roulette/fobt hell.

Thanks for your lovely post on my diary 🙂

Reading it back, I have noticed a few gaps (probably where the tears of shame have stuck pages together in the book) but it all looks so easy why did it take me so darn long to get here? I hope this site gives you the strength I was able to take from other people's journeys. You will start to feel better mentally & physically soon & the mood swings will become less frightening! Plus, if she's not already noticed, wifey will start seeing the changes in you too!

Be kind to yourself - ODAAT

Day 11 happy new year everyone.

Think I ve messed up!!! luckily it's not by gambling(-: my day count is a bit out of sync, I thought I was on day 12 today but my Gamcare counter says 14 and I know it was two weeks ago today I last placed a bet. So day 14 today, it is....

Hi everyone day 15 today, getting a bit worried on how much time I am spending on this forum reading posts and diarys but better this then gambling, I suppose it s my addictive personality coming though.

My wife actually was worried I was gambling on my phone because of the amount of time I was spending on it.

Wish I d done this so many years ago!!! I ve known I ve had problem for a good ten years but why oh why has it taken so long for me to get a grip,at least now i can do something about it.

Hi Mark,

My OH calls this forum my bible, and even after 250 days I still need my bible, spending even if it's 2 hours a day on here, it beats losing 100s a day on the gambling sites. You just do your recovery your own way, and what works for you.

15 days under your belt,you are doing just fine.

Suzanne xx

Thanks Nt and Suzanne going to just keep coming on here whenever I feel the need, which at the moment is very often.

My OH try's to understand but just can't *** how hard it is to give up, but I m lucky she's still here.

Mark,

None CGs can understand fully, and we can't expect them to, or really want them to, do we really want them to be in our hell, we would not wish it on our worst enemies, that's why this site is important to us, why, simply because we all understand each other.

Whether we feel positive,negative, happy or depressed we can ramble on here no matter what frame of mind we are in, no one is going to knock us down even further.

Suzanne xx

First day back at work like most, no urges or thoughts today. day 17 done

Hey Mark 17 days is really good - just think how much cash you would have normally wasted in a fortnight - very impressed with your attitude especially after the initial relapse. I'm just starting day three of being gamble free and look forward to being able to reach that 2 week milestone. Stay strong mate - and keep posting.

The problem is Mark ten years ago we didnt have fobts rubbed in our faces like we do today , there was the odd bookie here and there and as most people did played the pools / football and had a Saturday flutter on the horses.

These days in the bookies nobody bets on sports , every man on his dog surrounds the roulette machine and basically gamble there brains out until there last penny , me included , then go out to the car feeling sick , cry and say you will never do it again , least until the next time.

Truth is fobts are not going away anytime soon , gambling is constantly rubbed in our faces which is horrendous , the addiction is as serious as drugs or alcoholism yet its allowed to be advertised on our tv.

Im 8 days in today after blowing my nut over Christmas on anything and everything , even stupid cartoon betting.

I have started doing something , each day I dont gamble I put the money into a plastic wallet upstairs , after 8 days its amazing how much money is in there , my thinking now is the more time I go without gambling the more money in the plastic wallet which at the end of this month will be like a big fobt win anyway.

Good luck in your recovery.

Thanks Andrew, three days is a good start though mate. I think the first few days are hard because your still thinking a lot about your losses.

I must say I think this time I can really do this:-) don't want to tempt fate, but I really do want to get this addiction out my life.

Johnb1380 your spot on mate bookies have got a lot to answer for with the fobt they have created a monster. Only one big winner, and it's never us!! I won 2300 in September and by October 2nd I d lost ever pennie plus 1400 of my oct pay, sickening!!!!!

Day 18 bye bye.

Hi Ya, great to hear you sounding so certain 🙂 I don't think you should be worried about coming here too often, it's good for you & it's good for people you support! Good riddance Day 18 😉

Day 20 a few gambling thoughts today but nothing serious, got to learn to cope with these if I ve got any chance of abstaining.

20 days is massive Mark keep it up , Duncan a regular poster on here says always look forard never back.

I wish you a gamble free weekend

Hi mark and thanks for your post.

I see you have 20 days done so well done. Be really proud.

What a fantastic place this is.

i will keep an eye on your progress mark and I wish you all the best. John