Steady as she goes!

Been up working for a while and going for a walk in the rain shortly!!! (singing in the rain)

No thoughts of gambling, don't have the interest which is great! Long may it continue (ODAAT)

Trying to forget the disaster which was last night! Still no gambling as a result of the "spanner" thrown in.

Thanks CC & Gazza for comments.

Weldy

Hi buddy

Thanks for the support, Im gona sort myself out tomorrow and have kinda explained a couple of bits of my behaviour on Ades diary but hopefully wont be turning into an alcoholic any time soon.

That sounds V frustrating about the gig - I know how much you enjoy them and what a professional person you are so understand your pretty wound up. Still like its a good point to get through the bad days and come out the other side still having not gambled.

Hope you enjoy your walk/dance in the rain.

You'll be doin a few Gene Kelly numbers at your next gig!

Eyes X

Arghhh!! Monday mornings! Don't you just hate them! There's just something about Monday mornings that just doesn't sit right, something always goes wrong.

Anyway, I shall put my cool head on and get to work. Handy not having to battle through traffic to get to work, just a few steps across my hallway is plenty far enough on a Monday morning!

First thing to do is plan the rest of my week out, as I have yet to plan the whole week yet and I need to be kept busy.

Have a good gamble free day!

Weldy

Hi there Weld.

I just managed to catch up with all your entries- been so self-absorbed recently I'd forgotten to check how others were doing. I wish I'd read through all your posts last week because your Insomnia ridden post about the difference in people's diaries would have been a great help to me. I may have been less angry and put things into perspective.

I'm sorry to hear that your festival fell through- I remember from my gig playing days the frustration of things falling through because of oversights by promoters and organisers. Looks like you successfully took the disappointment on the chin and are staying strong. Hope you keep up the music making- since deciding to stop gambling I've suddenly found time to go to gigs again and have really enjoyed myself. Music is an amazing healer and strength giver 🙂

Hope you manage to get through this dull Monday. I'm meant to be revising for exams and doing paperwork but have decided to give myself a duvet day, got the end of the weekend and bad weather blues. Will knuckle down when I'm feeling more inspired.

I'm going to make sure I keep up to date with your diary from now on as your level-headed and no-nonense posts make so much sense to me.

All the best x

Well almost another day almost done, Mondays can just be so annoying. Woke up this morning to a broken mobile, no internet, both printers not working and a job cancellation. Then it didn't get much better when the organisers of the "failed gig" sent us a snotty email complaining about the behaviour of some of "our fans" when the gig was abruptly cancelled. Not a mention of an apology for wasting all of our time and effort just a "deflection" away from their own failings!! They should be in politics!!! Oh happy days!!!

Some of the above have been resolved but not all yet. On another day, this would have been enough of a reason to disappear into a world of gambling for the entire day with ready made excuses!

However, thankfully this is not the new me, the new me said "Oh well, I'll just get on with whatever I can" and print later.

I don't know if you are all feeling this new sense of calmness, but I really seem to have found mine since I stopped gambling. It's just a lot easier to deal with things, and to just get on with what i need to get on with.

Well, hope you all had a good gamble free day, going shopping on ******* now for a running machine!!!

Weldy

Hi Weldy,

Just checking in.. running machine.. great idea.. I love to run.

And as you say.. so many ready made excuses to go off and gamble but you didn't.. now thats a great day!

All the best.. S.A 🙂

Cheers SA,

Glad you are doing well too!

Weldy

Gosh Weldy sounds like you had a tough one today but dont worry the day is nearly over.

I know exactly what you mean about the calmness, its something I'm learning to relish.

Hope tomorrow brings you a better day and nothing else breaks on you 😀 xxx

Hi Weldy and feel that breeze of calmness wash over you aaahhh. Sending you a full on stream of it. Take care Min x.

Hiya Weldy

Just wanted to say how much I appreciated your msg. You are always so thorough and careful in what you say to people on here and it means a lot to me and Im sure others.

Im sorry to hear you lost your dad at my age - I still think of 27 as being so young and that I am 'entitled' to have him for longer but I realise other people have gone through the same or worse and I need to be strong for him and my family.

Hope your day picked up since this morning.

Eyes X

Thanks for all your posts.

Tuesday was a much calmer day for me, not as manic as Monday!

It was day 30 for me, so I am happy to have made a month gamble free, and feel quite satisfied with the way things are going right now.

One thing this evening, after my rehearsal with my new band.

The guitarist announced that he was launching a brand new poker website tomorrow, which I was quite astounded about. It seems that "it's just out there" in every walk of life.

I was quite interested by the reaction from the other band members, some of which knew what he had been working on (I didn't as I am the new member of the band).

I found myself standing there, quite uncomfortable in case the conversation was directed towards me.

One of the guys said "are we all going to get a free account to test the site! to which the other two guys confessed to never having played poker (online or otherwise) and one of them went further by saying "I am not a gambler!"

Two things that I took from that conversation were a) The use of the word gambler as something "dirty" or just "wrong".

b) How easy it is that situations arise where people can be hooked into something when endorsed by someone else.

I kept my silence, as I have no need to divulge my "dirty little secret" to them, but it was a strange moment to have happened.

My other band is a different matter. I've known most of these guys for 4-5 years, so they are well aware of my past habits. They are also aware that I have given up gambling, though I doubt any of them would understand the extent of my gambling in the past, and have been supportive about it.

Well, must get some sleep now, as I have a meeting in London tomorrow morning.

Weldy

Congratulations on a whole month- thats awesome progress.

That must have felt very wierd having people around you talking about gambling- I know I clam up when it gets mentioned. The other day at work the girls were discussing having bingo wings and even tho they weren't talking about actual Bingo I got a little knot in my stomach and cut myself out of the conversation. But at least I didnt make me wanna gamble like the mention of it used to in the past. Now all the constant adverts on the telly just get on my nerves- not make me wanna try out the sites. How did you feel when they were talking? Any urges?

Oh and happy 'hump' day- only a few more days til the weekend 🙂 x

Thanks Milky,

No urges thank you, just took it with a pinch of salt.

By the way, what are "Bingo Wings"? Is that where the girls sit and play bingo while drinking Red Bull? lol

Weldy

Bingo Wings are the opposite of biceps.

Well done on the month.

Lol - thanks City - you learn something every day!