Once again I have released, this time after days. The amount of damage I am putting myself through due to gambling is ridiculous. All because I want the big money back and chase that winning feeling. When I win, I always end up loosing. I know I’m always going to lose but I still don’t stop. This is day 1 and I’m going to take it 1 day at a time. I will be a long rest of year sorting my self out but the feeling of freedom will be worth instead of the disgusting feeling from gambling. Time to think of excuses to say no to everything for a while.
time to stay strong and no more gambling for once and for all!
Hi Jee95,
Well done for coming on here. That’s a massive achievement in itself.
Are you able to talk to anyone? Have you put the blocks in place? Can you hand over access to money to someone? It’s about closing all those doors and not leaving one open.
I’ve just recently finished a retreat and counselling programme with Gordon Moody and it was just amazing! The main thing I learned was to remove the guilt and forgive myself. I also learned that I need to forget about the money lost and only to look forward.
When it comes to gambling or an urge to gamble, it’s all about responding to that feeling rather than be in autopilot and react to it. Responding to an urge means you stop and think. Reacting to it means you will go and gamble.
You cannot do this on willpower alone (believe me, I tried that a lot) Take on as much help and support as you can. It will feel so hard at the beginning, but today I am on 234 days GF. It can be done!
Good luck 😃
Claire x
Evening Jee95 @jee95
Well done on coming onto the forum to reach out and making a decision that you want to be gamble free. The first step of coming to that decision is the hardest and you have reflected on how bad it makes you feel.
Dont be too hard on yourself as the important point is that you have recognised the pattern you have adopted and want to change that.
Gamcare have so much support to offer and I personally champion all that they stand for in the help they offered me in my time of need.
Please feel free to call the helpline on 0808 8020 133 or live chat if you want to speak to someone directly.
Best Wishes Patsy
@cpparch well done Claire!
one day at a time… have to stay strong and get out of this mess x
@cpparch well done Claire!
one day at a time… have to stay strong and get out of this mess x
Unfortunately I relapsed again and lost a lot of money. Everytime I win and then just can’t stop and end up loosing everything and more. I have put a payment plan in place for myself to help keep track of my finances, I haven’t done this before.
I have blocked all gambling sites so that’s helps that.
aslong as I stay on track and pay my debts back monthly I can end the year on a positive note instead the negative way I have stated it.
I know I don’t need to gamble and it always ends in a bad way but I love the thrill of winnings large sums, it’s a disgusting chase. I always think If I leave now I’ll be fine and up but i reality I know I would still play again tomorrow and be in the same cycle until you lose everything.
Just want the months to go past fast but I just need to stay strong and understand there will light at the end of the tunnel as long as I don’t gamble!
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