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Hello AJ

You say nothing new in AJ land, I see a new AJ! I am so pleased that you have done so well, I hope you have continued success in all that you do. Good luck with the job interviews.

Best wishes

Rosemary

hi AJ long time since l heard from you yes we are doing well l fee like a different person could do with a face lift etc but not to worry it feels like l do not know the person i was does that make sense hope you are going from strenth to strenth keep it touch loza xx

Hi AJ

Kim xx

hi AJ merry christmas glad you posted to me was wondering where you had got to nearly 5 months for me and it feels good to be able to walk past bingo and not have any buzz to go in have a good christmas and keep posting me loza xx

Hi Aj

Kim xx

happy new year A J thanks for everything and it means a lot to know you are there good luck in the new year and keep posting loza xx

Been a while since ive come to this site.....hope everyone had a good xmas and new yrs..

not feeling great at the moment, not gambling, but things are really getting on top of me now and feeling really down and sad 🙁

moneys not the problem, im slowly paying back what i owe. its being alone, and not having anyone to talk to is really getting to me. the fact that im sitting in on a friday night with no one to go out with is depressing enough but thinking about how im going to turn this around is even worse. i dunno things have got better and maybe its just something i have to get through but its really upsetting to thinkk about the time ive wasted and time im still wasting but i dont know how to change it.

***sighhhhhhhhhh***

i know things will get better, i see all my old school friends living great lives enjoying their lives....why cant i do the same?

i duno im sure its just a phase to get over. well hope all is well with everyone else

AJ

Hello AJ

The last time I read one of your posts it was full of positive thoughts. However, I suppose it might just hit you sometimes, what has happened to you over the last few months and it is bound to get you down. You have to try to think forward not back though. You have stopped gambling and you are paying off your debts, I think that is brilliant. I know my son is still gambling, still wanted by the police for fraud and seems to be going nowhere with his life. So I do admire you for what you are doing.

Please take heart, things sometimes look bad, but we all have days like that.

Thinking about you

Rosemary

Hi A.J,

Just been reading most of your diary (there is a lot of it)

It has been a wonderful inspiration for me reading your story . Thank you.

Last bit about feeling a bit alone…seems that non gamblers do feel the same at times.

Seems that you have a lot of admires on this site who are happy to help and talk to you…..

Found it interesting about the anti depressants .I went off mine as I did not feel the need for them any more . Not sure if I made the right choice . Sometimes get into black mode.

Spoke to a friend of mine who is a psychiatrist about giving them up in the last few months.

He seemed to be fine for me to give them up.

Sorry to hear it will take two years to pay back your debts.

Visiting G.A last year I heard of someone stopping interest repayments with a company as gambling was considered an Illness .I'm sure if that was the case financial counselor would have said so????

All for now.great to read your post,

Wim

hi aj sorry to hear youre down but remember it could have been so different if you hadnt stopped.youre young i know i keep saying it but its true in 2 years time youda repaid youre debts and you cam close that chapter off in your life.what will u be then still in early 20S?well if you wanna change places you can with me anytime!

youll be back enjoying yourself soon enough and thatll be good for you ,believe me i envy you you got your whole life still ahead of you and itll get better soon enough believe me.

now wheres me zimmer frame ?

kevin

what this A J you down in the dumps not you who has given so much support to me and others l hope thing are a little better for you now l hate to think of you lonley and lost l think we all are in many ways me because l can't talk to my husband as he is not aware of what is going on around him keep your chin up and post me soon all my best love loza xx

think a diary update is due....i made my final credit card payment today!!!! wooooohoooo! finally free of the d**n thing! still a loan to pay off 🙁 but feelin good 🙂

woooooooohooooooooo!!!!

what a wonderful post 🙂

congrats AJ...it CAN be done!!

xoxoxo

AJ

Just posted a reply on your other posting.

I can just feel your sigh of relief.

Well done pet.

Best wishes

Rosemary

today marks another milestone for me....one which a year ago i didnt think id make. I turn another year older today, last year at this time i was contemplating suicide. today hasnt been a day of great celebration as a birthday should be....strangely been a day of reflection. thinking about where i was a year ago and where i could have been if i didnt get hooked to poker.....its not an entertaining thought, but im so glad i found this site, i might not be celebrating today if it werent for my friends on here

i hope everyone is doing well

AJ