Time to stop

If it is possible for people out there in the world to directly mirror each others lives then I believe that you and I are those people - crazy how similar our stories are!xx

I went through periods of not posting on here for a while....the amount of messages I had typed out and deleted, on mine and other peoples diaries, was unbelievable. That what I do though....I hide in the corner and don't say anything.

Well for the last two days I have posted more than ever and it really does make me feel good. I need to remind myself of that and keep posting as often as possible.

Hope everyone has had a good day.

Top bannana Damo , keep on posting , you know it makes sense .

Stay safe and you have a good day to my friend !

Hi,

Standard comment: All credit to you for being gf but what about your OH?

CW

Hi CW, as always you are like my conscience and I know you are 100% right. It's weird, I am so honest with her with everything else in the world and I know she would support me but I can't seem to get the words out. I imagine how it would go all the time and it's actually stressing me out more than anything at the moment.

I know it's all excuses....it's something I speak to my mum and my counsellor about all the time. I honestly believe telling her would be the biggest step I take towards recovery.

Until then I carry on....

Sorry, Damo, it's no good casting me as Jiminy Cricket, your conscience is not my responsibility. But if you do end up casting yourself as Pinoccio, better to be real than a wooden puppet. Reality involves real relationships with other people and taking responsibility for those relationships.

It's up to you what you do and how you manage your recovery. I hope that you do make the best choices.

CW

Thanks CW, appreciate your comments as always.

What a busy weekend....had my neice to stay for the weekend so had kids all swimming at a local fair and at the park over the weekend. Even managed to squeeze a bit of shopping in for my holiday clothes.....hadn't treated myself to anything decent for quite a while. Probably overspent but felt good to get something for my money.

Countdown to the holiday is on and happens to be bang on 6 months to the day from my last bet that we go away....great way to celebrate.

Hope everyone has had a good weekend x

Hey Damo...watched something on Net Flix last night, give it a go if you have a spare couple of hours....Tony Robbins I am not your guru....might give you the boost that it gave me 🙂 xxx

Hello diary....Well today for the first time in a while I decided to take a gamble and lost badly.

Organised a BBQ for myself and work colleagues and tried to drive the car too far along the beach on the pebbles and got stuck.....£144 down and 2 1/2 hours later a 4x4 came and pulled me out.

Give my work colleagues a laugh for a while as they all videod me getting towed out.....at least I can laugh these days when I'm £144 down.

Doh

Oh and thanks shorty....I'll definitely give that a watch. Work away from home and family so plenty time at nights.....thanks for the heads up 🙂 x

Bloody Hell Damo just came on to say thanks and read the first line and thought sh it what do i write here lol. amazing how after abstaining for a decent period we learn to deal with these things been a pleasure following your progress nearly at the half a year which is a cracking effort

Sorry Oldham haha 🙂

Today marks one year till my wedding date....also in 4 days I go on holiday and that will be exactly 6 months to the day since my last bet.

Feeling better than I have for quite some time.....so much to look forward to.

6 months today.....who would have thought it.

Now got to get through 6 hours of work, a 3 hour drive home and then Majorca here we come.

It damo it seems you are doing very well. Hopefully i can look to emulate your success! Well done

Well done on 6 months. Enjoy your holiday you deserve it. Keep strong.