Welcome to the " Hotel California "

Hi Alan,

I never started a diary when i came here i think i was more interested in hating myself & beating myself up when i first came here and never got around to it. Who knows maybe i'll start one someday soon.

Best Wishes

AL

" I always thought I had so many reason's to gamble and how I cried poor me  ? , looking back now there were never any reason's at all , just excuses "  ?????????  ......................:((. 

Hi Alan,

Point taken.I'm listening thanks.

AL

You're always asking how everyone else is so...

How are you mate?

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Hi al

thought I would say hi as you said I could be funny if I wanted.   Don’t know if I will just nice to have the freedom!  ??. Well I am at day 12 so in double digits heading steadily towards my Kevin stage.  Hope I don’t hate everyone.  Been ok about not gambling but just been paid today so this is when ? is on your shoulder.  Hope you are ok.  

Dave was getting a bit of a bashing on another forum.  

See you in chat hat no doubt.

stay super chill dude x

@ Signalman . Hi S all well thank you my friend , apologies for not getting back sooner but life took over again , hope your well mate and feeling positive ? . 

Hey Sarah , Thank's for dropping bye :))  You can say what you like on this diary H.un and the funnier the better to be honest as I need a good laugh now and again .

Maybe you could invent a new phrase " Becoming Kevin " as in 13 day's tomorrow ? There used to be happy Hawaii Day day on here when you reached 50 day's so you do have that to look forward too as well 🙂 . Nearly two week's then huh ? , wasn't sooo bad was it ? and if it was it does get easier as it goes on ( well I think it does and it is my diary ) .

Payday can always be a challenge as it the one time when you have a wad at your disposal but you  gotta look on it as " Just another day " and not let addiction tell you otherwise but it's a great feeling when for the first time in ages it doesn't all disappear because of gambling ( probably still disappears but for the right reasons though ) ? 🙂 

I did see the Dave issue building but abstained from commenting even though I've felt the same for a while , it makes no sense just to post an almost scripted page (non religious apparently ?) on someones diary that bears no relevance to the question asked ? but hey ho were all different and if it works for someone then it works I guess ?. 

I've bitten the bullet today and joined a 24hr Gym , LOL,LOL, LOL, LOL, CHUCKLE , WHEEZE :))). I need to get fit again but at my age that could take a while unfortunately  :((

 I don't finish work much before 11 pm so as it's 24 hrs I can rock up then in my spandex and embarrass my 24 yr old son who doesn't know I've joined yet , I can't wait to walk up alongside him as he poses in a mirror and take a before and after selfie with the caption  " Look what you can do to a body after 40yrs of abuse and neglect " ...... Hopefully he'll see the funny side as he's a bit like his dad :)) . 

Take care both and I'll speak soon ( If I can still move ) :))  x     

Hello!

Good work on joining the gym mate - you won't regret it (well you will at first but just hang in there and once you start feeling those benefits in both body and mind you won't look back!)

Maybe soon you'll be a chiselled Adonis like Arnie... Hey, maybe we'll see you in the next Terminator movie if youre willing to take that baton from him (actually did you know a new one is coming out soon? He is 71 and has managed to churn a final chapter out for the legacy - should be an interesting watch!) 

Hope you take inspiration from this message ie it's never too late to do what you want to do (you're both about the same age right?)

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How come you're on moderation now? Cannot keep up with all this lol

Hope all is well in Hotel California!

Keep winning for real as you're doing so well. Be proud of you & keep up the inspiration to others.

S&B xx

You on the naughty step again???

Hi Alan

Hope you will be back again soon- I enjoy your posts and your dialogue with signalman in particular, which in my humble opinion is far more illuminating than the same old record from the London borough of Bromley. Each to their own of course.

Best wishes and I hope you’re doing well.

Might be a couple of days late but well dine on 4 years bud xx

I miss you man. I miss hearing about what you're up to... Did you sell it in the end? Have you and the lovely lady started with the fostering? If so, how's it going?

Are you keeping up with the gym? I am - hey I got asked out on a date by a pretty lady at the petrol garage the other day, flashed her the wedding ring of course and thanked her for the offer - not boasting or anything, just stating how far I've come from this time last year when I walked into my first GA meeting and the bloke went through the 20 questions with me before asking me if I had a 'fixed abode'... And to be fair he had every reason to ask due to the state of my physical health and appearance at that time... 

I miss reading your ding dongs with ALN, I must say they were thoroughly entertaining ?

And your one liners:

@GAdaveuk: is this how you speak to your car mechanic? 

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Ah, missing you man...

Hey get this, I revisited the first post I wrote on here tonight... At the end it read:

Thank you so much for taking time to read this - if you got to the end I have no doubt you are a good person and are better than this illness".

How about that eh? I couldn't have written it better (for myself)

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I am a decent person, this addiction made me believe I was a scumbag, a waster, a selfish failure. Without the addiction hounding me I can now flourish and make good for me and those around me.

It led me to read the next message after my intro which was from you. I know I must sound like a stuck record at times but THANK YOU AGAIN Al. I read your message in detail tonight, every sentence was well thought out, measured and from the heart... You didn't have to do that for me, I was someone new to the forum who you may have never seen again so all that time and effort that went into the post could have been in vain, but anyway just wanted to tell you again it wasn't, I'm all over this recovery and my point was that when you have time again bud, get back on here, your forum needs you! ✊

I was seldom lucky in gambling, but I guess the day I came on here I got lucky because the support you offered me underpins my recovery and a restorative belief in the kind nature of fellow human beings.

Whatever you're up to, hope your enjoying it ?

the support you offered me underpins my recovery and a restorative belief in the kind nature of fellow human beings.

 I got asked out on a date by a pretty lady at the petrol garage the other day, flashed her the wedding ring of course and thanked her for the offer.