Quitting on the back of a win / My Recovery diary

Quitting on the back of a win is the heading of your diary. Personally I don't think that's possible. If you win you feel justified in going back cos it's not your money.

Reading your diary, you constantly justify your gambling, giving yourself reasons & excuses.

You, like me are a compulsive gambler. Maybe this is your time to really fight this disease, after a loss.

Hope you don't think I'm being judgemental, I just want everyone on this site to succeed.

Good luck

I agree with you mostly...but i wouldn't say excuses, i'd say reasons. When i win i do start to think it's going to happen again, even though i know it's not logical. I always feel it's my money though (not like im gambling with theres as it's just getting back previous losses.

Had a positive weekend, worked an extra day, had a good time with friends etc.Gambled a little but had some luck (i know that doesn't excuse it) and left my cards and took a small amount of cash with me to protect myself.

Have a big week of work ahead of me as i booked my days on when i was mad about losing £30 so i'm doing a 60 hour week this week. I hope my boots last as my job is pretty much all walking.

Not been stupid since the other day and avoided my weekend weakness by doing extra days at work. Getting big urges though...i pretty much stopped gambling for a month then get "lucky" and it brings me right back to the bad times where gambling is all i think of.

Any winnings are just lost again, then u feel the need to chase them back and lose more etc.

Anyway i'm going to amsterdam in a few weeks so hopefully that will take my mind off of things a little.

Not gambled for 12 days now. Had the urge to, fantasized about it but kept myself busy with extra days at work etc.

Richer than ever thanks to that.

Also not been spending as much at weekends as have been working saturdays which prevents me going out partying/drinking/gambling on a friday night.

last night my gf and i went out to a club. I wanted to gamble and she was moaning at me about it. I went on it a little as i jackpot it once a month and its had enough time to fill up. Anyway it dropped the jackpot for someone else and i walked out on my gf. I blaimed her for it as she kept me off it at some points in the night. It ended up where we ended another night arguing with her crying. I really feel like a bad person and i need to split with her as she gets hurt too much. She loves me to bits but i dont feel the same. wish i did but just dont. anyway, excuse the ramble. Back to square one and things are worse than ever.

Next time you have those feelings, just consider this.

How would you feel if you decided to gamble and won the jackpot? Winning jackpots can only lead to more gambling, those winnings are always temporary.

How would you feel if you decided to not gamble? Would you feel if you had won the long-term jackpot? I certainly would.

Food for thought, perhaps?

GT

Thanks for the comment, i really appreciate it.

I know you're right...when i win i always put it back in in the following weeks. I'm stupid for all of this and it's always hassling me.

I've just had to book myself in for extra days at work cos of my recent gambling...and it means i'll be walking for 9 hours a day in this weather which won't be pleasant at all.

Last night i was out again and gambled and a really hot girl came up behind me and started trying to dance with me...but i was on the fruit machine and was too busy with that to give her my full attention.

I'm going to go cold turkey, too many false starts, too much being lost and it's making me miserable nowadays.

I darent even think about how much ive spent in the past few days. I am blocking it out mentally.

Not gambled a penny for around 3 weeks...and my weak points are weekends so booked myself in to work those days for the next few weeks.

I've been helped a little by them changing the fruit machines where i was gambling...and in my twisted gambler mind that somehow means they wont pay out as they've not been filled up.

I caught myself fantasizing about being gamble free for a month the other day, was quite pleased with myself as most times it would of been a win etc...but i just cant be bothered with any of it anymore.

I've been injured by work recently and that has spurred me to cut out gambling also as had 2 weeks off work. I'm a bit worried my injuries will eventually cost me my job as it involves walking for 8 hours a day...which i enjoy when im healthy...but it's hell when you're not and you're limping around.

Also my gf is moving in with me soon and i found her a job advert which lead to her getting a job.

Just my recent thoughts as i've not updated for ages.

Went out drinking last night with friends, all of my friends put some money in the fruit machines and lost. I didn't put anything in at all. A guy came up and said he'd just jackpotted it and was cashing it up at the bar.

One of my pals was asking his gf for "just one more pound" etc saying it was going to pay out...we've all been there.

Can't really remember how long it's been since i gambled precisely.

Gambled about £3 last night...wasted £11 in the past month. Not the end of the world and if i keep it up i'll be ok.

Gave my mrs the money for the night out so i wouldnt be as tempted and didnt take my cards with me.

The amount of belief in "luck" on here is quite shocking. It can only harm your recovery and cost you money in the process.

Wins only ever spurred me on to gamble more (and lose) so why bother thinking about luck at all ?

I think blaming bad luck for losses etc can only stop you from taking responsibility for your actions.

Had a dream about winning a jackpot last night, i dont see where it came from!

Working all weekend so no chance to slip up.

Gamble free weekend, got all my days in and back on track for the month after an unexpected week off early in the month.

3 days off start at 5pm so roll on cos i'm only really surviving on caffeine 🙂

Small slip last night...i went out with a pal, put £1 in a machine and got £8 back and walked away, but then later on met some other friends, one of whom originally introduced me to gambling and he was borrowing money from his gf to play the fruit machines...didn't win anything at all, and i lost the £8 by getting sucked into it.

My friends gf told me a story about how they'd been in a betting shop the day before on roulette and lost a lot of money and they only stayed on the machine so long as they'd lost and were trying to win money back. I told her that was a sign of gambling addiction and mentioned this place.

I didn't take any cards with me and came home with £10 in coins (from £20 that i took out for my night out) but it has stoked my urges big time.

I should be able to get through the next 48 hours however and then i'll be back at work and safe.

6 weeks since my last gambling meltdown...lost £11 total since then in 2 small slips....