Staying strong, staying focused

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I have tried to give up gambling MANY times!! I always manage 10-20 days, the most ever being 35 days and then fall back into bad habits! Today is day 19 for me, and I just NEED to keep going! I think for my sanity it would just suit me never to gamble again but unfortuantely i know I have my triggers and it would be so easy to get complacent that I am doing well and before I know it I would be back at square one. NOW I am back at day 19, I never ever want to go backwards again! EVER!

I have debts due to gambling and I am really really just focusing on getting them paid off this year. I want to make this year the year I stop gambling and sort out my finances so that for the rest of my 20's (I turn 25 this year) i can have the fun and enjoyment that I should be having.

I know that the only way I am going to do this is if I STOP gambling and stay STOPPED. I think I may have finally got my head around the fact that there is no quick fix to my financial problems, I got myself into them and I need to get myself out of them. I am having counselling for a number of personal issues, that I really truely believe I used gambling to mask and run away from and hopefully over time my anixety issues will get better.

I just know that for every day I don't gamble I am doing better and better. Up, down, happy, sad, moody, whatever my mood I can't use gambling as a justifcation anymore, it isn't, it never was, it just hid all the things that I never wanted to face.

My life began 19 days ago, I just need to remember that!

 
Posted : 9th February 2015 7:17 pm
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Keep going and do not go backwards! Keep posting on here. Get any ideas out of your mind that you can win any money back. It is simply not going to happen! Press forward and commit to never gambling again. Don't have any wavering thoughts. Good luck.

 
Posted : 9th February 2015 11:07 pm
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Welcome back to recovery 🙂 Good to see you haven't given up on giving up! This can be a roller coaster but a bad day in recovery is still a good day in my book as long as I choose 'No'!

I know you are working on your triggers & hopefully the counselling will continue to make you stronger but I'm just wondering if you have blockers in to break the Time-Money-Location triangle should you have a wobble as taking just one away keeps you safe from the gambling urges!

A massive congratulations on your 19 days 🙂 It matters not where you got to before, this is a new journey with new steely determination & you can do it - ODAAT

 
Posted : 10th February 2015 12:33 am
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25 days today! 🙂

Best I have managed in a VERY long time!

Struggling, but getting through.

I am proud of myself! 🙂

 
Posted : 15th February 2015 12:47 pm
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I have lots of plans in place and a very busy time for the next 10 days! I just need to make sure after that I am busy! I have turned my focus alot on paying off my debts and keeping that my main focus! I want to learn to drive, buy a car, have a life, lose weight and I remind myself every day I am not going to get that if I slip back into old habits. Thank you for your reply! I am so proud of 25! the last time I got to 25 I got to 35! I haven't done better than that in over a year! Which both saddens me but makes me sooo happy that I am where I am today!

Sorry that sounds a bit of a ramble!!! I have told my best friend about the fact I am on 25 days, i actually had to own up to the fact it wasnt as long as she thought but now I have told her shes keeping me motivated and congraulating me on how well I am doing. It's nice to be able to open up about it 🙂

 
Posted : 15th February 2015 12:57 pm
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Thats very true, I've had enough of making the wrong choices! I'm on the right road now! 🙂

 
Posted : 15th February 2015 4:34 pm
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Been struggling with thoughts about gambling last night and this morning, like a little voice inside my head is trying to talk me into thinking gambling would be a good thing. So far so good though, I have managed to tell it to P off!!!!! 🙂

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 11:52 am
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Hi make,

Stay focused and argue back to the nasty little voice, think of all the horrible things gambling has done to you, when it sends you a positive to gamble. Send a big fat positive back on why you are not going to gamble.

Try and do something totally unusual if you can anything out of the norm.

Keep strong and positive it will pass. And you will feel even stronger then.

Suzanne xx

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 11:58 am
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Thank you!! I know I am having a bad time, I know I can get through it and if anything i'm learning that i am stronger than the little voice in my head! To other people saying ive got a little voice in my head telling me to do stuff would sound crazy, im just glad i have somewhere to turn too here. 26 days today, so proud of myself, nearly a whole month without gambling. so so proud! WONT give in! 🙂

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 12:08 pm
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Yeh I know they would think we were nuts, but we know lol, I have many an argument with my self and am sooo chuffed with myself when I win,

26 days is far too much to give in to nasty thoughts and remember they are only thoughts,

Well done on your days, and staying strong and proud, and you deserve to feel proud, you are doing something very positive and life changing, recovery is an amazing journey.

Will keep an eye on you today, please post if you feel vulnerable.

Take care stay strong and stay safe.

Suzanne xx

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 12:15 pm
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Awwww thank you very much! 🙂

26 days is the best ive achieved in OVER a year! I can't, won't and better still don't want to give in. I just wish I could drown out this voice! Little tinker, might give him/her.. haven't decided who a little name and tell him to P off! Ahhh. I'm going out soon to do shopping for my grandma so i'll be distracted!!! 🙂

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 12:25 pm
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Good idea, thst will Pxxs it off and good bloody riddance.

Suzanne xx

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 12:27 pm
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I've just told Mr Gamble he can kiss my behind 😉 You are doing great, keep telling the urges to get lost & although I don't think they ever truely give up, they do become less persistent the stronger you get! Your Bucket List sounds perfectly achievable if you ask me 🙂

Keep strong - ODAAT

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 1:43 pm
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Well im still going strong!!! =)

Hope you're having a good day!

 
Posted : 16th February 2015 6:20 pm
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Good to see you have stayed strong, you will feel soooo much stronger tomorrow

Suzanne xx

 
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