My last deposit into a soul sucking online slots site was 5th September. Nearly 200 quid in one day! So tomorrow will mark the two monthiversary since my last bet. Reflecting on the journey so far, life has changed in so many ways for the better. I actually had a gardener round to give me some quotes on work that needs doing. It's going to set me back at least two grand, but it will look amazing. At my worst when gambling I burned through that much in three days with nothing to show for it but a sore back and a lot of shame and guilt and depression. This two grand is going to be spent so much better 😊. It will be enjoyed by me for years to come. To anyone struggling at the moment, it is so worth pushing through the pain to get to the other side.
I know I'm not cured and I know I never will be. I will have to be vigilant always, and never allow complacency to set in. I cannot gamble because I do not know when to stop.
Just for today I will not gamble.Â
Congrats Roxy! Two months for you, means mine is only 10 days away 😊. So happy for you with your progress and journey! You seemed to have really gained positive perspective and outlook on life since you made the decision to stop gambling! Keep up the hard work, remember why you’re doing this, and stay happy, which seems to come more easily these days!!Â
Your gardening tasks will certainly keep you busy, and you’re right about finding enjoyment in the final product for years to come! Amazing to look back and recall how destructive gambling can be tonus, spending hundreds of dollars for a maybe/what if chance only to have nothing to show at the end. Life feels much more fulfilling when we put in the work to get something we really want - cutting corners (i.e gambling) only leads to eventual loss, grief and what ifs…
To the sensible Roxy - keep setting goals and keep pushing through. All the best
JB
Thanks JB :). We got this 💪Â
Fabulous read Roxy. Â Well done and keep up the hard work in staying g.f and happy!😃.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Thanks pink lady for stopping by and the kind words ❤️
Day 63
Kind of staggering to think of how long it's been. I'm definitely thinking less about gambling because I'm spending less time on here. But I still find that visiting this side and reading about the triumphs and disasters of others always helps me to get on top of urges. And indeed reading my journal back, because I forget just how far it is that I have really come. The difference between me now and how I was 63 days ago is really tangible. It's good to have the old roxy back again.
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Just for today I will not gambleÂ
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