What a day!

hey Irene...

thank you for posting...lol i also have been chucckling too with the shananigans with Ms Wonmble and your good self...

Unless you have chronic insomnia Irene don't worry about back reads of my diary as this is my 3rd since i have been on this site which is just over a year now...my other diaries make uncomfortable reading and at times pretty distressing and ugly .....

Despite all thats going on right now....this diary is the most positive! ,...lol...and am happy to join in the positive vibes of this forum in the now and present day ...there are some fanatastic folks on here who know exactly how you feel Irene and I know you will come through this xxx

keep posting..

R and D

Rachel and Dotty (Dotty is my dog ) xx

Hiya

thanks for support on a bad day.

To be honest electricians are taking the P*** beacause I live down a lane on a houseboat. This quote is just for a new cable to my boat , a few hours work, what a joke.

Feeling better today as didn't spend when v low. Have even discussed alternatives to rewiring but hope it doesn't snow now as no heating.

Hope your plumbing is sorted too.

Love the idea of geriatric badminton, I would join def but have dodgy knee replacement they are trying to fix at the moment so would have to hop.

Stay strong

xxx

congrats on that 2 month mark. way to gp

HI Irene,

A big well done on reaching those 60 days gamble free, I hope your still holding your head high and taking pride in what you have achieved so far.

Some people say it takes 90 days to break a habit , I think the addiction will always be there burning in the back ground but each day we are gamble free we are dowsing down those flames.

Keep going irene and well done.

take care

Blondie x

Hi Irene,

U r doing brilliant, u should be sooooo proud of urself!

Thanks 4 making me smile in chat, I enjoy catching up with u 🙂

I hope Paddy is ok!

Have a gr8 nite xxxx

Thank you lovely people x

Day 61- 2 calander months since I last gambled (11/11/12)

Just a very quick post. Looking forward to my night out tomorrow- will be a cheapy as I'm skint lol. 2nd hand fizz as a gift and the girls are coming here for a drink 1st.

Today's been OK- had to call me debt man. I need "the plan" in place asap- bills arriving that I can't pay fully, but managed to pay a bit to each so that'll need to suffice!

Had a great chat today with my friend at lunchtime. He knows about my gambling habit- I didn't fully tell him but he knew. He did try to warn me repeatedly but I paid no attention until I'd got into a bit of a mess! Today, admitted the full extent as well as my progress to date. Also told him about using this forum and the help that I'd recieved. He was mega- impressed that I'd sought help. He knows I'm a stubborn wee git who has learned to be self reliant and knows how hard it was for me to open up. Anyway, our lunchtime catch up kinda turned into a counselling session. Its funny how I suddenly remember things he said to me in the past- given me loads of opportunities to open up, but hey guess I needed to do it in my own time and I respect him for not pushing me.

Its been a long week at work but I love a friday afternoon which is when I do something a bit special- it was great to meet up with SUs that I've worked with for ages. Christmas can be a particularly hard time for folk but they've done so great. We're all looking forward to the year ahead- lots of exciting stuff planned. Also a bit of a change for me- I've relinquished total control of the group and we'll take turns to facilitate. That'll be hard and I'll prob stick my oar in, but I'm trying 🙂

My best friend's really struggling atm- she's had a totally hellish time that no mother should ever have to endure and the hell will continue for her probably forever. I'm trying to make up for not fully being there when she needed me last year (one of the regrets that I'll always have) but not really sure how to.

Why, when I start writing a "short post" do I start to ramble????? Well, better out than in I suppose!

I'll catch up with other's diaries on Sunday x

Well done on 2 months being gamble free. You seem so much happier in your posts and I aim to try to copy you and go on a long gamble free run. Keep drinking that water you are drinking or should I say carry on being strong and enjoying life.

Wilsy

Hi Irene,

Great to here you sounding so positive.

When we get the gambling head on we dont listen do we....and we dont have time for other folks problems....sounds like you are really "gettin there".......so happy for you!

Womble x

hi irene

winners all round

oops! thanks folks

Day 62

Forgot to post earlier- party was brill.

Hi Irene,

Thank u 4 ur post on my diary 🙂

Well done on 62 days gamble free, u r doing brilliant 🙂

Thanks 4 all ur support and 4 making me smile in chat 🙂

Have a gr8 nite xxxx

Day 63=9 weeks

Self inflicted suffering today lol. Body aching- had my dancing legs on last night! Party was brill- a lovely upbeat night. Good friends, music, food and vodka contributed to a happy laughter filled evening. I had taken the car, intending a hasty retreat-after an hour brought it home, got a lift back to the party and the rest is history. Only spent a tenner lol- not officially a byob but we did!!

Not been bothered with urges, in fact not much at all recently. Still vigilant tho- I know they can strike at any time (got my coping tools at the ready).

My emotions seem to have settled a bit- thankfully.

All in all a good weekend 🙂

hey irene..you ar so upbeat and your party sounds like a riot ..lol ...in a good way of course..

Thank you for the support tonight and hoping this time tomorrow i will feel different.

keep posting xx

r and d xx

Good Morning,

Thank you for the post and tagged snow warning :). Think I will give the garden a miss forecast is for temperatures as low as -7 later this week. More than happy to have hot drink and a biscuit instead although reading your post yesterday not sure I would keep up with your wild nights 🙂

Fantastic progress reaching 9 weeks writing that down must make you feel very proud of what you are achieving. I mention it a lot but consistency is a massive factor and you consistently post, just that little focal point goes a long way in keeping us bet free.

Hope you have another lovely week,

Oh and wrap up warm!

Flagg

Hi irene

Congrats on your 63 days and glad to hear you had a good time.

Stay strong