Time to stop

Day 52 and a quick update. Still no gambling and opened up to a close friend while I'm up in Edinburgh. She has had her own issues and it was nice that we could be open and give each other support.

Just on my way to airport to pick my partner and son up....can't wait to see them as its nearly been a week.

Another gamble free day.

Day 55

Made the decision to start walking into work every day in the hope it will help me lost a little weight. It's just over 2 miles and I'm on my way for the first time as I type this. I hope it doesn't rain.

Had a few thoughts about gambling over the weekend but I feel good that I never actually felt like I would act on them.

This Saturday will mark 2 months since my last bet and life is definitely improving. Got to keep focused though.

Day 57

I'm having less and less to say on here these days....which I guess in a way is a good thing.

My third day of walking into work and my body is aching a little but I'm sure I will get used to it. Got to keep it up.

Saturday will be 2 months since my last bet and boy does it feel good.....no stress, no sleepless nights and no worrying about money every day (just every second day).

Have a good day everyone.

Hi Damo

Nice work. Great you can bulid on other areas of your life when you stop gambling, as you're doing with your health. To use that momentum from your non-gambling to spread to other areas. I know I'm not alone in saying that my body took a battering when I was gambling - drinking, smoking, c**P food, late nights and stress were all bed-buddies of gambling.

It's funny how, before I stopped gambling, the idea of cutting out f**s, getting fitter and stopping gambling would've all just seemed way too much. But when you stop gambling - that mental fog which acted as a barrier to anything and everything, it starts to clear.

Best

Louis

You've hit the nail on the head there Louis.....I have never been a smoker and not much of a drinker but wow have I let myself go. Even simple things like not ironing my woke clothes like I used to. Just started getting up and going as they were.

Getting married next year so losing weight is getting my focus just now. I am in no way massive, weigh just over 12 stone, but I want to lose the little belly I have for the wedding photos :).

Thanks for taking the time to post.

Damo

60 days and exactly 2 months to the day since my last bet.

Was a bit of a roller coaster ride initially but life has definitely improved for me. I don't miss the betting at all just now although I know there is every chance that may change and I need to keep my guard up.

Not sure I could have done it without the words of encouragement of the people on here so I thank anyone/everyone who has taken the time to wish me well.

Off to enjoy my weekend away with the family.

26th Jan 2016....the last day I ever placed a bet.

Well done on the two months gf keep it going things can only get better.

you should never gambling on roulette or slot, these 2 just sucking in money and kill you. that roulette has destroyed so many lifes in the uk, in should be banned...

Cheers Damo , much apreciated and well done on your 60 days and glad to see things in your world are looking up !

Take care buddy and Best wishes Alan !

Day 63 and feeling pretty crappy at the moment....need to shake this feeling.

Always had massive highs and lows but not going to turn to gambling this time......wish the thoughts wouldn't come into my head about it though. If only there was an off switch somewhere.

Morning, Damo,

I'm going to do my usual thing of pointing out what is probably true but you don't want to hear it. I know about the gambling, therefore it is possible for me to manage the finances, assist with the barriers, encourage meetings and therapy. Your wife doesn't know, therefore she can't do any of these things.

I am under no illusion that I am "stopping" my husband from gambling. He could get round it all if he chooses to. But for the time being he is choosing recovery. With the support of his GA meetings and a policy of honesty and transparency.

The difference between "we" and "I" is the difference between "well" and"ill".

BW,

CW

Hi damo. ..well done on the 60 odd days...good on you....hope you manage to shake off that crappy feeling...imagine how much worse you would be feeling if you'd gambled the last 60 odd days....so batten down the hatches and plod on ....xxx

Well done on 63 days. It's all good. Be strong and keep your guard up.

Thanks again for your comments guys....CW really hit a nerve and I've been doing a bit of soul searching for the last few days.

My outside life seems to be improving day by day, work is going much better, doing more excercise and doing a lot more with the family.....but still I can't seem to shake the rubbishy feeling inside me......and I know that's because I still haven't told my partner. It's the only thing holding me back just now.

Gambling has made me a total coward though....my whole life I have hidden away and avoided things and owning up to her is proving very hard.

Had my first counselling session for 3 weeks yesterday, because of the bank holidays and me going away, and it's all I really talked about for the 50 mins.

The one massive positive is that I'm still not gambling......that's got to be good right. Just wish it felt better.

Hi Damo

I firmly believe opening up is to liberate yourself...liberation from the shame of gambling.

It's the perfect antidote to the secret world of addiction, shame and ego.

I believe addiction is linked to issues of connection with others. You might find, like me, that by opening up you can reconnect.

Best

Louis