Well its the weekend and im feeling much better after a long long sleep and a restfull day today. Im sure ill feel back to worse mentally come monday but im not focusing on that for now.
One week of work then im off for four days (monday and tuesday holiday days)..... Im going to get some paint next week and on the saturday and sunday paint my kitchen with my folks. Shouldnt be too hard wash down maybe friday night / saturday, then paint sunday..... its a pretty awkward room to paint but its pretty small so shouldnt be a problem.
I slept till 3pm today..... just felt content in bed so thought why get up.... then went to get a coffee...and got some ice creams for my nephews and niece for tomo.....then played cod with a friend...then went for my exercise.... ive done 7k today less than last week but not far off...done some weights too...then made bolognese...was lovely,.....then played xbox with some other friends for a couple of hours....now im chilling listening to some music.
Work is not perfect and i find myself thinking about it afterwards but in all honesty its the perfect role for me.....its perfect hours for sleep and rest after...it has minimal stress.... responsibility but not enough to cause stress..... my manager lets me get on and doesnt disrupt too much.... ok they dont want me spending anytime on pc but to be fair they actually say that people spend too much time looking at screens so in all honesty i think ill try to spend less and less time on screens for my health and well being.
Friends and i were talking about another friend who is going to rent a council house and they are also both looking to do this. they said "do u own ur flat outright", i said i am paying my mum and dad back monthly like a mortgage...... now to be fair i dont earn anywhere near the amoutn most do but i am in a very good position financially...... i can see that if i keep going on the same path forever ill not have to worry about my finances and can leave a lot of money to my sister/nephews and niece when i pass.
Got an r2d2 dooor matt this week too lol..... its great and just cos me three pounds.
All the best Adam
You sound in a good place again, well done for working hard mentally to get there.
One tip, work pays you for your time whilst at work, they dont however pay you to think or worry about work in your own personal time. As you are trying to do dont allow work or work problems into your mind outside of work hours.
Have a great weekend Adam.
Hi lids, really good advice.....thanks for popping by.....i know what to do....just got to stop my ocd kicking in around work outside of work hours.
To be fair ive not thought about work this weekend.....and will be fresh tomo.
My sister, nephews and niece came over today......we watched the mario brothers film on my xbox....really good film enjoyed it.
Only done 1.5k today so might go out now for a walk?
@adam123 this is what i like to see a possitve story for a change, i can see your living a normal gamble free life keep it mate?
@adam123 i paid for a friends meal today as a treat he actually more stressed about life and he has no addiction life isnt perfect but im seeing the benfits already not gambling im back to my old self again
Hi Tazan, thansk for popping bu no doubt ill see you in chat tonight.
Actually i do think im now living a relatively normal life thanks to some hard work, determination and a bit of help from friends and family.
After work today my folks came over and we planned out my work on kitchen....Look ing get rid of old extractor fan and get a new one.....then new cooker.... lick of paint and new blinds. Hopefully do most of the work in the next few weeks but not in a rush.
Then went to folks for dinner, had a bath then walked back....
With that walk ive done 14600 steps today plus some weights..
All the best Adam xx
stepped it up today at work and feeling great for it!!!!
Went to work and by 2pm i was on 10k steps....got home and had done 13k steps... then had dinner and went for another walk done 17000 steps today and done 6 reps of 15 on weights..!!!!....
Had bolognese for dinner
Only spent 14pence on my daily coffee by just getting a bananna lol.
Going to try and do a few objectives this month.....
1) spend under 40 pounds in sainsburys on food... (ive got plenty in freezer can just go thru that.
2) spend under 30 pounds in waitrose (one pound a day average) on my daily coffee buzz..
will get a few banannas this month lol
3) look to do 16k steps for 20 out of the 30 days..... and 15 reps times 4 for 20 out of the 30 days...
Will see how much i can do.
If i manage these objectives i will be healthier than the month beofre and financially i will save 700 pounds towards my debt!!!!!
Im off to look at my finances and go on chat
All the best adam xxx
Feeling really tired and wired, a bit too much thinking about work, thinking about exercise, not enough down time....time away from screens past certain time in the evening.
lat night i finnished work then walked up practice to have my injection then wlaked back....felt faint when i got back.....ate.. but legs felt super knackered......so phoned parents got them to pick me up and had a long bath round theirs (my bath is still not working siggh)....
So both weeks when the other porter has been on holiday my manager has been of sick.....I've tried my hardest to keep everyone happy.....Ive looked at emails when at home so im not on pc at work....ive done some work at home not got paid for it obvs as per..... ive trimmed hedges, organised stationary room, cleaned signs, taken bins out, confidential waste out, taken cardboard out form supplies and atrium, taken dleiveries round, seen to the clinical waste pick ups, ordered sharps bins, cleaned bins and stocked up when arrived, cleaned windows, cleaned radiators, litter picked, weeded, checked doors locked, ordered gases, collected empty gases and replensihed, collected all sharps bins, checked wheelchairs available, performed fire drill, taken pharmacy deliveries round,
And after all that chris from supplies said to me "u are allways just plodding around, be careful theyre watching you" i mena where am i actually going wrong...... it beats me.....f**k em....
Ive done 17k steps most days this week..... 13k at work on tuesday..... usually do 10.....
So was going to do decorating this weekend at flat but my legs are soo tired ive cancelled it with my parents. Just going to rest and play xbox and watch films under a duvet for the weekend.... sounds amazing to say that.....really going to do absolutely nothing..... may go for a bit of a walk but just short ones to keep my eye in.
All the best Adam
time to rest, unwind and recharge
Sounds perfect........
Wrote a long post but i wasnt logged in so it didnt come on a deleted.......needless to say ive had a lovely day today.....lie in....xbox....friends house...pub....folks.....flat...just about to go to bed..
Sisted coming over monday.....will rest up and recharge my batteries fully before work on wednesday....
Night
Adam
Needless to say im well rested again and ready for the week of work ahead.....
One more day off work tomo then back again....
Soo i will now rest for the night, unwind and be ready to go back
Back at work today.....was rested now im tired again lol...only one day in...... ill rest up tonight....get an early night and see what tomo brings.....lots to look forward to ..... new tv....plumber coming round to fix bath tap horray.....premier league starting up again..... its all happening...
114 days till i hit the 4 year gamble free mark....really looking forward to that.
work is going really well..... manager is off sick and im trying hard to not only get a lot done each morning but also get a lot done in the afternoons.
Got plumber over tomo to service boiler and finally fix my tap on bath so i can have a bath......been 3 months and altho my water heating bill has gone down a lot i do like to have a bath so will no doubt have one this weekend.
Money going onto the argos gift card hopefully tomo so i can get the tv cant wait really hope its as good as i expect it to be.
Premier league is startting tomo,..... just been doing my fant team....really hope i get off to a flying start....really looking forward to watching it....horray...
Got another bargin of sky sports on my mobile for this season for 12 pounds....its a small screen but its a really good price.
Its the first month that ive been on a minus ever since i started my spreadsheet back in 2015.....this is a bit annoying but apart from the tv and bills ive only spent 30 pounds on food so 3 pounds a day... not too bad....just a bit annoying to be in a minus already but i will only buy a tv once every ten years hopefully so its money well spent.
All the best Adam
pretty unwell at mo......had day off work friday.....just doen covid test its negative thankfully but im coughing a lot.
Got my new tv ...... gonna set it up when im better......have to see when that is...
Just saw mixer on group chat really good to see them again lets refocus and plod a long this gamble free road.
We help each other on here and it gos to sohw keeping focused on gamcare and recovery for me really helps long may it continue.
spurs game tomo.....looking forward to see a fresh new team...i think richarlison is great so i think we will have a good season......
All the best Adamxx
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