65 days and still going strong mentally....physically my back is killing lol!
68 days down
Another milestone (70days) passes and i am so grateful to this site and the wonderful people who continue to support and give hope to fellow addicts who just need to believe it is possible to break that grip that gambling has on our lives.
I am proof that YOU can do it!
I have tried close to 100 times to end my lovehate relationship with gambling.
I have been to g.a on many occasions,definetly has its place but i didnt enjoy it.
I have had one to one counselling,enjoyed that but only lasted for a few sessions.
Self excluded,again would find somewhere else to gamble,did make it a pain in the b**t though so would definetly recommend.
Willpower....such a difficult addiction to break on your own. Large dose of willpower is required of course but a helping hand is also needed as back up.
A lesson i have learned over the last 20 yrs of trying to break up with my horrible friend is that i cannot gamble at all. A small bet on the horses just on a saturday....bet looses...am chasing. Just a football bet on a saturday....maybe have a bet on weds games too...ooh theres an non league game on bt sport need to have a bet on that...really!! again the mist has fallen and i'm a goner. Just a lottery ticket....awww my numbers didnt come up....rubbish....got that rush....bookies...away again.
In and out the bookies 5 or 6 times to go to the cash machine knowing that every person can see you are in the grip of addiction. Scared to look at you or have a conversation with you as they know its going to be negative,full of self pity and the gambling god is against you.
And then there is the walk of shame....as you watch that final bet or final spin loose as you new it would and you know all the cash has gone and you know reality is just about to beat you around the head. Sit in your car screaming,shouting,punching. Then the mental torture...how can i not tell my partner,how do i pay those bills,can i raise money any other way. TORTURE.
This weekend is Easter weekend. I at last am seeing the fruits of my ongoing winning battle with gambling...i will not gamble...i will have a great few days with my girls and family members...i will enjoy what i have and not wish for something i really dont need.
It is possible to beat this.
Peace of mind is fantastic
Stay strong
86 days amazing.
Stay strong
93 days and into unchartered territory. Big milestone of 100 days a week away. I am proof that this can be done...believe keep your head down and work towards that goal.
Stay strong
Massive well done on 93 days,
Uncharted territory now, hold on even tighter because this is when it can hit you either slowly and sneakily like a snail, or like a bullet in the back.
One step a head all the time and keeping hold of recovery.
Well done. And stay focused.
Suzanne xxx
94 days...happy days and all is good. Thanks for your comments suzanne your a gem for encouraging people.
Just read bornagain's post and it has sent shivers down my spine. Just proves gambling is always just sitting waiting at your door ready to pounce.
Stay strong
Thanks for your message dez,
95 days today, HDs indeed.
Keep strong
Suzanne xxx
Well another magical timeline happens today....100 days gambling free.
Never in 28 yrs of gambling have i abstained for this amount of time which is amazing.
Thankfully i am just as strong today as i was on day 1 whem i had really had enough.
Just read tnsk's post and it is a timely reminder that i cannot gamble and i cannot even test my resilience against this beast because i know i will lose.
I wish everyone a strong recovery!
100 gambling free happy days....yee ha!!!!
108 days gambling free...really stacking up now.
Amazing how you can still get thoughts coming in to your head...but hey i deal with it and move on and smile about it later as it is a great achievement to put gambling thoughts to bed.
Happy days....well kinda....headin to the dentist...not been for a few yrs....well you know why...wasnt going to waste my gambling money on dentist bills!
Stay strong
Grrr, I too am paying the price of all those missed years of saving my dentist money to chuck away (possibly coupled with an unhealthy attachment to fizzy drinks) & bizarrely, going now makes me feel 'normal' & I just can't get enough of that 🙂
A massive congratulations on your 108 days 🙂 You are right not to test the beast...Letting go of the thought that I could ever control my gambling was one of the best 'things' I ever did!
Keep making the right choices & keep looking back on them with pride - ODAAT
Hi dez1,
Thanks for the post on my diary means alot when people take the time to comment, you are right i need to try and forget about the money i have lost it is holding me back. Wishing you every sucess in your own recovery
114 days g/f!! Normally would be delighted but this weather is wearing me down! Not had a warm sunny day since april.
Can someone do something about it please lol
Stay strong
116 days and the weathers better. Happy days.
Stay strong
123 days gf ....a happy birthday and an overnight at a luxury hotel. This weekend i celebrate my 2 girls birthdays and a 40 th and i have no worries. Gf life is definately the way forward.
Stay strong
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