New me? Right?

The proverbial wave has subsided.  I'm sure there any many to come yet. soon 25 days gf will be 25 months then 25 years.  I'm so determined to beat this c**P XX 

Your friend is wise 🙂

Thank you 

Hey

I stopped gambling on 10th of June.  Out if ten years I got to day 30 and was having a bad day.  Old ways whispered in my ear and went into there.  I managed to win enough by  some miracle and walked out.  I just can't believe I was stupid enough to go back.  After everything I've researched about how they operate and steal our money im a stupid idiot.  Do I start off as day one again or just write it off as a silly slip up and carry on 🙁 feeling disgusted with myself and ashamed.  

Boo boo :

If you have gone back once and won, you will return again. Unfortunately, from my experience you never stop on a win as you don't see it as being an issue because you haven't been financially damaged and see it as being okay to do. It takes a bad beat for you to realise what you are doing is wrong so I suggest you start again and get yourself in a chat room or meeting as soon as possible.

Hi boo

I'm in the same boat as you, I went over 4 weeks without going in the bookies or even wanting to go in but 2 weeks ago I found myself in front of a fobt machine and still don't know why I ended up there again. 

I put in XX and would have lost it all like I usually do but somehow managed to get up to XX so left with that but I felt really awful that I had been back in so I give the winnings away to my sister cos I just didn't want it. 

I think one good thing that we can take out of it is that we both felt terrible after betting again so hopefully that's a good sign

Good luck mate 

Hi all

It got me today.  Back to square one.  Back to day one. All the savings I had gone again.  I'm so angry with myself.  If I only I had the brain to stay away.  

Back to day 1! ????

Be strong pal, it’s a lot easier said than done. You’ll get through it again. 

I quit on June 10th but had several relapses.  

I just can't seem to kick it.  I stopped for a month, my wallet was looking bigger, I was on road to recovery after ten years of loosing.

I made a choice to quit (again)  last week after a monumental loss.  Why am I so insistent on punishing myself.  

Its affecting my health, I've been diagnosed with anxiety.  

I'm more determined then ever. The look on my children's faces is going to be the fuel to kick this sh@ for good.  

Chin up folks xx

Hi,

It's simple. Do it for your children. My father was a compulsive gambler, because of that I spent most of my childhood in care and now I've foolishly followed in his footsteps. Do you want your kids to grow up copying you? Because of gambling I've been in some dark places including being homeless. I accept responsibility for my own actions, I don't blame my dad completely but i'm sure my life would have been a lot happier if he stopped.

Don't mean to be harsh. I wish you well.

Stuart

Good luck boo get them block s in place you can do this 

I hear you Stuart!!! Not harsh at all. My mum was a gambler. I don't want this c**P for my kids 

Thanks tommy, I'm gonna kick it!! 

Hi,

I'm at the beginning of my recovery too..... I believe blocks should be put in place and seek advice from a counsellor. I'm hoping to do this when i have alone time in the home.... have you done anything like that at all to help you?

I totally get the self destruction of it and its crazy what we do and not only to ourselves!

here's to our recovery!

Best of luck

So after a huge binge online 18 days ago I  feel strange this morning..   almost like reality has slapped me hard around the face.  How the bloody hell can I be so stupid.  I really don't understand how throwing your money away becomes an addiction.  When you go in casino you know your gonna loose, might as well leave the money at the door.  How can that make you happy? The only person who is truly happy is the one on the yacht in the med sipping pina colada with your hard earned cash.  Whilst you are struggling to eat and are ruining your life....your being mocked.  No one likes anyone who takes the Mickey!! I've developed a massive hate over the last 18 days...18 days will turn to 18 months and 18 years.... I hate it and I'm NEVER going back..... It's almost took everything from me... Material things, family and my mind... 

Sorry for rambling, I like talking here with other like minded individuals. 

Gambling is not worth it ?

Hi Boolooser

A great post and I am 100% with you. I have binge gambled for years and put myself into ridiculous amounts of debt. 

I had the moment of clarity that you describe 27 days ago and I am now a non-gambler. I know that it will take years to pay off the debt but at least I have a decent income to get through this. It is hard to work out if I am more upset with myself for being so stupid or for having to spend years getting out of the hole that I have dug but, whatever the case, it will never happen again.

Stay strong and never forget these feelings as I believe that you will never want to gamble again when you realise how stupid you have been, just like me.

Ed

Excellent stuff ed 🙂 

It just gets you like....d**n!! Then things spiral...but Keep your chin up buddy 

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