I have to start a new diary. I have a huge problem with online slots. This last month I have lost won lost won. My last loss was 450 on Tuesday night. Been depresssed ever since. Not been to work but not gambled on line since- lottery and a scratchcard. Feel useless helpless and lonely but determined to stop. My old diary is an embarrasement of failure and lies. Time to be honest on here. Account closed down and salary paid into joint. Have really hated myself these last two weeks and beyond. Money lost this month is all I can think about and the lies and cheating to my pregnant wife. Debt she is helping me pay off and yet I gambled more last week and the week before. Worse thing that happened was winning 1000 on a spin. That's all gone and then some.
Hi there, make this a clean sheet. Hope things are going ok for you and your feeling positive about kicking this horrible addiction. Im on day 7 now, had it not been for joining this site, I dread to think what I could have lost in the past week. I too, joined after losing a lot. I had spent over £200 in less than 3hrs, decided one last £20 deposit to try and win back some. First spin, row of scatters and won £200, that was it, should have banked, but nope, kept spinning, up to almost £800!! Still didnt stop, until I lost the LOT !!! Knew then, it had to stop once and for all. I cannot win, because I cannot stop. Stay positive and keep posting. Good luck.
you have done the best thing coming back here. Dont have a joint account put it into your wifes account, that way you cant access it. Its the only way it works believe me I have tried and tried for many years to control it but i cant. I know you hate losing control of the money, but losing control means you actually get to keep it.
Just think of that little bundle you are soon to get, would you rather spend the money on the baby rather than giving it to a slots company
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I get pocket money now! Haven't got a card for the joint! Yeah new diary new start. My slip has put me back a month on my repayment plans but on wards I go. Sod these online slots they are so bad. Even if you win you can reverse the withdrawel and they make it so hard asking for docs etc, then worst of all the lies and guilt it's just vile horrible and I hate what it does to me
Day 6. I won't gamble and will enjoy life. Beautiful day
Hi G-doggy just found your thread, i'll keep uptodate with both our diaries. We can do this, its just going to take a lot of effort. good luck.
Hi G-d,
We are still here mate and the reason for that? We want to stay clean and give up the gambling ghost for good. You have gone periods of not gambling before and the time has come when you CANNOT gamble, not musnt gamble but cannot becase it is affecting quality of life. Life is there to be lived and as long as you feed the bookies, they will suck every last drop of life out of you
Take Care
Blues
Cheers both. Had a busy old day at work. Chilling now listening to the football after a big tea and pancakes! This is the life. Early train to London in the morning and will sleep well having not gambled. It's simple. No gamble on some bloody site in Canada or south Africa then no stress.
Back home now. Not touched the dreaded online slots or crazy casinos for a week. 7 days down. Good riddance
Doggy, nice to see you making the time and effort on your diary. Keep it up pal. Russ
Thanks russ. All, I cannot stress enough the affect gambling has had on my mental health. I feel 100% more positive without losing hundreds on these stupid slots. Nothing else in my life has changed except not playing them and I am so much more positive. It's amazing really. Stay strong all.
Another day and feeling positive without the slots on line. Got a tricky day at work coming up but without other stress of losing a fortune I can take these challenges on! Why didn't I notice how bad it was for me earlier. Have a great day all and look forward to a gamble free weekend.
Still not touched those dreaded on line slots. Horrible things. How much happier without them? So much happier. Hope everyone is well. 13 days.
Long may it continue g-doggy, steer well clear from the evil slots!! f*****k to all gambling, time to be counted and put yourself/family 1st.... onwards
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