Starting again.

Nice message 'Easy'.

There certainly are a lot of things to think about in there. We all should look at life as a half full glass rather than half empty and we have been conditioned over the years to believe too much of what we are told/expected to do and become. We are all individuals and as such deal with things in our own way but it is such a pity that we do not appreciate what we have at any given time.

All the best

Stumper

Thanks They Need Me..& STUMPER!!

Well, I dont have much to say today except I am happy... Happy that soon I will be free from the grip of gambling and away from all the worries that I may put money in one of those killer machines...

Yes, it really is the rise of the machines..Not the robot sorts that the films depcited..More like machines that you can touch and have some kind of connection with by giving your money to it....

Why don't they do something decent with technology, not design silly games in order to keep poor people destitute and hungry...The law is an a**...If you steal you go to prison..Especially from a gaming machine the penalty is harsher...However, if a machine steals your money it isnt though of as stealing, just harmless stupidity, or I hope you enjoyed it?..

Be happy gamble free.

I tend to think of those evil machines as being like cross-cut paper shredders into which people insert £20 note after £20 to be shredded into little pieces of paper that can never be used again. What a futile thing to do and a complete waste of money.

day 13.

Still going...I went to see my mother today and she made me feel better, she said I enjoy gambling and it got out of control...I suppose she was right..However, I no longer enjoy gambling. Payplan said to me that it will only take me 20 years to pay off my debts...Very reassuring I must say.

Good job I still have a sense of humour.

Easy li£e

20 years maybe but not 20 years of having no money! Debts are slowly going down and as you save more money you'll perhaps nay be able to pay a chunk of this off! Main thing is keep free of gambling! If you look at what you were spending and the rate I bet this reaches the amount you owe quicker than your you were gonna pay yr debts off, work it out and I bet it's more 10 or 5 years! 400 a month-4800 a year 48000 over 10 or 72 over 15 year! Probably don't make you feel better but its a goal to aim for! Good luck mate!

Good to see your humour intact.

I saw loads of people trying to panic buy fuel yesterday and whilst I at first thought how stupid they were, my mind then linked it to the fact that I used to panic gamble all the time. Some people who do about 10 miles a week are making sure that they have full tanks--why? People like me used to gamble everyday--why?

If only we all listened to Clive Dunn? Do'nt panic!!!

I have got to drive about 150 miles today and my car is indicating I have enough fuel for 165 miles so my fingers are crossed.

thnx (pelekanin) Stumper and wills..

I dont even have a car... (I do find time to laugh)

I will, however, start again...It sometimes may be a good thing to learn your lesson by starting again....I do not want to start gambling again thats all!

On the funny side of things...Be happy guys!

Easy li£e

2 weeks 2 weeks 2 weeks..

Well it has been a full two weeks since I gambled that works out at about £600 per day...At this rate I will be down to nothing in no time. On the other hand, I do have the debts and interest stacking up...But I am past caring...I just want to look after myself!! Everything else can spin off... It is the only way for me to get through this..

Do not want to gamble again...

END OF MONTH... Next month I am going to be bigger and better without gambling ruling my life.

easy life

Esy li£e

TO ME AND ANYONE WHO WANTS TO READ.

WAKE UP TO REALITY!! PEOPLE ARE SUFFERING,STARVING AND DYING!!!

STOP MOPING AROUND AND WORRYING ABOUT A STUPID MACHINE OR GAMBLING.

YOU DO NOT HAVE TO PARTICIPATE IN ANYTHING YOU DONT WANT TO!!

IT IS ENTIRELY YOUR CHOICE...JUST STOP!!! OK...RU STUPID???

THIS IS THE UPTEENTH TIME YOU HAVE DONE THIS... GOD KNOWS HOW MANY THOUSANDS YOU HAVE PUT IN... IT IS SHORTENING YOUR LIFE..AND ONLY PAYING FOR MORE NEW WAYS FOR COMPANIES TO EXTRACT YOUR MONEY...

GET OVER IT!!!!!

START AGAIN...A NEW MONTH IS HERE!!! AND A NEW LIFE AHEAD....ONLY IF YOU ACCEPT IT!!!

LAST CHANCE TO STOP FFS JUST THINK THAT YOU ARE NOT THE WORST GAMBLER AND YOU ARE TRYING TO RESOLVE IT!!! DEAL WITH IT BEORE IT DEALS YOU OUT!!!

TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.

HARSH REALITY

Thanks for the reality check! Read it and will read it daily!

16 days..

I am actually a lot happier and its early days...I am stupid to have lost everything.. Silly boy ehh?

Easy life

Day 17.

I am not sure what is worse...The debts or the gambling... One thing is for sure I am not gambling so, that is the main thing... Can I pick myself back up?...Lets find out...Am I going to gamble AGAIN?? NO!!!!

Well done!

Easy life.

Hiya Easy,

Of course you can pick yourself back up...and become stronger than before . Well done on day 17.

Love Del x

Thanks Del,

Hey everyone! Are you guys ok?.

Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you...I believe the best telling off is not when your mother does it, when you are a naughty child... because you kind of rebel against this...

You know the times when people say do something, and you decide not to..Or vice versa...It is human nature to go against things...Especially to save face or show courage.

The thing that got me is when on a roll from gambling, why should we listen to anyone? ( people said to me stop, when I won some money back ((after losing double)) around 2.5k, but I ignored them) As far as we are concerned we are so clever and everyone is idiots 'at the time' However, when we lose and our tail is between our legs we are the 'fools'....

The point I am making is that recently I told myself off!!..I went and lost my money maxed out every card I own...got really angry, wanted to die....Then it 'clicked' and I finally stopped...Unfortunately, within a matter of days I was constantly arguing with my partner about other matters...So, you can guess I ended up in bookies (again) However, this time I won and won and kept on winning until compulsiveness overtook the situation...(mindless gambling, I should have walked away) Now I am at the 'ROCK BOTTOM' stage...Out of this learning curve I have succumbed to, no matter how many people tell you not to do it you will not listen until it finally clicks!! Guys I am beaten this time (yet again) I believe 'ONLY NOW' that I am truly on a winning streak!!#

Somebody has repeatedly said to me to pay my bills...Unfortunately I am not in a position to do so...So, for the first time in 4 years or throughout my life I finally know what it is like to be broken from a gambling addiction....

Self pity, sympathy and loathing is NOT the way forward...On the other hand, if someone walked up to me now and gave me £350 I would be so happy...Why didn't I take the money on the day...I will tell you, greed!!!...The near miss thing is correct!! I put £2,000 in the day I was in central London...I won back £2,350 so I thought I will try a small bet..Because I was on £100 a spin...I reduced the bet...And the next number was a number I had maxed out I just laughed and never took any notice, I just withdrew my cash and banked it...But subconsciously I probably hadn;t finished..I did actually return to that bookies and win another £50 on the machine.....Then I went back home to my town and lost absolutely everything... Now, my mind is playing tricks on me saying..Maybe you should have carried on on that machine and you would have won more...HAHAHA.. Pathetic..Because It was inevitable that someday or other, I am going to lose....(in fact it was that very same day)...

Be smart

Always take a gamble that you will win....

Easy li£e

Day 19

Hi,

still not gambling...dont feel very good today...Hope everyone else is ok?