What a day!

Hi there

so pleased all is going well for you, life can be good, bit like the girl with the curl, when its good its very very good and when its bad its horrid.

Enjoy!!!

xxx

Hi Irene,

Well done on reaching 9 weeks, you have come such a long way. Glad you had a good night out and hope the hangover is better today.

You have made a big commitment to your recovery irene and supported lots of people along the way.

Enjoy each day of your recovery, you have earnt it.

Take care

Blondie xx

Well sounds like a good night out for you, body aches and all. LOL yeah a tener is cheap for all ya received and sounds like good quality stuff at a fair price. LOL LOL LOL

hi irene

hangover should of gone by now leaving you to carry on the fantastic job you are doing here

Thanks once again folks x (hangover gone lol)

Day 64

What a difference a day makes! Why, why, why every time I feel like I'm getting somewhere, does something else rubbish happen??????

Arghhhhhh!

Today Paddy's wee pal (my sister's dog) had to have a massive lump removed from her mouth- vet thinks it may be cancerous. Sis has spent today in tears. I realise this may sound crazy to folk who don't have pets, but so sad and a massive blow to my family. Just awaiting histology/pathology results.

Another CC statement in the post- reminding me not only of how much I owe, but how much I've squandered on gambling (I only prev counted the total owed).

Stuff going on with my son too, which I'm not going to share here cos its not really my business. Suffice to say, I'm wondering if his gf may be hampering his career chances. Time for him to do a +/- and make a decision- I hope its the right one for him/them.

On a good note, been too busy to think about gambling 🙂

hiya Irene and paddy paws xx

how fantastic are the CAB??...are they a hidden gem or what?

Feel I can sleep for the first time properly in weeks..my jaw aching from grinding teeth but i know you know this all too well..

feel for your sis today and i totally get how upsetting it is...dots is my baby and i would be the same if it was her..youd react the same as if it were your actual baby.

great to see you on the forum Irene...also on first name terms at the CAB now..lol ...

We should be poster girls for them

r and d xxx

Thanks folks x

Day 65

Think I had a wee dose of the "poor me" yesterday!

Progress-:

Still don't know if Paddy's pal has cancer- but she's doing great after her op and sister's stopped crying.

CC statement's in the bin- I don't need reminded about the past, I'm dealing with it!!

Son's made his decision- I hope it's the right one for him. I've been biting my tongue, trying so hard not to interfere!!!!

Forgot to note yesteday- my buddy cancelled badminton.

Today's decision- do I try to stop smoking or not??? A purely financial decision. If I don't buy more cigs, I could pay that money towards my debt (or get my hair done Monday!!) Kinda made up my mind to try- phoned a smoking cessation service today. Their groups start next week. Seems a bit bonkers paying almost £8 per day to get sick.............

Hopefully, back to solid turf mood wise- thank goodness for this space to offload 🙂

Btw- gamble free!!!

HI Irene,

Good luck with the no smoking, I gave up in august last year have had the odd slip but not gone back and 3 cigs in 6 months is pretty good going for someone who has smoked for years.

Not only will your bank balance benefit but like you say your health will improve ten fold.

I used the electronic cigs for a while but now just chew the odd nicorett gum.

I tried to treat it like gambling, i.e just for today i wont smoke i can kill myself tomorrow and waste all my money if i want but today I decided not to do that.

Best wishes with it.

Take care

Blondie xxx

hey Irene

Thank you for popping in..

Good on you for tackling the ciggies aswell as everything else going on...sounds like a big new year clear out with all things that have held you back now going so you can move forward.

not wanting to be a bad influence ...but us ladies need to look our best too whilst we are recovering,...maybe book that hair appointment...you're worth it!

r and d xx

Irene

glad to read things are getting back on an even keel.

As for smoking, i used to smoke a good twenty a day and through my recovery i quit the cigarettes back in February last year.

The money is better spent elsewhere. Without doubt.

If you do decide to give it a go, my advice get all the help that's out there. I used the nicotine gum for three months, now i just chew regular gum.

And as Blondie said just for today i won't smoke.

Enjoy the money i do, fifty odd quid a week !!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Irene,

It was nice 2 catch up with u in chat 2nite 🙂

I have just caught up on ur diary, sorry 2 read u have had a few tough days 🙁

I hope Paddy's friend is ok!

It's good 2 hear that u r feeling better 2day tho 🙂

U r doing brilliant Irene 🙂

Stay strong xxxx

Yeah smoke too and sure ain't cheap to kill yourself with the things now days is it? LOL guess i been smoking close to 40 years and made more than a few attempts to quite and still attempting to. LOL Yeah be quite the savings right there that's for sure. Wishing ya luck in that quest too girl and Congrats on the other.

Hi Irene

Good to see you are doing well. and hope paddy is fine to?

I would try to stop smoking it only kills you slowly.

Thing of it as give up gambling one day at a time.

Or you can make it your new years reslotion.

hi irene

i wish every success in both journeys

Thanks everyone! Although I was kinda hoping that someone would tell me to keep smoking lol.

Day 66 gamble free/ 7 hours smoke free!

I saw a smoking cessation advisor today. Got "patched up" and now on a programme to stop! As I said yesterday, I know all the health risks etc but I do love a ciggie and my main motivation to stop is financial- seems a bit crazy to work hard to pay debts off for years and spend £250/month on cancer sticks.

I am a wee bit wary of planning/making big changes atm. My immediate goals did not include stopping smoking at this time. I wonder if this is the right time? My moods just stabilising after the rollercoaster of the past few weeks- can I cope without cigs? ................emmm now I'm just thinking of excuses to put of the inevitable- I need to stop- full stop!

Gamble urges/ thoughts have been minimal except to try and work out how some of the diversion/coping tools I've been using can be transferred to smoking urges.

Bring on tomorrow 🙂

Appointment for hair booked - so I can't smoke 🙂