Time to stop

One month a great achievement, next goal 50 days. Good luck with the job interview. Sad to hear about your friend it puts a lot of things in perspective.

Yes 1 month from the day it went completely wrong....saying that it had been going wrong for a couple of years and that day was just the end of it.....the day I admitted it all to my mum at least.

Since then I haven't gambled but I'm not sure much else has changed. I'm happy I haven't gambled of course but the happiness hasn't reached other parts of my life......im struggling to adapt to a gamble free life. Have nothing to hide myself in.

I have such a good family who I love and would do anything for.....so I feel stupid feeling like this but can't seem to shake it.

Im sure time will help so lets get to the 50 days.....taking 1 day at a time though.

Day 32 spent with the family shopping for my youngest sons birthday gifts for next weekend.

Nice chilled out day with no thoughts of gambling.

Pay day Monday but no worries about that as I haven't missed any payments on anything for years and years. Transferring any spare money over to my partner to put away for our wedding and just leaving me with what I need.

Still haven't told her but that is coming. i know there is no right time but I have a plan of when I'm going to do it and sticking with it.

Hi Damo

I respect you have a plan like you say they will never be an ideal time.

You might find that when that day comes, to getting it all out, it is your eureka moment. It's like the final nail in your gambling coffin accepting that they is no going back.

Things will start to come together.

KTF

It's good to have a plan I think you won't be happy or feel things are coming together until you are totally honest with your partner. Then you will be fully on the way to recovery and a happy "normal" life.

Quick check in.....day 33 no gambling. Days clocking up nicely now.

Day 34

Well decided against going for the new job and at the same time my work has offered my a larger payrise and promised me some more senior roles going forward.....so looks like ill be staying where i am.

Called up one of my credit cards to discuss what was going on and was amazed at how understanding they were. Got them to stop any future transcations on the card and although its already cut up it means there is no chance of me getting hold of a new card again even if i wanted too.

All in all a good day.....rolll on day 35.

Day 34

Well decided against going for the new job and at the same time my work has offered my a larger payrise and promised me some more senior roles going forward.....so looks like ill be staying where i am.

Called up one of my credit cards to discuss what was going on and was amazed at how understanding they were. Got them to stop any future transcations on the card and although its already cut up it means there is no chance of me getting hold of a new card again even if i wanted too.

All in all a good day.....rolll on day 35.

Day 35 nearly over.

Busy day at work and home and will need to open the lap top to finish some stuff that has to be done.

Really getting stuck into my work and that is helping to occupy my mind.

For anyone out there who is just starting....stick to it the days will soon add up and it really does improve if you work at it.

Look at you Mr, how fantastic that the gf days are mounting up. Your posts show your positivity and that is fab.

Thanks for posting on my diary, you're not too far behind me so I'll be looking over my shoulder and giving you a wave on our road to recovery xx

Thanks Annie....always appreciate your comments 🙂

Well day 36 coming to the end and another gamble free day.

Spent the night in the pub watching the football with a few guys from work....starting to socialise a lot more since the gambling stopped which is good.

Bad night with the football results but didn't lose a penny and enjoyed watching it stress free.

Night

Day 37 and its going home day again....my favourite day of the week.

Going to leave early and surprise the family getting in a couple of hours before I normally do.

Got a busy weekend ahead...got to get the mrs a mothers day gift from the kids and its my boys 3rd birthday on saturday. Got my mum and sister coming down from scotland for the weekend which im looking forward too. Keeping myself mega busy still so no time to think about gambling.

Everything still really positive.

Damo, sounds like you have a very busy time ahead over the weekend. Give your wife a long lie and keep the kids occupied on sunday morning - for me that's the best thing ever!

Still loving the positivity. Take care pal xx

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