now i believe i can do this

I'm pretty sure Dez1 won't mind but if you look @ the Forums, they will show you how to set up your own Recovery Diary & people will reply properly to you on there & help you climb back up - ODAAT

Nearly beat it yesterday but just to much time on my hands and being the insidious disease it is unfortunately it got the better of me. Got a busy few days lined up so hopefully that will give that breathing space to get back on the wagon.

Its a tough slog again but its so worth it to be back in that good place. Stay strong

Busy day today so gambling not an option....could do it now but i'm not gonna. Had my shot and it beat me up again so no more of that madness. Onwards and upwards.

Stay strong

Another day down. Busy day with funeral then golf. Had opportunities to gamble but not gonna happen. Back on the proverbial wagon and thankfully i know how good it feels and that is what i'm relying on.

Stay strong

Busy day driving which has prevented any thoughts entering my head....the triangle broken. Have to say i am back feeling good again and hopefulky my slipo was just a pothole in the road that caused a bit of damagewhich is repairable and now i know i need to swerve to avoid the potholes.

Stay strong

What a tough day today...my gambling addiction was playing games in my head justifying reasons why i should gamble. Playing golf and having to fight urges to call it quits after a few holes...sitting in the house with a few hrs to spare...paper opened looking at racing meetings...o*g it is an enormous fight at times and so easy to give in! Anyway have gotten through and got something to do tonight so a victory for me today. All in all what is the point for a compulsive gambler in gambling. Onwards and upwards

Stay strong

Thanks for dropping by with a pat on my back the other day 🙂

We see the potholes, we drive round them, gambling is no different! These ones you have negotiated today are proof indeed that if you stay on your guard you won't do anymore damage! The addiction talks b****x, I know that, you know that, we all know that...You are in charge, not your addiction & you can win this fight - ODAAT

Back on the wagon for 7 days....decent amount of damage done but not total. Just back from madrid which has helped get me free from the madness. Looking forward to building again and regaining peace of mind. Was back to standing in bookies cursing machines...cursing jockeys...cursing horses,trainers,dogs you name it i cursed my luck. I CANNOT WIN AT GAMBLING!!! So here i go again.

Been a tough 3mths as i have been totally submerged in gambling and despite desperatly trying to get back my sanity i cannot stop. I need to understand my thinking and urges when the persuasive gambling voice comes calling and rebuke him. I so need help. My 8mths gambling free spell started with me continueously updating my diary and so i will recommence this process. Voices of support i need. Anyone think the free counselling service will assist me?

Hey Dez, thanks for the post on my diary. We are worth so much more than they cycle of pain we put ourselves through. I would say give as much as you can a go, put as much effort into recovery as you used to into your gambling. Try GA, try counselling, give someone else control of your money, self exclude from as many places as possible, there are loads of inspiring diaries on here but two which I think will help are Duncanmacs and Day@atimes. They are long diaries but well worth a read. Keep up the fight and I hope you can make this count!

Hi Dez1,

I found one-to-one counselling good. It's definately worth a try.

My wife controls the finances. It can be hard sometimes but it's better than the bookies getting it.

Good luck in your recovery.
Toad.

Hey des, good to see you back:))

You have already come across that you have learnt a lot from your relapse, that is so positive for you.

To be honest, take now anything and everything on board that will help you, (have not done any councilling yet lol) but it is there as another deterrent if needed. Do everything going to abstain and maintain:))

Well done on coming back and not giving up on giving up.

To be honest with me (and we are all different) I have kept close to my diary, and this forum every single day, and that with all the wonderful folk on here has kept me going, this does not suit everyone, I am sure that GA meetings will give you inspiration, but only if you really are ready to to do this now, and you can do this , the support here is ongoing, the support from councilling will be, and the support from GA will be,

The hard thing for us at the beginning of our 100% commitment to recovery is to,actually let go,,and let recovery in,

You can do this,

Supporting you all the way des,

Suzanne xxx

Hey dez you are more than welcome ;)),

Walking along side with you ,

Suzanne xxx

Good Luck - well done for coming back x

Hi thanks for the comments on my post. I hope your feeling better. I was feeling so down the last few days thanks to gambling but feeling abit better today.
I wish u all the best we can beat this.