing things up and mugging smaller neurons.....stephen

Hiya pal I've been reading your diary and what an inspiration you are it's a tough disease to battle and you have put all the blocks in place and done so great I only hope I can do aswell as you have done keep.going pal jft

Hi Alan

Certainly is strange how gambling works, a croupier told me once that a gentlemen played on a table for 8 hours chasing the number 0 and it never came out once. After losing £8000, he left and wait for it, yes you have guessed it, out of 5 spins, 0 came out 3 times.

Take care.

Shaun

That was probably me then Shaun :((

Shaun's example - that's why we keep going. We think eventually, the law of averages will make the number come up. Conversely, it came up 3/5 times, so we can remember that it's unpredictable and may not come around for hundreds of spins.

My inner cynic suspects there are little magnets at play, under the table, anyway 😉

Admire you for fostering. Can't always be easy.

I have completely let go of that man. Thanks for urging me to. This might sound weird, but it felt nice having a fatherly figure looking out for me. Wish my birth father could have been this for me.

Take care,

f x

Alan, that post was like a warm hug. Thank you so much!

I don't have any supportive family, no surviving grandparents, no-one, so I really appreciate anyone's caring input and rarely take umbrage. I appreciated being told what I didn't want to acknowledge. It still goes in there, and in better times I would have kicked him into touch much sooner. Any port in a storm and all that.

I like your lingo! Yes, douche bag about sums him up, hahaha!

Must be frustrating with your son. I guess gently reminding him to at least not do anything that affects him long-term, like having a child with someone who he has a rocky relationship with, is all you can do.

I'm sure you've raised him right and he will do what's right for him in the end.

Take care,

f x

Hello Dear diary :)) .

Youv'e been with me for so long on a journey of rediscovery and I want to thank you for one last time for allowing me to move on To all those that I've spoken to , Good and bad conversations , past and present posters , thank you all for helping me along the way .

I wish each and everyone of you well and continued success with whichever path you choose to take :))

I'll alway's keep looking on the " Bright side of life " ( Thank you Python ) :))

And in the word's of Oasis I'll take what I need and be on my way "

" Love and best wishes to all "

Alan xx

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Take care bud tell admin to drop me your email and no deleting your diaries it makes me look like I'm talking to myself.

A pleasure as always x

All the best Alan, thanks for making the last few years that bit more enjoyable x

It is just me that this has come way out of left field for then 🙁

Bye Pops, hope you drop back in to visit from time to time...It’s been an absolute pleasure walking alongside you these past months - One of your little girls.