Time to stop

Hi Damo

200 days hard to believe keep those days racking up.

Thanks for your post Damo....I'll be ok in a few days, I think it was the shock of coming back to work after a week off and thinking I had been really good with my money and it being a lot worse than I expected! It's things like this that would have been my trigger in the past but I need to put it behind me and realise that it's payday on Friday and I have 2 amazings holidays to look forward to. (Luckily my dad is being very generous and sending me some spending money haha so that's one less thing to worry about!). Just feel like I'm always saying 'let's just get to such and such at date and then we'll be ok' over and over and over again!

Well done on your continued efforts to keep on the wagon, it's not easy when you have so much debt dragging you down but it can (and will) be paid off one day 🙂 xxx

Afternoon Damo , thank you for the kind comments mate , they were much appreciated , glad your still about , staying safe and keeping an eye on things .

All the best for now and best wishes Alan

Hi Damo thanks for the drop by on my diary and all the best with your recovery!

Hi Damo,

Thanks for the message on my diary. Much appreciated. Great to read that you are doing brilliantly.

Best wishes

Dave

Cheers for the drop by bud.

Yes a sad day but yet a day to celebrate a couple of great people who even with their recent struggles still had a rewarding life.

it's been good to see you floating around but we are due an update from you. I will wait with anticipation.

KTF

Well although I have been on here every day since I registered I haven't been posting much on my own diary. I am not as good with words as many people on here and find it very difficult to write down how I feel......but seeing as today is 8 months since my last bet I thought id write a little about how I have been doing.

Happily I am still bet free and although I still have access to money to gamble I think I have finally given in to the fact it has beaten me.
On January the 26th I was a completely broken man. 20 years of gambling had taken its toll. Spent many years lying, stealing from work, ex girlfriends, family and friends and even got as bad as a suicide attempt about 12 years ago. I have done some terrible things that I'm not sure I will ever get be able to forgive myself for.
I have found (and continue to find) being honest an open about it very difficult....Over the years it became natural to hide how I feel and talking about it is still something I have to do better with. I have been working on this and have been going to see the same counsellor for about 7 months now and have never missed an appointment unless either of us have been on holiday. I really enjoy the sessions and always come out following great....
Financially I am still in quite a bit of debt but after months of playing about with it I have it all in a place where I am comfortable and have actually managed to go on a few holidays this year so things are definitely looking better. I have learnt from on here still to enjoy my life and pay the debt of slowly and that seems to be working well for me.
I know I still have a long way to go but I am taking things one day at a time.....lots of people I would like to apologise too and I am currently writing list as part of my counselling sessions. My counsellor feels I am carrying a massive weight of guilt on my shoulders and I need to try and rid myself of this.
Anyway I am going to try and write a bit more on here again as it used to make me feel a bit better putting it down.

All the best to everyone.
Damo

Dammmooooo
Well done on 8 months of abstinence dude

Today was the first day I have looked at my day count in some time.....It doesn't really matter to me now but reading 245 days did make me feel good this morning.

Have a gamble free day everyone
Damo

Well done on those gamble free days damo. ..
Hope things are good for you and yours x

Not having much luck at the moment and just feel like a moan.
Partner opened front door this morning and handle snapped off in her hand.....she is currently waiting on a locksmith to go out.
Also my car just been through MOT and service, which cost a lot more than I hoped, and now it is making some strange noises so I need to get it looked at again.
With xmas not to far away this isn't really what I needed at the moment. Debts are really tying me down just now but at least they are coming down rather than going up.

Cant wait till this month is over.
Damo

Hey Damo, sorry to hear you're having a rough time at the moment. Things certainly come at the worst time, but stay focused and hopefully things will work out. And like you said, at least the debts are coming down and not going up, so that's something to be very proud of! All the best. C x

Thanks for the kind words Charley.

Well car problems mean I can't make today's counselling session, which is a shame as I always feel good after them.

Not all doom and gloom though as my dad is up to see me for the weekend. Don't get to see him that often so will be nice to spend a bit of time with him.

I knew those feelings would soon pass , your too much of a positive person to let a couple of little things get you down for long Damo :)) Weve been through it so many times along the way mate , deep breaths then onwards and upwards eh ?.

Stay safe Damo

Really trying to stay positive but everything feels so hard just now. Feeling lonely and a bit lost if I'm being honest.

Just got to dig my heels in and get through this bad period. There is light at the end of the tunnel but it seems so far away just now....