Starting again.

Hi Easy life,

Thank u 4 ur post on my diary 🙂

It was gr8 2 hear from you, I am sorry 2 read u r fed up. I hope u r ok and staying strong!

Have a gr8 nite 🙂

Thanks 4 the post Charlotte.

Well, I have finished my first term in my new job!! I can't say it was easy! There is this guy who constantly plays poker online...The irony is it is banned here? He knows how to put funds in and withdraw...I feel miffed because(I actually introduced it to him) before this he was trading...Now that he has learnt poker he is constantly sitting at tables through lunch winning/losing his meager wages..Sometimes he is on multiple low stake tables at a time... Anyway, I have no intention to gamble although he has been trying to lure me into this type of behaviour..He sees gambling as fun...Even though he loses his money?...So, maybe it is fun for him? Recently, I actually played a hand for him whilst he went way... (believe me it was his way to make it acceptable to everyone else including himself, I suppose?)

From what I gather, If you recognise gambling as a serious problem then, when you start again you may find yourself really mentally ill... I just want to make this admission clear,I do not have a need to gamble I never found it great, but I do feel foolish, however, I have not put my hand in my pocket and played a game so, I do believe that I have not gambled...Games are everywhere, and life is a gamble, is it not? .. I am about to embark on a career move to a different part of Asia? Is this not classed as a gamble?....When you decide what to eat and whether it will be a good choice...e.t.c e.t.c... The sad reality is that poor people get into all sorts of financial difficulties because of governments legislation...The system preys on the vulnerable..Selling you a story of riches everyday...My illness is not gambling anymore...IT IS DEBT!!

Easy li£e

Depression..Is the thing that makes us gamble...Then you become depressed....Sad...I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP..

easy.

Hi. just thought I'd say....it is coming up to 10 months no gamble..wow..that last relapse nearly killed me.

Easy life.

P.S never again.

Hi Easy

Good to see you back on the straight and narrow. You know how much better life can be without gambling.Stay strong Jeff.

Thanks Jeff!.... It began to get lonely on my diary..That has cheered me up!!

Easy life.

Hi Easy Life,

Well done on 10 mths gamble free, u r doing brilliant 🙂

I know how tough this journey has been 4 u at times... But u have stayed strong!

I am soooo proud of u 🙂

Have a gr8 nite 🙂

Hi Easy Life,

Thank u 4 ur lovely post on my diary. It means alot 🙂

U r doing brilliant, ur determination shines thru.... U have learnt so much on this journey and now u r a lot stronger 🙂

U can do this!

Yeh, it would be good 2 catch up with u in chat soon and hear how gr8 ur doing 🙂

Have a gr8 nite 🙂

Hi diary, well its a new year and I still havn't bet... I bought some1 a lottery ticket today..However, I don't class it as gambling..i don't want any returns...Yes, I'm recovering...I in still living in SE Asia and it's hot...

Easy li£e

Glad your well and still a bet free man. Keep it up. I'm David I live in England and its f*****g cold LOL!

Hi,

well I'm a few years older....And been on the recovery path for nearly 1 yr.. My last slip left me in a bad way after 18mnths gamble free..just like to say..Most of the mess is actually the governments fault!!... If they want to turn blind eye to horse meat...well then that says it all!!

Still here

Easy li£e...

Just like to say I been on this diary quite a few years now...What I see is some people doing well and then the all too familiar slip...We seem to be going round in circles...when you think about it most things are round anyway, however, I am going around too it's just maybe my journey is longer?...1 year gamble free...

Belive me my last slip made me really ill..be warned...Gambling is a very serious matter!!!

Easy li£e...Made it again... yeahhhh!!!

Hey easylife,

Thanks for the post, been there myself, won $4000.00 and gave it all back, I was chasing also when I won this amount, crazy I know, why didn't I walk away? Well after 48 days gamble free, 1 on 1 therapy sessions where I broke down, group therapy classes weekly, which include education on a compulsive gambler. I now know, simply I'am a compulsive gambler, a addict of different drug class,( gambling) We will beat this! Great job on one year gamble free!

Chicagoguy

Hi Easy

Well done on the year gamblefree.

Of course i know you have done longer,but i know you are also going to surpass your old mark.You have the determination m8.so for now well done but im sure you will go further.All the best Jeff.

Tnx Jeff & Chicago..

Throughout the last year I had a tough time..With myself..Life has been a struggle..However, I have learnt something from the other side of the world...It is to LOVE myself..Boy have I been insecure! All sorts, I hit the drinking until I accidentely (the hostess filled the glass while I was unsuspecting) drunk a full bottle of strong vodka within 15 minutes? Good job, because I was being silly with drink up until that point...I got alcohol poisining and now I'm much more sensible, only have a beer with my dinner...You see compulsiveness will come into your life as a disguise masking itself in any form, or way, it can...Just be careful...I dread the poor guy who isn't so lucky as me....On the other hand, gambling hides a whole lot of things about yourself...When you lose your money next time, notice how you feel relieved as well as stressed because you have no money left...Yes, gambling is a combination of emotions that you have to break the cycle...I sadly, went back to it...

The UK is really messed up for some, because it is a way for the government to supress the weak...I believe it is one of the most generous countries in the world, it is also one of the wickedest because, it traps the needy and greedy.....What can I say?...You control your own destiny...

Take care guys..

Easy li£e