Starting again.

Thanks Ex mug..

Good question! I dont know?.... I can take a guess though...Maybe he isn't... Makes me laugh though when I googled his name and found out that the guy still has it in him... haha

Easy Life.

Sounds like you are living up to your name at the minute mate.

Glad to see that you are beginning to let go of your losses and moving forward--it does not matter how slowly that movement is!

I do not know about Heffner still has it in him but it sounds like he can still put it in somebody else--the dirty old devil.

All the best mate

Keep smiling

I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

Stumper

Nowthen li£e

Don’t know if you remember me? You gave me fantastic support on my last diary, have been off the site for a few months, just a quick note to say that im glad that you seem to have found a bit more peace in your life were ever in the world you may be (must be exotic if there is no gambling)

We turn into crazy men when we gamble, we need to be straight headed men living in this crazy world to survive.

You’re doing good man.

Thanks First Aid and Stumper!!

Fantastic to hear from you guys!!

Yes, it sounds really great about me and what I am doing...The thing is, "it never seems to be what I am doing it always seems to be about what I did"....The problem with that is....It is so difficult to enjoy the moment... CAN I PUT IT MUCH MORE SIMPLE FASHION???...I'll try...

When you long for something you suffer!!...WHY??? Because....When you get it, you suffer, because of fear that you may lose it!!

Just let me enjoy something Now later and forever.. ....

I may drink tonight....The thought of that makes me happy...Maybbe when it hits me it will be good too..haha lets see eh?

Peace.

Easy Life... By the way im in my office...Yep..south east Asia...I am a primary school teacher and living my dream.

Hey Li£e,

Really understood your last comment about when you long for something you suffer, works the same way with relationships to!

How are you dealing with your urges in Asia? Does been in a different surroundings / culture make it easier not to gamble? Are your life stresses significantly reduce once your not in the UK?

Is it TEFAL teaching?

You are sounding really positive and long may you continue living your dream.

Wow! Sounds like you are in a great place right now!

And long may this continue. Just keep concentrating on your present and your future.

NT

Thanks FA &Nt...

Yes FA everything is easier here...However, I am skint hence the addiction...At least money goes in many pockets these days..Instead of one big pocket.."Bookies"...I like it here they dont have betting.it is banned...it is like heaven...The only thing is my mind still beats myself up from time time...Like NT said, concentrate on now and future...that helps a great deal...Only a madman would lose 8k in one day...So, I used to be mad..I supposer that I am, "on a temporary basis... cured".

Easy life

'I used to be mad' great way of looking at things mate.

Personally I think I still am mad.

Easy to say but looking back now having moved so far forwards both with gambling and geographically speaking, is pretty pointless. Yes the pain is still there but you have put yourself through the 'surgery' by stopping and now you are living in a sensible country where gambling is banned because of the evil that it is, you have a great chance to stay stopped.

Keep 'Living the dream' as you say as there is absolutely no need to relive the nightmare that preceeded.

All the best mate

Stumper

Wow! Sounds like the perfect place!

No bookies!

One day...

One day...

NT

Thanks guys...

I feel a lot better with you guys still supporting me....The gambling has gone away..But I am still battling the addiction...It is crazy!!...But if you have no option to gamble...You really do still have to keep your gaurd up...I know, that is the frightening part about it....

Take care

Easy life

How are things in 'Paradise' at the minute--the weather has been tropical here for the last week or so.

Hahaha..

Stumper! The weather is HOT! lol...I heard it was hot in UK? Well that is random?....It was my birthday on Monday...Therefore, I got drunk!! It really is paradise except I have to work...

Now and again I still look back....The feeling is awful...I want to let it go....3 months nearly gone now...But when I worry about money I think of the money I lost...The only good thing about it is..... I had the money to do it? Many compulsive gamblers would love to lose that money...The probelm with that is I am trying to be a Non gambler....So, it kind of deafeats the object?...Because I will look down on that kind of stupidity....It is a situation that is balanced between calm/chaos... THe moral is I get to choose my destiny!!

Good luck on YOUR pathway!!

Easy li£e

Hi Easy life, thank u 4 ur post on my diary 🙂

Yeh, I remember u. It sounds like u r a lot more happy and positive now. U deserve it 🙂

Hope u enjoyed ur bday on monday (happy bday)... and ur drink or two lol

Stay positive and strong 🙂

Hi Easy life, thank u 4 ur support on my diary 🙂

I will let Graham know u said hi, he has his own diary on here 2 if u wanted 2 say hi 2 him as well.

Take care 🙂

Hi Easylife, I just wanted to say thanks for ur continued support.

U r doing brilliant, and I will be following ur progress 🙂

I truly hope u r ok 🙂

Stay strong 🙂