Day 704 and 705
GA last night was fine.
I'm ok.
Day 706 -714 (102 weeks)
Missed GA last Thurs.
Doing ok.
Busy keeping the family happy!!!!
Day 715,716,717,718 and 719
No GA again for me last night. We're meeting up with some friends for a family weekend and there was just too much to do. Hopefully get back next Thurs. Still reading diaries on a daily basis.
Stay strong
Day 720-726
Went to GA last night which was fine. Again, some members chose to make veiled comments about how some are not part of the group etc.
Ruffled my feathers so it did!
Will get it off my chest next week in a non-confrontational way....hopefully!!!
It's like that on here sometimes. Although i don't post as much, i read diaries on a daily basis. Some posters are way off the mark. Who do they think they are? Sometimes I feel they want people to fall off the wagon.
Maybe it's to make them feel good about themselves.
Have a nice weekend if you read this.
Day 727-731 -2 Years
Well 2 years ago today, I started my recovery.
This year has passed by quickly, and in many ways, has been easier than year 1. However, there are still many things to deal with brought about through my bouts of binge gambling. Thanks to Ade, Dunc and NT,you reached out to me when i needed help. Only Dunc still posts, hopefully the other 2 are well.
I still attend GA but not as often as i did. I have a young family who i put first at all times. My GA group are aware of my situation and most understand. As a result, i think I'll get a "recognition" for year 2 rather than a pin, as i don't think i've made the statutory 40 meetings. That's fine and i understand completely. I'll continue to attend when I can.
I still value this forum and read certain diaries on a daily basis. I don't post much, as i don't have a lot to say. I offer help when i can, but I tread carefully, as some advice can be taken out of context. Many on here are very good at it, some aren't.
Thanks for reading. Onwards to year 3!!!
Best wishes,
Gazza
Gazza
Fella no fan fare, no flashing lights just you marching forward , a huge well done for your continued efforts, I hope GA recognize your efforts, but the most important is the bigger picture for you my friend, that is that the misery of gambling which brought havoc to your life continues to be arrested.
Funny I read on here a few times lately that the current diaries bring little or nothing to the party,compared to the old diaries.Well Gazza you buck that trend for all the right reasons fella.
You came here to achieve to many what seems unachievable and do it with such humility.
In your words on to year three.
Abstain and maintain.
A diary that says far more than the words written
Today I salute you
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Well done Gazza, 2 years is a huge achievement. In a month I hope to join you. Have a good 3rd year and I look forward to you reaching the 1000 day club!
Steve
Great stuff Gazza.. well done mate!
I don't know whether I should say this but I guess am going to. Before I came to this forum I did my longest ever stint gamble free it was just over 1000 days. I then promptly had a big binge and it felt as if that gamble free time had never happened. I gambled in exactly the same way that I had all that time before... from that moment on it became a struggle not to gamble once more. Just a cautionary tale that's all and not to take away from what you have achieved thus far. Regards... S.A
Day 732.
Many thanks for your kind words.
i lost a lot of self esteem and self-worth 2 years ago. I'm getting it back slowly.
I owe it to my partner and children to stay away from a bet. What kind of a person would I be to put her through that again?
I was told by a member of my GA group to take heart from the fact that both my kids have never seen me gamble. Maybe they'll find out someday, I don't know, but this keeps me strong and I reflect on this daily.
Whilst taking nothing for granted, I don't think about gambling and nor have i in the last 2 years.
Thanks for reading,
Gazza
Hey gazza,
What a inspiring post to read!! 2 years is great achievement, keep it up. Peace and happiness will always stay in ur life, keep making the right choice dear fighter, onwards all the way. Really chuffed for you :-))
Take care
Sandra x
Congratulations for being gamble free for so long! I've knocked it on the head for 6 months before but recently relapsed and dont want to go back there! Its people like you that show it can be done! I've 2 kids as well, 3 yr and 1 yr old, so thankfully theyve seen nothing BUT have defineatley felt the financial effects of my selfish acts ! Something which i CAN / WILL change!
Cheers Gazza for your post. Always keep strong and as I posted earlier, it's great to hear you're doing so well.
Steve
Congratulations....Only on day 2 and the weekend ahead of me, but would love to be in your position in two years time!!!
Well done!!!
Day 733-740
Thanks everyone for your kind words of support.
Made the last 2 GA meets and chaired last night's meeting. All seemed to go well.
Day 741-754
Picked up my 2nd year pin last night. Not a night for the weak!!!!
Hope everyone is well.
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