The bear the last diary no more.

Thanks for your post feb 🙂 day 45 tough stressful weekend back to work today feeling bit anxious etc but will not be gambling it isn't the answer to anything have a good day everyone x

The bear x

Hello Bear

Sorry about your anxiety, not nice ! hope it eases shortly. Bewen slow start today but kept busy with friends and text messages ! what would i do without them. Have a good week my friend.

Dark Place

Day 46 thanks dark place cbt yesterday more treasures unearthed lot of things on my mind but working Through It without gambling have good day all x

The bear x

Bear,

Awesome work pal. Just wanted to stop in and say well done on 46 days. Think I've seen you reach the 50-mark before? Anyway, keep it up and power through.

As I said, I did some CBT earlier this year... Although I was already at a point whereby I was happily abstaining, I did find the stuff useful in putting sensible, practical steps in place to avoid a serious relapse.

Good luck

D123

Day 47 thanks d123 yep I was at 50 days before but I'm a different animal this time thanks for your post 🙂 another gamble free day ahead has he same 10 pounds in my pocket for 2 days weird how we don't need money as much as we think when we blow it all gambling our minds are crazy dont miss that 🙂 anyway today is haircut shopping gym and watch football tonight yep mad chelsea fan for my troubles have good day everyone 🙂

The bear x

Good Morning Bear

Good on you mate, your doing brilliant ! your right about the money thing, when your gambling you need your wallet full and when your not, you only need enough for the simple things in life.

lol i read a post by hacker where he was having a re-occuring nightmare about being chased by a bear so best you dont post on his site 🙂

Good luck with Chelsea 2nite, Jose will want a reaction but Schalke could prove stubborn opponents, i predict 2-1 chelsea & no i am not betting on it. Dark Place /

congrats on 50 days bear,- i can agree with the money thing,you dont need a lot to get by day by day.

50 days is a great effort,well done,keep marching forward.

Day 48 7 weeks has flown by starting to really find myself again it's a long journey but hopefully getting there off to Yarmouth for boys weekend always a test a lot of gambling by my friends but not me can't no more it's not in my nature 🙂 x

Have a good day and no gambling 🙂

The bear x

Hello Bear

Have a great weekend with the lads, guess there will be spme tests for you.

One word of warning, gambling addiction will always be in your nature ! its the nature of the disease ! we can stop for 5 years and be straight back to square one if we are not careful, i have resigned myself to the fact i will have to be on my guard for the rest of my life, that is a fact. Of course the longer we go the better we are equipped to continue abstaining. All the best my firend. Dark Place /

Hi dark place thanks for your post but it was sarcasm about my nature I always know its there I don't kid myself 🙂 well done to you buddy on your resurrection from the hell that's gambling

The bear x

Hey Bear

Great to see you progress to 50 days. I'll be there again soon I know it. I think about my current losses about every other hour at the moment but that's only because it's still so raw. I will just have to get back to where I was mentally(a good place) and walk that path of abstention again. I guess I'm learning about my addiction all the time. This was a painful and expensive lesson but hopefully I am so much stronger for it. Thanks for all your support.

G

Day 50 just home from weekend nowhere bear to gambling it won't be happening no more x

The bear x

Gd morning bear,well done on the wkd. Its nice to wake up on sunday morn without a gambling hangover,or any hangover come to that-(think my lads wkds are sadly behind me).

I had a strong urge y'day,I couldn't see w.ham losing,it come from now where,for a while I sat and worked out the winnings- but common sense prevailed.

I don't wana go bk to day 1,I went through the emotions of winning and losing,both would of took me backwards- both would of been lose,lose.

Have a gd sunday mate,I'm off to the zoo.

Day 51, in 51 days I've made tiny steps to a better life less stress more money although none of that is true I've been very stressed the level of money doesn't matter but have realised quality time is everything just sitting talking to my girlfriend without trying to shoot to bookies is very important and when my little boy arrives in march he is going to get all of me not a shadow of a man that chucks money at something that makes him feel good for 1 minute then cr** for rest of day, learning each day I'm free from this disease,

Have good day everyone

The bear x

Awesome work Bear; really brilliant stuff.

Last time you hit this point, I seem to remember advising you to stick your head down and power on to 100days. So this time round I'll say something different - if today is Day 51, knuckle down and focus on Day52.

As you say - small steps and manageable targets means the long-term takes care of itself. What better incentive than your little one coming in March?

Well done pal

D123