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(@stace)
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Things are starting to look up. I'm feeling more positive. Partner has banking app so can now see every transaction, feels strange but he's trusted me to also keep the banking app on my phone, I love him for that, as he knows I use it abit, and he's trusting me. I've let him down so many times, but this time, just knowing he can see the transactions is helping me.

I went out for a walk around a lake today  with partner and kids. My mental health had declined so much that I wasn't going out. It did me the world of good, it really does help your mental health, and got my steps in lol

Were taking the kids to flip-out in chester on Friday then mcdonalds, a last treat before school restarts. Those 6 weeks gone fast, be sad to see them go back to school. But feels good that I can actually afford a day out, couldn't when gambling.

Day 14 of no gambling,  I will do this again 

 
Posted : 30th August 2023 8:00 pm
(@adam123)
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Yes stace ive also found that when ive had an episode of mental health spending time with family on walks around national trust places really helps....great to see u in a better pla ce....make sure he checks the banking app every day to get into the routine....also makes sure that ur checked up on each day.....works well for him and you then....xxxx

 
Posted : 31st August 2023 6:11 pm
lids19635
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You are amazing you really are, and so is your partner.

Well done for seeing what was wrong and taking steps to put it right.

 
Posted : 31st August 2023 6:28 pm
(@stace)
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Thankyou adam and lids

 

Day 17 gf today. Took the kids to flip out then for mcdonalds,was so good being able to treat them. I like life like this, but I've always ruined it,not this time, blocks are solid tight.

 
Posted : 1st September 2023 8:19 pm
(@stace)
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My 11 year old son nearly lost his life in the most tragic accident. I'm shook to the core. Hold your precious children extra tight. Life can be so short. 

 
Posted : 2nd September 2023 1:37 pm
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Hello Stace,

I'm sorry to read that you feel shaken after an accident involving your son. Please do use your local support to help you to manage the emotional impact of the shock you may have experienced. I hope that you and your family get good support locally.

Take care,

Adam.

 
Posted : 2nd September 2023 9:02 pm
(@stace)
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Thankyou adam, yes we are very lucky and are getting alot of support locally from professionals and all involved. 

 
Posted : 3rd September 2023 4:46 pm
lids19635
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Oh Stace, i do hope hes ok.

Thoughts with you.

 
Posted : 4th September 2023 8:04 pm
(@stace)
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Thankyou lids

 

So today I'm emotional, kids have gone back to school, and I'm sat here having a little cry, seeing all my kids ready for school was heart warming but I'm just so greatful my son was there, happy , ready for his first day in high school, after we nearly lost him, I'm so lucky to have 5 happy healthy children.

I'm still gamble free and were taking our eldest out for lunch before he starts college tomorrow. The things we can afford when I stay away from gambling. My blocks this time are super tight, my partner has banking app and new bank card were I don't have the details, I'm on gamstop, even got gamban. I never want to gamble again. Lifes too precious to waste gambling.

 
Posted : 5th September 2023 9:33 am
(@stace)
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26 days since I've last gambled, not had any urges either. Relationship so much better, were actually laughing together. Just getting myself stronger each day

 
Posted : 10th September 2023 8:10 pm
lids19635
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Small manageable steps, small subtle direction changes, good to hear you are both laughing that is a fantastic thing to hear.

Keep going a bit at a time.!!

 
Posted : 11th September 2023 5:31 pm
(@stace)
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So im a month gamble free. I've found new ways to cope when I'm struggling instead of gambling. 

I'm really ill today, I've just tested positive for covid, my son has it to. My partner and other son ill aswel, they've not tested yet as ran out of tests. So im trying to look after sick kids whilst feeling terrible myself, can't stop crying. Didn't feel this ill when I had it last year.

 
Posted : 16th September 2023 11:43 am
(@stace)
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34 days gamble free today. Its been easier stopping this time around. Mondays were always my worst day, I would gamble wages meant for food shopping, doesn't bare thinking about now, so heres another Monday were we've done a food shop and I've felt good about not wasting our money. My sons birthday next week, then my daughters in November plus Christmas, so I have alot to buy for, and gambling would of seriously ruined it. Game changer for me is my partner taking it seriously when I said he needs full financial control. I don't have a bank card and no access to online banking and really am enjoying it. Feels like its one less thing for me to worry about.

Was ill this weekend with covid but feeling better today finally. Take care all, stay strong

 
Posted : 18th September 2023 2:15 pm
(@stace)
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45 days gamble free, so proud of myself. Its amazing how better finances are, I actually have savings. I did a 17th birthday party for my son tonight,  was so lovely having friends and family around. And tomorrow I'm taking my kids clothes shopping. Feels so good. I'm going through so much at the moment but am so proud I've stayed away from gambling 

 
Posted : 29th September 2023 8:39 pm
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Well done Stace.

It is nice to hear that you are enjoying time with your family and staying free of gambling, you deserve to feel good about that.

Take care,

Adam.

 
Posted : 29th September 2023 9:24 pm
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