Hi everyone,
I’m here because I’m an addict who has tried to mask this addiction to myself and also done a very good job of hiding it from others or making it appear not to be what it is.
Two years down the line I’m back on this forum. I’m now married and have the most beautiful wife and baby. I love them so much but have let them down behind disbelieve. I just don’t know how I have got here. I’m now 15k in debt and my money pot is empty. I don’t want to gamble anymore. I didn’t from last December until May this year and my well-being was so much better. But sadly got sucked back in this year and after successive wins it’s now spiralled out of control. Neither my wife or family now about this and the debt I’m in. I have let them down so much and when my wife finds out about the debts and my gambling ways she is going to be gutted. I’m so scared of losing them but if I’d told them earlier when the debts was smaller I could of got the support I needed and probably wouldn’t be where I am today. I work for myself and I work so hard to try and chip away at it all and make sure we are comfortable and to my wife it appears we are. We have savings which we have worked so hard for and I just don’t want to put her through the pain. I’m an absolute fool and now I’m destined to lose it all. It’s changing me as a person. I just feel like I don’t want to be here anymore.
Hi onwards
The FOBT’s are a bad invention and should be banned but we don’t care about that because we are not going to play on them anymore.
It’s great you have come back, it means you are serious to put this gambling lark to bed for once and all. For me the Allen Carr book on gambling is a game changer, a very good read, takes all the stress out of stopping gambling away.
Good luck in your journey - you’ve got this.
Shaun
Thanks Sean for your positive message. I’m on day 3 now and even though it’s only the start I’m feeling confident and in the place I need to be to move forward, where as previous times I’ve given it a half assed attempt knowing that I will probably fall back in to the trap. I don’t want to gamble anymore and that’s because I don’t enjoy it and looking at the mess it’s caused. I’m still young in the grand scheme of things. Have debts to pay yes but these will go in time. Now to just get back to taking care of my health and most of all my family. Have a great weekend everyone.
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