Regrets, I've had a few, but then again....

Ryan

Fella thanks for poppng by, you are right in what you said

honesty with ourselves and admitting our shortcomings are the best wat to continue bettering ourselves

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Enjoy the superbowl, it threw me back to my own childhood for a minute, channel four used to have a weekly show and you could like football cards collect the helmets of all the teams!! wish I had kept them!!

Hey Ryan,

Get those boxing gloves out and keep letting it all out!! 😉

Lol, I have a shed, but it wouldn't hold from my blows lol, see it collapsing in a stronger wind already lol lol

Thank you for ur continued support my friend, you are doing great. This year is the year dear fighter, anything you want, future is in ur hands, and I can see that traveling is coming closer to you day by day...you will do it, keep making the right choice!!!

S xx

The usual ups and downs keep coming and going, but I am starting to think that it has more to do with stuff away from gambling, as opposed to having urges to throw away my cash. I've always thought that I've been a little manic depressive, and these last weeks have seen quite a few ups and downs. Nothing to do but steel my resolve and keep pushing through, lying in bed feeling sorry for myself achieves absolutely nothing!

Superbowl was a bit of a letdown as it was a completely one sided affair, but nice to spend time with a couple of mates.

Thanks for the support as always, and as you say Duncs honesty about ourselves is vital to recovery.

All the best folks,

Ryan

Hi Ryan... there is a little of the manic depressive about me as well.. but erring on the side of depressive I reckon lol

Managing the emotional ups and downs of life is not easy sometimes eh... but I reckon its easier than the emotional rollercoaster that compulsive gambling brings.

Nice to spend time with mates. Am trying to do a bit more of that myself. All the best... S.A 🙂

Leedso,

Just wanted to pop in to say well done for your continued recovery. I have been reading some of your diary this morning and although each journey is difficult I think you have the absolute correct attitude. Great things will come your way due to this hard working attitude.

Tomso.

Hey Ryan,

Thank you for your post. Roller coaster ride eh??? Hmmm... we all are on the same ride lol!! Just imagine me sitting next to u and screaming my head off while going down lol...trust me, smthing what would stay in ur head for a while 😉

Recovery is something really special and challenging, accepting it all just shows strength and determination to stay on the ride.

Keep making the right choice, don't run away from your feelings, deal with them as you done so far. Be proud and very well done on ur continued abstinence.

Keep making the right choice, ur doing brill!!

Day at a time

Sandra x

Day 139 by my reckoning, although frankly my ability to count may even be failing me these days. I've been lazy in posting on my diary and especially on other people's diaries, but I'm definitely getting some time in over the weekend.

Still plenty of freelance work, but the usual lull in motivation. I wish I really knew what I wanted to do next, as having a goal to work for would certainly make me want to work harder. This rollercoaster's been on a downward trajectory these last few days, and once again my team leader has been asking me to consider looking for promotion opportunities, but I'm not sure if I have enough energy to really go after it.

I'm rambling, taking in a few small village stations and rural backwaters on the branch line that is my train of thought. I'll be waking up in around four and a half hours time, with a need to do a shift of work, then head off to see my nephew in Bristol for a gig tomorrow night.

And now, it is definitely time for bed.

All the best in the fight guys.

Ryan

Hi Ryan

Well done on those GF days

It's true we all get lost in life sometimes but we all find our way in the end. Life is like our own A-Z we choose our destination but sometimes with difficulties.

Keep up the good work and stay strong.

Gr4y

Hey Ryan,

Thank you for ur post. My saying staying out of the streets meant, staying away from devil house and trouble....but had really bad and strong wind storms here in East too. Hope u ok and keep fighting the good fight!!

Keep it up and stay safe

Take care

S x

Hi Ryan,

How's things buddy? Thanks for posting on my diary. I too am struggling with motivation right now. It's a strange thing, isn't it?

I hope the gig went well!

146 days gamble free, I'm thinking that's a fairly good set of numbers to start the weekend with. Been feeling the ups and downs of the rollercoaster this week, and not really felt like coming on to write about it. That and spending far too much of my time watching the lovely ladies of the British curling team on television!

Did anyone find the website went down last weekend? I'm sure I tried to log on several times and couldn't get on at all.

Hope everyone's had a good week, and we'll not mention Valentine's!

Ryan

Hi Ryan... and well done on your 146 days gamble free. Yes the site was down for at least 24 hours the other day. There was a note saying it was for technical reasons.

You say that your team leader was pushing you to go for promotion. Well at least they were showing an interest in your career development.. that's got to be a good thing, even if you are not interest.

Anyways thanks for your support. I am a bit of a lost soul at the moment literally just drifting about but still gambling free and aiming to keep it that way.

Like you say, no mention of Valentines day. Regards.. S.A

Hey Ryan,

Thank you for ur support and very well done on ur achievement so far!! Roller coaster ride sounds too familiar but never forget my friend - after every storm there is a sunshine.

Keep it up dear soldier, I wish u peaceful and quiet week ahead.

Take care and b proud, you really doing fab!!! 🙂

S x

Advanced congratulations on the big 150 sir.

Ryan,

I think I remember you from 2010/2011 on your old diary. Fantastic to hear your doing so well. 150 days. well done Sir

From what Ive read this is around your danger time with your previous lapses after 6 months

I get the feeling this time round its gonna be oh so different. Knowledge is power, Experience counts. and you have got a whole load of it my friend.

All the best

Kyle