Realised a trigger

Hi

By investing my time and effort in to the recovery program would help me deal with my emotional triggers.

I questioned what was recovery mean to me.

In time I go to understand that my unhealthy reactions led me in to doing or saying things that I would regret.

The recovery  program would help me live a much healthier safer life.

The recovery  program would help me understand that each time I gambled I made thing much worse in my life.

The recovery  program would help me understand that gambling for me was a kind of self abuse.

I learned to abstain from Gambling but it is more about healing my pains.

The very last thing I want to do today is Gamble.

In my expereince I would learn that pains in my past caused fears in me that I did not understand.

The like minded people in the recovery  program would help me heal my pains.

The like minded people in the recovery  program would help me face and reduce my fears.

The like minded people in the recovery  program would help me reduce my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations.

The like minded people in the recovery  program would help me sort out what my needs were,  sort out what my wants were, sort out what my goals were.

I use to be such aloner before my recovery.

Now I feel so much more connected to people.

As my fears reduce my trsust grew.

There is no more fear and doubt in m walking in to the recovery meetings.

Even though some very painful traumatic events happpened in my life in the past that today I am a survivor.

By healing my pains I no longer feel an out cast.

I am able to think much more clearly.

In time I changed from being a very emotionally vulnerable person to a person who lives a much healthier life today.

I do not have to lie today because my fears are reduced.

I could only find a much healthier life by admitting to my self how emotionally vulnerable I use to be.

I do not fear being honest today.

I certinly do enjoy being a much healthier person today.

Just  for today I do not want or need to gamble.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Well done on beating the urge, it's not easy once it's in your head! Such a good feeling when you don't give in not like the awful feeling you get after you have gambled

Urges are important to understand and interesting, in my own case, when tired, depressed, stressed or bored, also certain times and days of the week. Try to realize them as you have, spot them as early as possible and avoid to minimize the risks. It really is worth giving an hour quietly working out the triggers and the lead up to your potential triggers. 

Posted by: @lids19635

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Urges are important to understand and interesting, in my own case, when tired, depressed, stressed or bored, also certain times and days of the week. Try to realize them as you have, spot them as early as possible and avoid to minimize the risks. It really is worth giving an hour quietly working out the triggers and the lead up to your potential triggers. 

@fun-has-stopped thanks very much had string urge today but this passed, feeling proud  hope your doing well and thanks for advice

@lids19635 thanks  for the advice,I'm starting to recognise  days of work,free tike is a trigger,but I kept my self occupied  and worked out and I got through  the day.so I must be getting  stronger ,every day can't be perfect  14 days now and life is getting  better. Hope your doing  well also

@gadaveuk thanks for the advice  hope your doing well.

@1y6nrqvgdi 

Thank you for asking

Been a testing week.

Emotionally was tested by another persons rage driving on the road.

Physiccally I have diabetes and not happy with having to monitor my blood a few times a day.

Wife is worried about me not taking it seriously.

How much do I value my life.

Am I going to reduce my fears about needles and pricking my self.

Take good care.

Dave L