No looking back

Don't know how I got through last week but I did. 

Day 57 gf

Just thought I'd pop by and it's given me inspiration to make a hot chocolate too and nestle in my bed. ..... Lovely xxx

Hi Stace, 

Hopefully partner will be behind the wheel of a new car soon. A mother of 5 children at such a young age, living in a house with dysfunctional heating system and dealing with gambling addiction. Take a deep breath, look back at what you've achieved.

One day at a time life is getting better. Guilt will be replaced with pride slowly but surely each time the children get out of dad's car & wave goodbye as you drop them off at school each morning. Whatever we've done in the past can be replaced with pride knowing that you've provided stability & a sense of normality for the children.

Pride of knowing when your man comes home from work you can answer every question as to what you've done with every penny he's worked so hard to earn & be able to look him in the eye. Guilt is another addiction, it can suffocate us, worse than that it can convince us that there's no point in continuing to fight. You're a bright lass, move on, focus on providing a happy home with love security and convincing the family the real you is back to stay.

Best

Al

Thanks for posta Adam and slow  , I will reply properly another day ? 

Really unwell , be back on when I'm better. Hopefully next week or so. 

Take care all.

Stace

....60 days gf

Hi,

60 GF days fantastic. Take you're time coming back, whenever you're ready. If it's physical hopefully you'll heal soon. If it's a mental health issue just remember how many times we've both fell for the "What's The Point"  bulls--t. Don't buy it, stick to what's been working for you to get 2 months GF. Did you get around googling that song ?. Hello John Got A New Motor. You'll definitely know it.

Take Care

Al

Hi slow, its physical,  I'm actually doing ok mentally although this illness is knocking it abit. Missing chat but no point me joining when I'm so ill as I can't contribute and would feel rude not being able to. This illness has well and truly knocked me off my feet.

I hope your well. Its nice to read your posts, there's very helpful.

Yes I listened to the song ? ?

Anyways although my physical health has thrown me some gambling urges, I'm in no way going to act on them. 62 days gf today. I won't throw that away.

Hope your well, take care 

Stace 

Well done on 62 days Stacey your doing amazing ?. 

Hope your feeling better soon also. I've not been on chat properly for a while. Its been very quiet whenever I've popped in this week with no one in there.

Finding myself not coming to site much now I've officially passed 6 months gamble free. Making the effort to pop by and not forget what got me to where I am.

Feel better soon 

X

So we did it. Partner has a new car ? ?  so happy. 700 that would of been gambled if I hadn't stopped, instead I have one very happy partner and I feel so proud of myself. Woop.

Just need to get better physically now. Not sure how far gf I am.. 67 days I think 

Hi,

Well done, you should feel proud. Good things come to those who wait. Sounds like life's getting so much better one day at a time.

Best

Al

Thanks al

Oh dear, I've hit an emotional brick wall today and havnt stopped crying ?  can't even say why.

68 days gf, how did I do that!?! Love of my family I think, and the fact I never want to hurt them ever again..there my life. Partner been my rock whilst I've been ill. Love him so much. 

Hes so in love with the car, that face makes me never want to gamble again. Hes so happy ?  kids love it too and asked to go fir a spin in it, so he proudly took them all for a little drive.

My parents been up alot helping me as I've been so ill,  they can't come today as my son had a positive lateral flow test so need to keep them safe  love them so much, they support me so much..my world they are.

Anyway thsts me for today.. sorry I've been quiet on here lately, but as everyone knows  sometimes life gets in the way and we can't always support others. I truly appreciate the support I receive on here, really truly do, from advisors to peers, all support is appreciated 

Stace

70 days gf, I'm proud but so ill I can't be happy. This is hell.. wish I would feel better..lost 2 stone as cant eat. Barely sleeping. Feel horrid 

Don't take anyone or anything  for granted, life can change in the blink of an eye ?

Thank you Stace for visiting my diary. Your support is very much appreciated. 

I am very happy to see you 10 weeks gamble-free but saddened to learn you have been suffering through ill-health and restless nights. 

My thoughts are with you and I sincerely hope you are soon feeling better. 

Aum ?

If things wernt hard enough, my son now has covid ? gambling urges kicking in. I'm so stressed