Time to stop

Hi Damo, day 22, fantastic! Sorry you're feeling ill, hope it passes soon. Glad you got out for a while; we may be in recovery but we still deserve to enjoy ourselves. Take care and hope you feel better soon xx

Thanks Annie.

Quick check in....day 23 and still going strong. Finished work for the day and heading home to the family for the weekend.

No thoughts of gambling but know I need to stay focused as I've had long periods of not doing it before.

26/1/16 the last day I ever had a bet of any sort. A day I will never forget.

Day 24

Still not feeling great and had thoughts about cancelling counselling session but don't want to get complacent even as early as this.

Jus come out of it and feel great as usual....not many places I get to bare my soul. What a relief it is.

Home now to spend the weekend with my family.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Enjoy your weekend Damo.

I felt rotten and really tired on the 3 occasions I have tried to give up gambling. When you think how the addiction rules your life and you stop taking care of yourself completely when it comes to healthy eating, sleeping etc. You also have lots going on in your mind when recovering in the early stages. I have found sleep and healthy lifestyle had helped. I also really unjoyed unburdening myself at counselling.

Keep up the fab work and enjoy the company of your family xx

Hi annie.....yes although ive had the cold ive felt everything that has happened has made me feel 10 times worse than i normally would. Didnt really leave my bed all weekend but the cold was really affecting my sleep at nights so I was so tired.

Well Day 27 is here and I’m getting close to 1 month from the date that it all went wrong again.

Finally getting over the cold that has wiped me out for about a week now and almost feeling normal. Had a good chat with my mum as I drove up the road to work last night and that always helps me to feel a bit better. Felt more lonely than ever recently as I haven’t had the gambling to fill my time. Feel stupid as I have the most amazing family but can’t seem to shake the loneliness. I’ve become so good at hiding my feelings that nobody would think that I was anything other than happy most of the time.

I have applied for a new job with a bit more money at another company with ore chance of getting to work near home….which I think will do me some good. So fingers crossed I get some news about that this week.

Hi Damo, firstly well done on 27 days and forget about any other attempts at recovery - that is in the past and we are in the business of going forward.

I think all us gamblers are good at hiding our feelings because we lead such a sneaky and lonely life whilst in the depths of our addiction. I am also very cheery and have never let the mask slip and not even Sherlock himself could get to the bottom of me!

Best of luck with the new job. Let us know how you get on.

Take care xx

morning damo ,

that month is in touching distance now 🙂 its around that time I managed to let it all go 🙂 once i did my focus was so much better.. hope the new job comes in for you matey .. be nice for a change of environment.. and to be closer to home .. I can remember working away week after week and hated it towards the end .. that was years ago now but i can relate ..

Speak soon mate and enjoy getting to the month mark 🙂

Kris

Hi Kris and Annie,

Really appreciate your comments on my diary...its nice to know people spend a bit of time reading what you are writing and take the time to wish you well.....i really appreciate it :).

Yes getting closer and closer to the month which will feel fantastic.... and im feeling alot more positive today. I think finally i'm getting over the cold which is helping with that.

Ive been alot more focussed at work today as well. Amazing how much quicker the day passes when you get stuck into it.

Anyway best getting cracking as lots to do.

Hope everyone is well.

Damian

Hi Damo been following your progress and like you say that month will soon be here. Did you go to the counselling?it sounds like it might be something you would benifit from

KTF

Hi Oldham....yes had 2 session so far definitely something I benefit from. I enjoy the fact i dont feel like i need to hide anything. Would quite like to get myself to a GA meeting as well (used to go to them about 15 years ago) but with my work as it is it is not possible at the moment. That will all change end of March though so will look at it again then.

Damian

Day 29 is here and 2 days away from 1 month......in reality its not a very long time but to me its felt like a long journey.

Feeling good this morning as ive just lined up the first part of my interview for new job at 9.30 on friday morning....fingers crossed i get passed that and onto the final stage. Extra money would definitely come in handy to starting getting the debts clered a little quicker. Although its coming down slowly I am wnjoying seeing them reduce rather than increase for the first time in quite a while.

just 1 day to go for your month and interview 🙂 happy days on both accounts ..

best of luck with the interview tomorrow pal 🙂

Hi Damo, you're doing fab. Fingers crossed for the interview tomorrow xx

Sad news today....a friend of mine, only in his early 30s, lost his battle with cancer. He's never had a smile off his face even since he found out.....really makes my problems feel stupid.

Has made me more determined than ever to never gamble again. RIP my friend.....the world will be a worse place without you in it.