Day 93
Have a great GF Sunday everyone.
Breakfree
Day 95
Absolute no desire to gamble at all, training my brain to distance myself from that person I was.
On reflection it is becoming clear what a massive bubble I've been living in for 15 years.
I think at 33, I have finally realised enough is enough.
Over these last 3 months my life has changed massively in a good way and I want that to continue.
My focus now is getting through last 4 weeks to Christmas and enjoying the festive period with my family.
Stay strong everyone as it does get easier.
Breakfree
Day 98
I will be honest I've come very close to gambling these last 24 hours.
I am approaching 100 days GF and I've been starting to lose the motivation to keep going.
My brain has been telling me "come on deposit £100 and let's get on the football betting again."
I know it won't just be £100.
I'm missing my golf as it off season here and I think my brain is looking for that buzz that golf normally provides.
It's been tough these last few days but I must refrain from placing that bet. d**n this is still tough after 98 days.
Breakfree
It's hard. I know those exact lines "What is a £100" "What if we can flip a Grand" "Come on" fight the urges breakfree it's super tough but you are 2 days away from triple figures. Stay Focused.
Congratulations breakfree on 98 days without gambling.
Just read your first post on this thread dated 19th August 2017. Really sad but true reminder of where gambling takes us and it's an awful place. We lose all respect and any sense of reason. Take care. Stephen
Day 99
Thanks Smashed and Abstainer for the continued support, I really appreciate it.
Had a few days feeling sorry for myself but feeling better today. I'm not going to give in and feed the monster.
Tomorrow is a cause for celebration as it's 100 days GF, my longest ever stretch GF.
breakfree
Day 100
It's been a real rollercoaster but I've reached 100 days GF.
Next goal is get to Xmas unscathed.
Hi breakfree,
Well done on 100 days! I agree with what Abstainer said, your first post is hard-hitting and I can totally relate to it. When you are feeling tempted try re-reading your opening post. Don’t just skim read it. Try and absorb it, and if possible let those horrible feelings from August come back to you (if only for a moment) - this should be enough to stop you making that first bet. It’s hard to do after a while as you’ll know the post word for word before long, but don’t lose sight of how gambling made you feel when you wrote that first post.
Best wishes
Congratulations 100 days - great achievement!!
Remember it's an awful addiction, don't let it sneakily tempt you back, we cannot win because we cannot stop. Most of us didn't come across this site by accident - we needed it!!
No more feeling sorry for yourself. Feel proud instead, you have a gf Christmas to look forward to!!! x
Well done, 100 days, great achievement!
Keep it up and look forward to your GF Christmas!
Day 101
Thanks guys for the words of encouragement, it's massively appreciated.
Well here we go again, after passing 100 days GF it feels like starting again.
Today I'm full of flu but also full of optimism about my future, things are getting better I just need to be a bit more patient in many aspects of my life.
Looking back I really don't miss those wasted hours waiting for a goal to come in and being in a zombie like state for the whole weekend.
I'm a family man now and we are expecting another one in February so we've got lots to look forward to and be responsible for!
Sorry for the long post but needed to get some thoughts written down.
Wishing everyone a GF free Monday and stay strong out there.
Breakfree
Another Bambino on the way should keep you focused to stay on track. Next stop 200.
Day 103
Cheers smashed, you are right I have plenty in my life right now to keep me focused.
Another day I will remain GF. Hope anyone that reads my diary will take strength from it. Keep going everyone.
breakfree
Day 107
Woke up today feeling proud how far I've come since those dark days in August.
It's pay day next Thursday, my 4th since I've stopped gambling.
All my wages will be going towards my family having a nice Xmas, paying bills and reducing my debt and that feels really great.
Hope everyone has a nice GF Sunday.
Breakfree
Day 108
Just checking in and staying focused!
New week and going to remain GF!
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