no win situation

Hi All

I hate my job.Im working outside and this weather makes it worse, but ive got to admit while ive not been gambling for these last 2 months its become bearable.Why?

because ive got money left every week.

I used to even go out on a friday night and get up at 5 oclock the next morning with a giant hangover knowing i only had to work until dinner. It was a grueller. And we all know what happened next . Yes that days wages and whatever i had left from that week all gone within an hor usually. Why did i bother struggling through the day?

Anyway these days if i can help it i wont work of a saturday.So it gives me one day less in a job i dont like and money to go out with knowing i can sleep off my hangover lol.

I havent thought of gambling at all this week,but i have had dreams about it again wierd .

stay strong all Jeff.

Hi Jeff,

I'm not sure the dreams are weird as i have been getting them as well.

Last night i dreamt i was at my wedding reception and i spent the whole night on a fruit machine ignoring my guests. I took about £100 out of the machine and when the coins were dropping and everyone looked my way due to the noise i felt like the biggest wally. I have not played fruit machines to excess since i was 21 so i thought this was weird!

Keep up the good work Jeff.

Hi Jeff,

Congrats on the progress! Good to hear that the thoughts of gambling are diminishing! There's no better reward that having money at the end of the week/month! Hope everythings going ok with you as well.

Keep it up mate!

James

Hi Jeff,

Well done on the 8 weeks, great stuff. Did you win your golf by the way?

DT.

Hi Jeff,

Thanks for your supportive posts in my diary. It helps a lot coming on here and seeing a decent bloke like yourself taking time out to say a few kind words.

Gone win for your boys last night and a two-legged semi against United to look forward too. Exciting times for you!

Like DT i want to know if you won your order of merit?? Don't tell me you finished out of the top 12 to blow it at the final hurdle!!

Hi All

Thanks for posts DT,Curley and James.And yes i did win the order of merit. I finished third in the last tornament. I played ok but nothing special.I will miss it now for a couple of months.Its perfect to keep me busy of a sunday and keep away those gambling thoughts.Although cant say i enjoyed it so much on Sunday. We played prestatyn and it was throwing it down all day.Its always much colder by the sea.I will try and get a few games in before we start again in march.Its so much better than giving my money to them dreaded bookies,and i even win sometimes unlike with my gambling lol.Stay strong all Jeff.

Hi All

Just got back from christmas shopping with the missus.I dont need to worry about losing all my money today gambling cos she has spent it all lol.

Seriously its a big obstacle out of my way.I knew i had to stop gambling to give my kids the christmas they deserve.Iwill now start saving my money to get through christmas and give my partner a good christmas.After that i shall save to give my kids a good holiday in summer. It makes more sense than paying for the bookies christmas and holidays. Stay strong all Jeff.

HI Jeff,

Well done on your progress. I am Xmas shopping tomorrow, lucky me!

keep it going mate, net Christmas will be even better.

Jim

Hi All

A funny thing happened to me yesterday. I was in the pub watching my team (man city).At the time they were winning 2-1 and a friend said to me had had put a bet on bellamy to score 1st and city to win 2-1 what would happen with the bet. I told him he would just get his £5 on 2-1 at around 14/1 there was only 15 minutes left of the game and he said he was always unlucky it was bound to go down and said i could buy the bet off him for £30.I explained i didnt gamble anymore and wouldnt be buying it from him. At that time chelsea were awarded a penalty which given saved. His bet went on to win ,but i thought to myself what a roller coaster wow thank god i dont do that anymore lol.Anyway no urges from me this weekend stay strong all Jeff.

Great win for City yesterday Jeff. A bit jammy like but they all count!

I'm really impressed with how easily you seem to be giving up your former gambling ways.

Long may it continue.

Hi All

Coming up to 10 weeks this weekend.Im still feeling ok about not gambling i havent had any really bad urges this week. I often think about playing poker on my computor.I feel i didnt have a problem with that as i actually won in the 3 years i was playing but if i had a bad day i would go to the bookies and try to get it back in one hit.You know the rest of the story CHASE ,CHASE ,CHASE,ALL GONE. So i dont think it would be a good move im sure it will lead to the same thing.Isnt it funny how your mind works.I can see now how dangerous it would be just to play poker but when i had my gambling head on it could slap me in the face and i wouldnt realise it. Ive noticed a lot more new names on the forum this last couple of weeks.Im sure everyone wants to stop before christmas.Ithink its a good idea it sort of gives that extra incentive.So i wish you all well and will keep an eye on the diaries all the best Jeff.

Hi Jeff,

Thanks for dropping by my diary. Hey, you are doing well...10 weeks, brilliant. I know how tough it is to cope with this addiction but it's worth all the hard work Jeff.....there is a life out there for us to live!

You were very kind passing on your best wishes about my sister...I really do appreciate it :-))

Stay strong Jeff...I will find time in the next few days to read through your diary and catch up on your story.

Jas x

Thanks mate for posting on my diary much appreciated, taking an approach like yours by setting small targets, and when i get there will give me more confidence and strength to set better targets.

Well done mate for going so long too, keep it up.

Cheers

Hi All

I went out to watch the football about 3-30 on sunday and didnt get in till 2 am absolutley leathered.

Well i had one of those stupid dreams again where i thought i gambled I got up monday and went to work feeling pi***d off.It took me half the day to work out it was only a dream,its hard to tell reality from dreaming when youve had that much.I keep thinking that this non gambling isnt bothering me,but it must be on my mind when im not keeping myself busy eg. when im asleep Ive been gamble free for nearly 11 weeks now but ive had at least 1 dream a week. Does anyone else have this many? I would like to hear if you do . All the best Jeff.

Hi Jeff,

Cheers for your post on my diary the other day. You are helping keep me going!

Don't worry about the dreams Jeff. I am getting them all the time. It's hard for your sub-conscious self to forget all the gambling you have done over the years! I still get dreams that i have forgotten to do my paper round and i have not done a paper round for 15 years!!

Anyway i had a dream the other day that Everton won the league. Imagine how peed off i was when i woke up.

Keep it up mate you are doing just swell.