Good luck with the meeting - just think that nothing is tougher than coming through gambling and staying clean as you have done for over three weeks, so someone yelling a bit will be water off a duck's back!
One red flag in your message was you saying you will stop off to have a bit to eat but not gamble - do you mean in the same town where you used to gamble? If so, I wouldn't go there. With your defences down it might be too tempting - perhaps go to a different town for lunch instead... or a drive-through 🙂
Cheers,
Ross
Yeah grab a bargain bucket! ; ) Not sure if it is your cup of tea but a safe option, especially as you may be a little weary, bruised or even battered! You know what you've got to do, whether it means avoiding the place completely or not, I probably wouldn't but I can equally see the rationale.
Just absorb yourself in the things you probably missed out on last time, you hinted it was a nice place.
My advice would be to find a part of town that isn't as close or on the same street as that evil place. It is an awful place in your mind and it will continue to be should you visit it, we can never win!
Stay on the 2014 bus with us Tomso. You'll feel great for it when you finally arrive home. Think of it this way; you will feel good (albeit a bit sore) on the start of your journey as your ordeal with the customer would have come to an end, then the second part (after you have eaten your food) will feel 100 times better. You'll be chirping away to some tunes, safe in the knowledge that you are taking control and being really brave by facing up to your addiction. Take any mental torment that sick Tomso throws at you, like you did from the client, smile, grit your teeth, then concentrate on that warmth and pride you should feel, knowing that you rode it out, you'll be back in your happy home before you know it!
I may be overly concerned here Tomso, I'm just flapping a little. I need your continued company on the 2014 bus, it's a great ride so far and I certainly don't want to get off. (even if Duncs singing does leave a lot to be desired) I can't wait to step off at the end so we can have that massive celebration before joining the queue for the 2015 transfer. (Maybe you'll be behind the wheel next year)
Sending you all the courage I can for your tough day!
All the best
Alexis
Hey Tomso
You will be fine. Just keep that last trip in your mind and the negative outcome and the journey home. Make the next journey home different and you will be so happy and proud of yourself when you walk through your door!!
Rooting for you.
Take care.
Feb.
Tomso
fella I hope you take the good out of your trip that your efforts deserve my friend
Bottom line is those blocks are never impossible to break, they as I have said many times gift you time, time to think
The Choice ultimately is yours fella.
I hope yours is the right one for you.
duncs stepping forward never back.
Day 26.
Got my laptop fixed this morning to the tune of eighty bucks, which is a small price to pay to be able to post on my diary once again.
No problems with my trip away. I ended up not stopping off. I had made a packed lunch and was just not hungry enough. On the way there I passed without any thoughts of gambling but on the way home I got some butterflies in the tummy when approaching my usual stop off destination. I quickly laughed this off.
Last year I only managed to go thirty days bet free once during the whole year. Embarrassing really. Anyway, I hope this year will be better.
Tomso.
Hi Tomso
Well done for getting through your trip gamble free. If you dont mind me asking, are you from America? Just with you saying "80 bucks".
Take care and stay strong
Feb.
Yo,
Hi five !
Shiny xxx
Day 28.
High five straight back at you Shines.
Replaced my gambling addiction with new addiction for white chocolate and raspberry cookies. Equally nice from Morrisons or Asda but Marks and Spencers take the biscuit so to speak.
I have had the house to myself for the past few days. No surprise that I am sitting in bed with a fleece on and two duvets. Typical stingy man. Who needs the heating on just chuck on an extra jumper. It'll be fine.
Work is rubbish just now. I should change that to people at work are rubbish. We are experiencing a few problems just now and some people's body language is nothing short of disgusting. I cannot stand it when during tough times some people just want to moan about everything while poisoning others and bringing nothing productive to the table. People may disagree but it is too hard to sack people these days.
Bit of a random post tonight without any real thought put into its delivery. Rather a page of rubbish thrown together. Still I didn't gamble today and rather than just say that I thought I would provide the reader with rubbish about cookies and idiots at work.
Night night.
P.S. Feb - no I am not American.
Tomso.
Thanks Tomso..
I'm still having my posts vetted hence the time delay but I kind of like it as it keeps me in check....
Kisses a plenty xxxxxxxxx
Still in shock after seeing the ex on a swingers site bragging ...I knew he would but still to see it with my own eyes was horrible. I'm no prude but cudda done with some boxing gloves ....lol
Good to see you are still here and giving your all to living life to the full..((((T))))
R and D xx
Day 30.
This is the longest period of time I have went in the past twelve months without gambling. I was a tortured soul last year. I simply just could not accept my losses and because they were small I always knew it would only take a few small wins in a row to pay off my debts. Of course, now I know that it is not about the money and since I have accepted that I seem to have a different mind set towards it all.
One of the greatest things to ever happen to me was the moment when I finally accepted my debt. I don't know why it happened this time and can't recall when it happened exactly but it has happened and I am far happier and less stressed because of it. I don't look at bank accounts and don't worry about anything other than today.
I suppose it would have been great if this had happened sooner but my wife says everything happens for a reason and maybe this is true.
A little longer than a week after my last relapse I decided that after several failed attempts I had no choice other than to quit smoking because I could no longer afford it. I have had one bad moment, which arrived on the second day but nothing since. I have saved over 100 quid from not smoking in this time and feel free from the slavery of nicotine. One thing is for sure however, I will never take anything for granted again. I appreciate every day now that I am not gambling and not smoking and how I feel is as a result of these choices. The correct choices.
Tomso.
Well done Tomso.
Take care and remain strong.
Feb.
Tomso
fella that is the second post today that raised a whopping great big smile.
I will give you this piece of advice my friend
don't celebrate your sucess with a punt!!!
Honestly a wonderful post to read, your determined attitude, one which only you could find shines through.
for it a huge well done.
Long may it continue.
duncs stepping forward never back.
Day 32.
Enjoying life at the moment. Going along nicely one day at a time.
Tomso.
Day 34.
Got a full house again as the wife returns from hospital. All week she was saying how she was going to treat us all to a meal at a new restaurant which has just opened close to us so I look forward to that today.
Hadn't been able to go for any runs for about ten days due to the wife being away and me juggling two kids, work and daily visits to the hospital. Life is challenging but we all have problems. Anyway, going for a long run soon.
Work getting me a little down lately. One thing after another going wrong with me being the person to fix things.
Still I remain on the road of total abstinence which provides me with a good feeling inside that I am making the correct decisions even during tough times.
Tomso.
Well done on 34 days Tomso, you're goin great guns.
Lifes problems are still there even when we stop gambling,that's life.
But we can cope and deal with things much more easily without it.
Most of my problems all come back to gambling,other problems seem to be insignificant in comparison.
Keep strong Tomso,enjoy your sunday.
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