reborn on the 4th July

Thanks 4 ur post castle enjoy ur extra pint haha if anyone deserves it you do your support to everyone on here dosent go unnoticed. Enjoy your day off tomorrow

Hi castle,

U r doing gr8, enjoy ur pint!

Stay strong and keep going 🙂

Hi Castle,

Returning that support which you seem to be giving everyone. Everyone deserves a little break mate. You have done fantastically well and you are a credit to yourself and Gamcare. It's people like you that make this whole thing tick. Long may it continue. We're out of the mix now bud and doesn't life feel so much better whatever.

Take care, IanB.

Hi Castle,

Hope your daughter had a fab time

Hope your extra pint went down well, so good to see you treating yourself cause you sure deserve it!

Thanks for your support and again well done for not throwing away the £20

Keep Strong

Smiling Lucy again

Had a good night and a nice chill day today one of those days which is not very often where my mind is not thinkin bout much at all , I am not complaining though hope there's more to come

Pleased you had a good day today mate, sometimes a quiet, relaxed day is good for us.

You're doing well and I have noticed how much you help others, so keep up the good work.

Wilsy

Hmmm,mm,m,

It worked........

The electrical fault seems to have done the trick. Boat of serenity , enjoy the ride .

Hugs,

Dusty xxxxx

Ps when does the x factor start ? Lol

A good long day at work and pay day tomorrow managed to get my bonus just under 3 grand , nice or tax man took a third of it so gonna pay my divorce upfront straight away which is gonna be bout 1500 quid the rest is for survival till I come off mortgage

Contemplating speaking to parents to see if they will lend me some money as the car I av now is awful eats petrol and insurance is sky high plus its not running right and so unreliable starting , another reason is want to get away for a week with daughter as with divorce work and the ups and downs of life I cud really do with one but sometimes think it's a bit cheeky to borrow money to go away so that's why the contemplation

I know I av issues with parents from childhood but the one thing I can say is that they will always help out financially , in a way I don't want to av to ask but the bank is out of question and I don't really want to be indebted te them so lots to think bout

So my one off quiet day yesterday has gone and back in the mix today

The one thing I can honestly say is gambling has not entered my thoughts even with an extra 2000 grand in my account

Hey Buddy,

Well I am back and I have been doing some light reading to see where people are at.

It's so eye opening reading many diaries in a short space of time catching up on a few days worth of posts, you really see just how amazing some people are on this site. You really drive me forward mate, you post to so many and it's not a throw away word or two it's always a real pick me up for every individual you speak to.

Reading your diary I would say if you feel the parents are in a position to help then go for it. I wouldn't say go for it to everyone but in this instance definitely do it. The money would be used for all the right reasons. Pushing forward with your life leaving the past that little further behind, and taking your daughter away. I really get the impression your daughter is number 1 in your life and if it's going to make her smile do whatever you can.

Just my thoughts. Oh and the gambling not entering your thoughts sounds awesome. I decided yesterday to be on guard more than ever as I hadn't thought about it either but if those thoughts remain a memory then we have real good times ahead.

Have a good day mate,

Flagg

Hi ya,

Good to see your hard work rewarded. Really hope it help reduce some of the finically burden.

Only you know if you ask your parents to help, bit disappointed that the electrical fault was fixed so quickly. But thats life. Truly hope you and FP manage to get a bit of a break away together this year,sure it will do you both the world of good.

Take care

Dusty xxxxx

Stressful day at work today but no moaning bout it it's done now other than that alls well

Mentioned to my parents bout loaning some money I cud feel myself hating it as I was saying it , if it was just a simple yes course we will what do u need and pay it back when u can then I wouldn't av a problem but there's gonna be question after question having to account for every detail a bit like goin back into child mode , I know this sounds very ungrateful and I am really but like I av mentioned before I av some real childhood issues and it's a like a reminder of those days

But I av only myself to blame if I hadn't wasted 26 years of my life gambling then I wouldn't av to be asking , that was then and this is now and lookin forward it will get better

Just makes me more and more determined to beat this illness

Castle,

Great to read you got your bonus from work. I hope that helps make things a little easier for you.

We don't know the Castle of the past 26 years only the one who is active today. The one who always offers kind and supportive words to others when they need it most. The one who puts himself out for complete strangers and is never too busy to respond to a post. You clearly have a special relationship with your daughter and she, like us, only gets to enjoy the Castle of today.

Keep your chin up. You are doing fantastically well.

Tomso.

Hi Castle,

Thanks for your lovely post on mine as always 🙂

Glad to see you got through your stressful day and great to see you said that's it done so no dwelling!

Know how you feel with the family, i'm the same with things from the past, but we can't change whats happenend now but boy are we starting to make the rest of our life better than before and must focus on that.

I laughed so much about sat, meeting my cousins and son now at 9.30 in the pub so could be a bit messy lol, last time in cardiff i watched 44 players lol lol so will have to try and pace myself tomorrow!

Think my cousins have some t-shirts made up but won't see them till tomorrow but if you see a great big dazzling smiling drunk woman that will be me lol lol

Keep Strong and have a great bet free weekend!

Smiling Lucy

Hi Castle, thanx for your post on my diary.

I just had a read through yours and your journey is awesome and inspiring. I hope you realise just how important your words of encouragement and kindness mean to others on here. Keep it up please, they help so much.

Heres wishing you a good day, enjoy your weekend,

All the Best

Cameron

Hi Castle,

Thank you for your post on my diary, such very kind words.

I dont think i would be where i am now without people like you to inspire me, i see how seriously you take your recovery and i Know that I have to also as in the past its always been half hearted attempts to quit.

I was once told " Never miss an opportunity to shut your gob and listen lol " and i have been reading so many diaries and trying to do just that, I know i cant beat this on my own so i will take all the help and advice i can get.

I do hope you manage to get a break away with your girly i love holidays i think it was the only time i never gambled.

Continued strength and power to you and your recovery castle.

Blondie day 25 x