Trying again.

Thanks guys. Day 10 today. Such a short amount of time but I'm feeling so much better. I've gone from feeling suicidal to being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Now my days aren't consumed by worry over the result of tennis matches and golf tournaments, I've found myself being able yo talk to people more and be myself. When I had bets on all the time I just couldn't concentrate on my work or what people were saying to me. I just wanted to look at my phone to see if my bet was winning.

Life is so much better being bet free. So much less stressful. I have been a destructive compulsive gambler for over a decade, yet today I can honestly say I did not even think about gambling. I feel like I'm becoming normal again. Long May it continue! I feel like if I keep taking it one day at a time then it will continue. I know there will be harder days than this to come but I think I'm going to stay strong this time. It's gone on far too long and I know I need to put a stop to it. And I've had far too many disasters to know that I have to 100% quit! whereas before I always kinda knew I would gamble again. I would convince myself that I would control it this time. I now realise that I am not able to control it, therefore my only option is to refrain completely.

Rick.

Cheers NT.

im sure as each week passes by, I will feel better and better. I just regret the time and money wasted but nothing can be fond about that. I suppose all I can do is make sure I don't waste anymore time and money.

congratulations on your 48 days. I've never managed to get that far. Hopefully this time though..

Good post rock, and well done on 10 days of winning, it's sooo much saner than another 10 days of losing even more.

Stay strong and positive,

Suzanne xx

Thanks for your post Suzanne.

even though I'm still skint and things aren't great, Mentally I'm in a much better place due to me not gambling. Usually my every thought is consumed by gambling but not at the moment. It feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

hope things are going well for you too.

rick.

Nothing much to say other than to report another gamble-free day. 11 days now. Last time it all fell apart on day 13.

Make sure you cannot gamble then block everything give bank cards to others self exclude . Please do all you can to limit yourself

Hi poblwc, I am self excluded from just about every online bookies. My attempt to quit feels different this time. Previous attempts, I always in the back of my mind, knew would fail. This is different. I feel like I'm going to do it this time. Just taking if one day at a time. Once I get to Saturday, that will be the longest I haven't gambled for years.

That's brilliant rock bottom. I was very tempted last night. My daughter had a sleepover and i had time on my hands. If it wasnt for the blocks i would have gambled as my willpower is poor. There's not much else you can do only take one day at a time. Good on you. I had to hit 'rock bottom' before i realised i had to stop. Widh to God i had done it sooner

Well done on 12 days today Rock.

Stay strong and keep going.

Suzanne xx

Me too poblwc!

i wish I could have seen sense years ago. My life would be so much better then. But there's nothing we can do about the past, just need to make sure our future is better and if we never gamble again, then im sure that will be the case.

Thanks Suzanne.

i have got through another day with no problem at all. The more I think about it, the more I realised that on my previous attempts, I never wanted to quit forever. This attempt feels different, more genuine. I hit 'rock bottom' and realised I didn't want to be there again. I no longer had a choice. I had to quit. I feel sure I'm going to do it.

Like you say you gad to go right to the bottom to start again. It makes me more determined to succeed. Well done i feel it gets easier even though i have a few wobblers!! They are getting less and the times i dont want to gamble are getting more if that makes sense

If you're wondering why i am posting late i've been woke up by my daughters coughing. She's not well poor thing

2 whole weeks now without gambling. Still checking odds now and again because I always want to know the prices when I'm watching sport..I would have had a decent winner today as my football team won at very good odds but it doesn't really bother me because I would have probably lost it by now anyway.

& therein lies the problem...We cannot win because we cannot stop!

Massive congratulations on 2 whole weeks 🙂

Keep strong - ODAAT