Regaining life, family and memories.

Onwards and upwards all. Another day nearing the end. Challenge as ever with the weekend coming...out for beers tonight with the mates so have to stay strong. They all gamble but have been supportive of my journey as I have opened up to them which has helped! No gambling for me though. I have a golf lesson tomoz and maybe have a round after that. Will be checking in on here at 12/3/5 to keep a strong reminder away from betting.

I'm starting to feel less and less like a gambler as days go by. I've stop thinking of chance, percentages and gambles. Not just in betting but in life.

I truly believe that you are not always in recovery. You can recover and break through to become a non-gambler. That is my aim.

On my way home walking through the city I saw a very vunreble homeless guy, this could have been me very easily. Could have been many of my friends and from stories on here could have been someone that has failed to beat his addiction after posting on here.

It got me thinking, never judge a book by its cover. Everyone walks past in there £1000 suits off to sniff there high class C*****e and drinks champagne. What could this mans live had become if he could've beaten his addiction. What ever that addiction may have been.

I stopped, purchased a coca-cola, packet of crisps and a brownie. I hope this has helped make his evening a little better.

This site is my packet of crisps, brownie and bottle of coke..my little hope and ray of light that has truly changed my life for now.

As always, guard up and off to enjoy my weekend gambling free.

Hanzsolo, no bet since 1/9/13

Onwards and upwards,

Hanz

Not even a thought about the games today, who is favourites or any of that rubbish. My friends have let me down and not able to make golf. Decided I am gonna have a round on my own. Plenty of time for thinking and nothing wrong with that!

Onwards and upwards

Hanz

Hi Hanz

First check in on day 13. On my way to the pub, looking forward to my first pint in 2 weeks! Hope you had a good round of golf.

Hey Tess

Enjoy the pub mate. Golf was ok until it rained.

Enjoy the afternoon all

Hanz

Check in no. 2, going great guns so far today.

A thought today. My friend asked me when I was "recovered" would I bet again. Of course not! The thought of not gambling again used to scare me, loosing a hobby and common interest with many of my friends. Not anymore, why would I even want to put a small bet on anything, that would be a backwards step. I don't go backwards

Onwards and upwards,

Hanz

No real thoughts of gambling this weekend. 9 weeks in and feeling fresh! Life is feeling good!

Onwards and upwards!

Hanz

Hi Hanz,

Sorry not posted for a few day's been really busy with work and MIL who is still quite poorly.

Hope you ok, lools like you are staying strong and positive, had a near miss myself but managed to resist (a bit too late for my liking but no damage done).

Keep up your positive strength.

JT

Best wishes Hope x

Hi Hanz

Sorry mate, i just realised that i missed the last check in on Saturday. Things started to get a bit hazy around that time! Safe to say it was a thoroughly enjoyable, gamble free Saturday and i was still with you in spirit! Hope all is still going well for you and i'll be back on here this coming Saturday.

T

All good Tess!

Wasn't really thinking about gambling this weekend. Tried to spend some time with family and friends. How much more rewarding is it mate?

Sounds like you are going strong as well. Are you finding the urges slowly reducing now? I certainly am!

Onwards and upwards all

Hanz

Hope!

Thanks for your post as ever! I am still checking to see if you post every day and urging you to keep going strong!

Together we can all get through this

Hanz

Day 67 done and dusted. Over 2/3's of the way to the 100 days mark. Tomorrow brings payday, confident I have my finances under control

Payday has arrived And for now for the second time in a very long time it is my payday and not the online bookies.

I've worked hard to earn that money and I am keeping it all to myself! Why would I wanna drop it down a drain or kid myself into thinking I can double it?

2 months, 6 days and 22 hours gambling free

Onwards and upwards

Hanz

Great stuff mate.

Slightly early first check in for me as i've got to pop out shortly.

Have a great gambling free Saturday.

Missed my check ins yesterday but that was because gambling didn't really cross my mind. As I've always said Saturday used to be my toughest day in terms of chasing loses ect, yesterday gambling very rarely crossed my mind!

Today brings up 10 weeks! 70 days!

That gives me a better high than gambling ever did

Onwards and upwards

Hanz