The penny has finally dropped for me on that one ODAAT. No matter how much I've won in the past, I always found a way to not only lose it all but also pour in more money trying to chase it back.
Hi NT
I know it will. Last payday I had quit for 13 days and just wanted to place a £50 e/w bet on the golf, nothing else. I ended up betting non-stop all weekend, had quite a lot of wins early on but I just increased my stakes so it disappeared fast. I did not stop until all my money was gone. This has happened on every payday for longer than I can remember. After all these mistakes, I really think and really hope that I've realised that I'm never going to be able to just have the odd bet. I have to never have a bet again. It's tough because it's been such a huge part of my life for so many years. It's been my only hobby, my only pastime. I literally lost friends because all I wanted to do on a weekend was sit in front of a computer gambling on results of tennis matches between two players I'd never heard of. Sounds crazy now.. But to me it was perfectly normal to stick 500 on these matches and if I won, I would put even more on the next one. Nothing's ever enough, I can see now that no matter his much I would win, all it would mean is that it might give me a few more days of gambling but the end result would always be the same. I would gamble until all my money has disappeared. Then the depression and suicidal thoughts return and I kid myself that I'm gonna quit. Until next payday and the cycle continues.
i know this time it's got to stop. I'm in so much trouble with money I cannot even explain.
Thanks NT. I will have a look.
im thinking of getting back into some of the hobbies I used to have before. I am finding the boredom quite difficult to cope with. I was never bored when I had a bet on, the time would fly by. It's more difficult at the moment because I don't even have the money to do anything.
Day 16 - done.
nothing much else to say. I'm not even giving gambling much thought at all these days. Not tempted at all. I haven't got much money at the moment so hopefully that isn't the only reason.
3 weeks today since I gambled.
had a little wobble on Wednesday when I wanted to gamble but I managed to talk myself out of it.
Day 43. Still going strong.
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